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okay okay more twitter talk but I can’t help but notice how odd karamatsu’s subconscious is
their self awareness balls seem to vary in size based on how highly/lowly they think of themselves, their goals and ambitions, whether or not they know what they’re capable of, ect- this all ties into self awareness
that being said, karamatsu’s is second smallest after osomatsu’s, who CHOOSES to ignore his capabilities and not reach for more in life because he’s satisfied with where he is and he’s a guy who doesn’t need more than the essentials to be happy- he also doesn’t seem to think highly nor lowly of himself, he’s just…..him
in a slightly different way, karamatsu seems not to have any goals or ambitions either- his subconscious is the only one made from a slightly reflective and transparent material as if his self awareness completely revolves around how he knows others see him (as in he has no idea who he is, he can only listen to the input given to him by others, which is sadly mostly negative- as seen in the fishing incident with oso, he clearly has no idea how he comes off to people, but their opinion seemed to matter a lot to him) and his goals and ambitions aren’t his own; you peer into his subconscious and you just see yourself
it’s as if once you try to look deeper into karamatsu, there’s just nothing there, he isn’t aware of who he is- he just reflects what he thinks everyone else wants to see; his subconscious gives off the vibe of being really /fragile/ and it seems he doesn’t like his current image so he goes and does nice things and whatever else he thinks make a person look cool/likable because if people have a positive opinion of him, he too will be able to have a positive opinion of himself- again, he’s a fairly nice guy, but he wants acceptance
at some point I realized for that for that exact reason, it made sense that not even minutes after choromatsu said he wanted to give out free hugs because communication with others is important, karamatsu himself went out and did it
it wasn’t his own idea or his goal but he took it for himself because if choromatsu suggested it and it helps people build relationships, it must be really useful, he wants that as well
karamatsu doesn’t have a true sense of self
EDIT: I should mention, his self awareness could have been as jazzed up and sparkly as todomatsu’s, which most people expected, but that’s clearly not what he actually believes about himself- his self awareness is that he’s an empty and unappealing person
the first half of his name, kara, actually comes from the Japanese term karappo, which literally means empty
it was given to him supposedly because he’s empty minded but also because he’s an empty character all around- it would seem he’s aware of this and things apparently haven’t changed