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Happier than ever- Billie Eilish
Happier - Olivia Rodrigo
- Kim thinking/talking to Lloyd
< Lloyd to Kim
Lloyd and Kim were for as long as they could remember the same person, at least where it mattered. That is until they grew up, Kim chalking it up to a story a comforting idea of escaping poverty but now that he was reunited with Lloyd he was going to do whatever it took to get them their slacker dream!
Lloyd new he had been withdrawing into themselves too much. The barony was getting suspicious, not that they knew the real him anyway. He knew he should come out more if only to save Kim the embarrassment but Lloyd didn’t want to move. They were all better off without him, Kim too.
Kim wrapped his arms around their body in the only hug he could provide Lloyd.
-Don’t think like that Lloyd! It will all work out! I’m going to make us so much money!
Their body began to sway and hum
- How about we sing a song a song about all the bad things to help you let go of it all?
Lloyd smiled, he didn’t think it would work but Kim had been the only one to ever try. Even his personal servants who had cared for him, believed him and been on his side could comfort him. Left him eventually but Kim was different Kim wouldn’t leave.
When I'm away from you, I'm happier than ever
The barons family were all together, that is except Lloyd, when their discussion stoped. They were astonished, who knew Lloyd could sing?
Javier frowned to himself, how had he never heard Lloyds voice like this before?
Wish I could explain it better
What was Lloyd taking about?
Javier’s stomach twisted someone had hurt Lloyd! But when? They were always together ! A dark part of his mind laughed “always together” you really are a sorry excuse for a knight, you never even entered the bar with Lloyd before there are million different ways he could have gotten hurt! And. You. Weren’t. There! Let’s face it you only care now because Lloyds useful you’re as bad as the rest of them!
I wish it wasn't true
Give me a day or two to think of something clever
Julien looked at his parents in worry, what was happening? Lloyd wasn’t a sad person, what is up with this stupid song!
To write myself a letter
To tell me what to do, mm-mmm
Do you read my interviews?
Arcos shock his head yes yes of course he read every paper his son was in! He wanted to know how well Lloyd was doing now, but Lloyd never looked him in the eye anymore spent years calling him “baron” and not father.
When you (when you) said you were passing through
Was I even on your way?
It was true that they had never been a close family but wasn’t it better now that Lloyd had stopped drinking ? Why did he still run away from them???
I knew when I asked you to (when I asked you to)
Be cool about what I was telling you
Arcos felt a rush of cold hit him. How often had Lloyd asked him to talk begged him not to be angry so he could explain.. how many times had he turned his own son away.
You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do (what you said you'd do)
Arcos felt tears prick at his eyes, he had thought Lloyd had been mature in understanding that being a Baron was busy work but it had hurt him all the same. His eyes widened in shock was this what Lloyd was doing ? Avoiding him, preoccupying himself in so much work he’s have an excuse not to talk with them ?
And I'd end up more afraid
Javier clenched his fist, afraid of what? Whatever it was he would deal with it for Lloyd, he’d do anything for him.
Don't say it isn't fair
You clearly weren't aware that you made me miserable
The four stood there in silence, listening to Lloyds voice crack as he took a gasp of break. What, what have we done?
So if you really wanna know
Yes they wanted to know, Arcos needed to know how to make this right.
When I'm away from you (when I'm away from you)
I'm happier than ever (happier than ever)
Javier couldn’t stand it Lloyd couldn’t leave!
Wish I could explain it better (wish I could explain it better)
I wish it wasn't true (wish it wasn't true), mmm-mmm
Julien was enraged! What did Lloyd have to be upset about anyway! He was the one who became a raging drunk and left him to pick up all the pieces!
I call you again, drunk outta my head
Going home under the influence
Marabella smiled fondly there had been times Lloyd had made sure to reassure her after his drinking sprees. Telling her exactly where he was and acting good for his past escorts. But of course he had to go to far and start throwing fights. Sigh.
I don't relate to you
I don't relate to you, no
Arcos felt the pain in his chest twist, his apology hadn’t been enough had it.
'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty
You made me hate this city
Did Lloyd truly hate their home so much ? Is that why he need so much money and go on dangerous trips to other places did he want to leave so badly?
And I don't talk shit about you in the bar
Never told anyone anything bad
'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything
Julien and Javier were astonished enough at that. Why wouldn’t Lloyd especially if he was drunk? Was Lloyd even while angry still looking out for their house’s reputation?
And all that you did was make me fucking sad
Arcos cried he didn’t know he didn’t know
Why didn’t Lloyd say anything
So don't waste the time I don't have
And don't try to make me feel bad
Why didn’t Lloyd confined in any of them?!?
I could talk about every time that you showed up on time
But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did
Oh because no one would have listened, no one would have taken his side. No one would have believed him
Never paid any mind to my servants or friends
So I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid
Arcos tried to stifle his tears, his oldest had only been a child. A child born a month too soon in a barony too poor to a mother without a drop of nobility to her name.
You ruined everything good
Always said you were misunderstood
Made all my moments your own
Just fucking leave me alone
Marabella begun to cry with her husband, Lloyd hates us doesn’t he?
I started drinking a month ago
Lloyd must of written this song years ago. Was this perhaps why he started drinking???
Your friends are mine, you know, I know
You've moved on, found someone new
Arcos shifted his feet, Lloyd couldn’t possibly be talking about him taking in Javier could he? He had heard other nobles hurl insults about him replacing his first born even how Javier was much better than his hooligan first born but he had waved it all alway, Javier needed him.
One more son who brings out the better in you
He was talking about him then the Baron couldn’t understand hadn’t her raised Lloyd to care for the less fortunate?
And I thought my heart was detached
From all the sunlight of our past
Marabella felt sick they had begun to ignore Lloyd when Julian and Javier came into their lives but they had only hoped it would serve to have Lloyd stop his awful behavior. She had never thought it would hurt him so badly. The baroness had assumed Lloyd was simply angry about the family changing, but he wasn’t he was heartbroken.
But he's so sweet, he's so kind
Does he mean you forgot about me?
Arcos hadn’t how could he when he was always worrying about him! He just didn’t have enough time but that was beginning to fall apart in his head after all he had made time for Julian and Javier hadn’t he?
Oh, I hope you're happy
But not like how you were with me
Javier leaned onto a nearby side-table, is this why Lloyd had been so cruel to him as children?
I'm selfish, I know, I can't let you go
So find someone great, but don't find no one better
I hope you're happy, but don't be happier
Arcos openly wept, “hush dear,” his wife patted his shoulder “we must see this threw to the end”
And do you tell him he's the most beautiful boy you've ever seen?
Yes the whole house had been very open with giving the children compliments, but when was the last time Lloyd had received one before changing?
When had anyone ever called Lloyd handsome?
An eternal love bullshit you know you'll never mean
Remember when I believed you meant it when you said it first to me?
Marabella collapsed in a chair next to her husband, “Arcos, Arcos when had been the last time we told Lloyd we loved him?”
And now I'm pickin' him apart
Javier understood how Lloyd would have been lashing out as a child now, how the both had been hating one another to look better in front of the Baron. But then why did Lloyd suddenly become close ? Why did he suddenly care for Javier? Perhaps he gave up on gaining familial love, burying the hatchet with Javier the only way he knew how, by not addressing the past at all.
Like cuttin' him down will make you miss my wretched heart
Julian began to understand, and he begun to feel badly for his brother but still he was just so angry at Lloyd !
They looked at each other as Lloyds song finished.
What were they going to do now? And as they pondered it they could hear Lloyd sniffling to himself, as if he was picking up the pieces after breaking down.
Then a whisper to three of them, a yell to Javier’s ears they heard Lloyd speak.
“Huh I guess I do fell a little better now! We should do this more often lolz! Goodnight Kim, I love you.”
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Javier’s hand broke the side table, “Who the fuck is Kim????”