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SEMI, SUGAWARA, osamu, IWAIZUMI, sakusa, ARAN, USHIJIMA, tsukishima, konoha, KAGEYAMA, kiyoko, KITA, KYOTANI, aone, saeko
A/N: part 2 with Konoha even tho I don’t know his character👀 the pictures just don’t freaking fitttt
Nishinoya, Tanaka, Goshiki, and Kyoutani
Sorry for always camping on your requests 🙈🙈 but uhh dhhshd can i request a kuroo x reader (or if u do konoha pls do konoha) angst au with the song i cant make you love me by bon iver?
*GIF not mine*
Summary: It’s hard to see a person fall in love with another who never intends on sharing a future with that person. It’s even harder when that person is you. (Based on “I Can’t Make You Love Me” by Bon Iver)
A/N: I’m really sorry this is so late, but I sincerely hope you like it. It might not be what you were expecting, but I saw a comment on the video of the song that just inspired me and also broke my heart, so I just hope you feel the same with this angsty fic. Again, I really hope you like it!
Word count: 900
He was warm.
The bed shook as he slipped under the covers, arms wrapping around you while you feigned sleep.
Why did it hurt so much?
His grip on you never tightened. It was as simple as that.
His chest was hot near your back. You couldn’t feel it’s solidity anymore though.
There was a wall between you and Konoha now. Every inch of space between you two created a wall. You didn’t like it.
You couldn't stop it.
Sitting in silence, you waited until his breathing slowed. Then you shifted in his grip, moving closer to feel him while also turning to face him. This was the closest you had gotten in weeks.
He was so peaceful in his sleep, dirty blond hair splayed against his pillow. You couldn’t see his dark eyes behind his closed lids, and for that you were thankful.
In moments like these, you could pretend they still held love. You could pretend they would still squint in delight at the sight of you. You could pretend their pupils would still widen when you embraced him in a hug.
But the fact was that they didn’t. Your hopes, your requited love, your shared future, it was all just a dream. A fruitless dream.
In your own eyes, Konoha was the one. One day, you wished you two would get married and spend the rest of your lives together. You wanted to walk down the aisle under his adoring gaze. You wanted to dip your toes in the hot sand of a gorgeous beach beside his grinning form. You wanted to watch him spill a single tear at the sight of a newborn in his arms.
A whole future was visible before your eyes. Every detail was beautiful. Not perfect, but beautiful.
Konoha couldn’t see it. He didn’t want to see it. God, how you wanted him to see it, wanted him to want it. But he didn’t.
Nothing was more hopeless than that wish. The idea of being together forever, loving each other for the rest of your lives was nothing but a pipe dream. Not even a pipe dream. It was just a damn dream. One you needed to let go.
Tonight would be your last night in his arms. You should have ended it before he joined you in the bed, but you just wanted to feel him one last time. It was a lapse in judgement, but a final farewell all the same.
Tomorrow you will move on. Tomorrow you’ll let him go and carry on with your life. You’ll let him find someone else, someone who wanted the same things he wanted.
And maybe one day you could find someone for yourself.
Still, it hurt to think that there was nothing you could do. There was nothing left to salvage in your relationship.
How…
How can someone possibly describe the pain?
It wasn’t physical, but it was damn near close. Your heart was… aching, yearning for reciprocity.
Konoha wanted a girlfriend. He wanted movie dates and posters at volleyball games. Study nights and silly little pranks. Posts and pictures online of the two of you everywhere and anywhere.
You wanted the love of your life. A man to marry and have children with. Someone to hug in joy as you watched first steps, listened to first words. Someone to go to for comfort when work was stressful or when college days began.
Konoha wanted good times.
You wanted commitment. But you couldn’t force that on him. So yes, tonight was the last night with him.
So you wiped away your tears and pressed a gentle kiss to his cheek. You wrapped your arms around his waist and pulled him close, intertwining your legs with his.
He was warm. He always was.
Then you closed your damp eyes and laid your head against his chest, letting out a broken sob when his hands squeezed just a bit tighter.
You promised yourself this was it. This was the last night you would be in his arms. Then you would let him go. You promised.
Then you fell asleep.
***
Within the span of a month, Konoha’s arm had already fallen over another girl’s shoulder.
Within the span of a month, you still felt just as much love for him as you did when you let him go. But the truth was clear before your eyes.
You couldn’t force him to be with you for your own dreams.
You couldn’t force him to love you.