Killing Me Would Have Been Nicer - Blog Posts

Watching season 15 is a different kind of pain. In a typical season when a major character died you had a 85% chance they would come back at some point, but not in season 15. Sam stabbing Rowena and saying a heart felt goodbye, but it’s fine she’ll probably come bac- oh shit there’s only 17 episodes left. Cas confessing his love for dean and then being engulfed by the empty, but it doesn’t matter cause just imagine how cute their reunion will be when Dean gets him bac- oh shit there’s only 2 episodes left??? Fuck dean just got impaled on a piece of rebar but there’s no way he dies he’s one of the main characte- wait there’s only 20 minutes left. Sam’s dying peacefully with his son after living a life where he has to remember dean for longer then he lived with him, but that’s fine I’m sure they’ll fix it next seas- there’s 5 minutes left….

THIS

It’s one of the sickest acts of homophobia among other enormities to have Dean Winchester die a fighter. to never allow him safety and stability and relationships he forges himself without any shackles on his character. to never release him from the narrative. to trap him in the life like that forever. everything about that life I mean it Everything. to force him to be remembered only as a caretaker as a fighter as a sacrificial lamb as a pretty boy. let him be more. transform him. please take him. take Dean Winchester apart. explore every alternative he could’ve been. give him the aching satisfaction of exquisitely wrought love, of relieved tension, of friendships that have lasted and continue to last and none of the pain, of saying finally, finally I can have this. i don’t care how unrealistic. repair him. make it real.

Isn’t it just so unbelievably funny that real words that came out of cas’ mouth while he was about to die were ‘knowing you has been the best part of my life’ even though he’s a cosmic entity that has been alive for thousands and thousands of years.

So. So. Funny.

Just finished 6x06 and I think I missed the hurt/no comfort tag guys.

There is actually no way I fell for it again…

There are so many times when watching good omens I feel like I’m reading an AU destiel fanfiction (meant in absolutely the best way possible, it’s giving me closure I didn’t know I needed)

Dean keeping Cas’ trench coat after he died 🥲

Idk what’s sadder:

Dean keeping it because he knew he would find a way to get him back no matter what or that he wanted to keep a piece of Cas with him at all times to keep him close

Just thinking about when in the confession scene Cas pauses for a sec after saying he cares about dean ‘because you cared I cared. I cared about you….. I cared about Sam, I cared about jack’

This line will never not make me go absolutely feral. The acting. The emphasis. The tears. The eye contact. In that moment the only thing he was focused on was dean and making sure he knew he was loved. Misha put his whole heart and soul into this scene 🥲✋