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this book is a dumpster fire, and NOT THE FUN KIND!
i just got to part two of the third notebook, i am not okay. what the hell yozo
i think it’s very fun to read from different perspectives, okay. it’s interesting to dissect a protagonist and piece together how they got there and make some sense in what they’re doing
i still think the writing for this book is beautiful but yozo you need to TONE IT DOWNN. i know you’ve been through it but that’s not an excuse
i feel so bad for tsuneko, shizuko, shigeko, and yoshiko (a 17 YEAR OLD MIND YOU) like girl don’t marry him, RUN WHILE YOU STILL CAN😭
and the way yozo was talking about her age and virginity, that was SUPER DUPER ICKY someone come save this girl PLEASE
on a side note, i am very VERY nervous for what’s about to go down in the last two sections of this book. i saw the trigger warnings, and im absolutely dreading it. i know i did this to myself by picking up this book but im too lost in the sauce guys, its so bad i cant look away
my initial mentality while reading was “okay, let’s just get this over with” BUT NO. WE’RE DRAWING IT OUT
anyways this is an interesting read 😆
just started to read no longer human by osamu dazai. so far, it’s pretty interesting! i’m maybe halfway? through the second notebook
when i was reading the back, the summary mentioned how it was one of dazai’s last complete works and that just suddenly reminded me of a vid i saw of someone basically describing the book as his suicide letter, and i can see why
i don’t know too much about his life. it’s just a bit sad to think that this book was him laying himself bare under the guise of yozo, as if to finally tell people,”this is how it really feels”
that sense of feeling alienated from everybody is personal, and it feels strange to read it out on paper after going on for so long not knowing how to articulate it
the perspective of yozo does have his faults, i know that he’s an unreliable narrator, he does some fucked up things, and his opinions definitely were a product of its time. i just think it shows just how human he really was; he’s flawed.
like when he describes how he didn’t feel like he was loved while growing up, just taken care of. for me that really just illustrates how detached he was, his isolation clouded his judgement. because while yes the people in his life may have just taken care of him and nothing else, there’s also the probability that they really did love him
the writing style is beautiful. i’m not really sure where this will go. i know this is kind of a lot for only the first two sections i just think too much lol