May 2020 - Blog Posts

did my may habit trackers!! it’s been a while since i have made any, so i went extra ham on the design for these 😊 i’ve really been missing flowers!!

(on depression and chronic pain, and those without it.)

Ignorance is Bliss

I had never truly understood the saying

“Ignorance is Bliss,”

The thought of not knowing is terrifying

But then I let someone in, and saw it there;

“Ignorance is Bliss.”

She has lived a life in Difference.

I wonder often if I would like to be

“Ignorance is Bliss,”

For to love without its opposite has become my day-star wish.

So now I see her in her Difference,

“Ignorance is Bliss”

And evny how she must live in her bones,

For in my bones lives a thing unblessed with

“Ignorance is Bliss.”

It knaws happily at the displacement in my gut.

Now spilling these guts from your mouth makes her wish for

“Ignorance is Bliss.”

But the wish manifests as disgusted pity.

How could i ever make the world love me?

“Ignorance is Bliss.”

When it is shrouded in all of this?

And you wish to understand the saying;

“Ignorance is Bliss.”

i wrote this about a friend who would only ever feel sympathy not empathy and the effort of the explanation exhausted me. Her ignorance is blissful as she has never woke up tired in a physical and mental way, bone deep aches that have to be left unrelieved.

please never offer condolences, sweet nothings

so now i ask you to think, what do you feel, sympathy or empathy? sure you may feel more, but of the two? can you feel the anger, the sence of injustice lingering between the words? can you hear that i am desperate?