Maybe Bpd - Blog Posts

I ran out of meds and I'm now feeling the symptoms of abstinence. Going to collect more.

Wish me luck.

I would scream, cry, vomit, try to fucking kill myself but I would never beg someone to not leave me, if they hate me, they hate me. Ther's nothing i can do about it, fuck it then, I'll learn to hate them too. Fuck it, fuck this feeling, fuck it. I would never say it with words.

Mom told me to stop being crazy but it's not that easy. I don't wanna upset her though, don't wanna cause problems, I never wanted to so I'll pretend I'm fine, she's tired, everyone is, but damn, I feel like I'm falling apart, how can I pretend I'm not?

Got my love lies bleeding dvd in the mail like a week ago. I have yet to rewatch it because it actually sent me into a month long manic episode the first time i saw it and i gave myself the worst haircut ever (still waiting for it to grow out (i am rewatching it tonight))