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(Spoiler) TL1 Debutante

In the prologue chapters, Lari described that she might have been cute as a child, wearing ribbons, flower decorations, and girlish accessories (like now actually), when her hair got long and she became an adult, she stopped all that to act the role of a proper noble lady from House Belois. As an adult, she considered herself the furthest away from a pretty person - she had unremarkable features with pale, washed out light brown hair and eyes (compared to the rich dark brown characteristic of House Belois), and constantly had a serious expression on her face, and held proper posture at all times. Her expressions were easily displayed on her face, and thus her irritable nature was obvious for everyone to see. Under the watchful eye of her father, she never wore accessories and only dressed herself up simply with plain brown/dark colored dresses. Thus, Lari considered herself unremarkable in EVERY aspect: intelligence, beauty, character, appearance, fashion, even facial expressions.

It didn't help that at 15, she expected a lot of marriage proposals to start coming in for her, but they never did, even when she was 18, she never had a proper offer of marriage. It didn't make sense - as a daughter of a Count, just by having a title should make her desirable, even if she's not pretty or have a good personality, right? Even so, she was VERY excited for her debutante at 16 years old alongside Riche. This will be her first visit to the palace, and she can meet all the Capital Nobles - she was so excited at this opportunity! Her father didn't want to sponsor her, so she asked Aunt Amelia to because she had no one else to ask, and SHE REALLY WANTED TO DEBUT! Unfortunately, Aunt Amelia showed her the same care and consideration as in TL2 - which is she didn't care about Lari at all. She may have sponsored Lari under "House Belois", but it was utterly a disaster. Lari didn't know what it took to prepare for her own social debut, she didn't know the proper attire for it, she's never been to a ball before.. and thus.. the results were extremely disastrous. She was one of the main characters as a girl who debuted that day, but she appeared in one of her regular brown dresses - she even considered it shabby and worn out compared to the others - and she felt the sympathetic gazes of the girls and many ridiculing comments from others. She was left as a lonely wallflower who didn't socialize and dance with anyone, and no one offered to dance with her. It was utterly embarrassing. One person, Crown Prince Rupert, had introduced himself to her (Ch 6), and she was excited - but - she later realized he had known who she was, and just wanted to meet "Lariette of House Belois", and not "Lariette who just turned of age today". Even the Crown Prince had no interest in her as a person.

When she came back home from the TL1 debutante, it was VERY damaging to her self-esteem. She was convinced that no one would ever love her, she's failed as a lady of House Belois because she could never get married and have her own family. Even though she enjoyed reading romance novels, she concluded that it wouldn’t ever happen to her, and she didn’t want to dream of it anymore :(. But at least she has her beloved family who can take care of her, and she'll always be under her father's careful supervision to make sure she's safe, so that's ok, right?

In TL2, we see the trauma persisting - she didn’t bat an eye when Rupert called her fat/ugly at the start (because she really thought she was), she didn’t question it when he said she looked dumb so she was great for spying on the merchants (while he actually thought she would be a good choice because she was cute and the merchants would lower their guard around her).

During Rupert's crown Prince coronation event in Ch 76, Lari is very confident that no one will ask her to dance, and was fine with being in the background and not joining in the festivities. During the debutante arc starting in Ch 99, Lari's repeatedly said that she doesn't want one, she's scared of participating in it this year... and it gets to the point where Elaine and Rupert have to convince her to participate (they've been at it for 3 months!). She denied having House Belois and Aunt Amelia help out (they didn't offer anways), but she couldn't say no when Rupert himself offered to sponsor her. She finally opens up and admits to Rupert in the library that she's scared to attend, because what if no one invites her to dance? then it'll be a super embarrassing, shameful memory. But of course, Rupert tells her that if that happens, then she'll just have to dance with him then. ;)