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Omg, I can't believe how a journey that started with an AI art addiction led me to discover a community I feel so comfortable with! 💖✨

It all began when I got heavily addicted to AI generating and made hundreds of pictures, day and night just not to feel, just not to collapse... But as much as I loved creating, it led me straight and deeply into a financial crisis 💸 I turned to Claude AI for help, and it suggested selling my best AI creations on Redbubble. I figured, why not? I'm really proud of some of them, and even though I felt a bit ashamed for using AI for therapy and my dark and painful sides I never had the caurage to show before... It was too expensive (it is still cheaper than a professional listener), I decided to give it a shot... Hoping to gain back a bit of money to hold my head above the water. Redbubble suggested sharing my art here

and that's when I stumbled upon the most incredible platform, filled with people I can relate to on so many levels. 🥰 Even though I haven't sold anything on Redbubble in 3 months (maybe I never will, and that's okay - just another cool mistake in my life journey 😅), I feel happiness. The wonderful people in the private chat brighten my day and make it all worth it.

Through this journey, I am meeting here new friends, discovering fascinating perspectives, and connecting to a supportive community that I never knew I needed. 🙌 So even if I'm at the rock bottom of my life right now, I feel incredibly lucky and grateful to have you.

Thank you for existing, everyone! You've made this wild ride better for me. 😊💫

a new start

it was something i felt from a million miles away,

the ending,

the beginning.

watching the light fade away till it flashed to darkness.

i can see the flickers of distant flames,

and for a moment hope flickers within my heart in the same rhythm.

some part of me feels

that even though everything is dark right now,

a new start will come and bring me back to life.

everything right now feels so desolate.

the night sky no longer shimmers with the stars that once loved me so.

seeing the flare of light from faraway,

thinking “who was she? the girl i once called my own?”

yet the crystalline glass of the suncatcher she gave me

still shines with the light of the sun and its galaxies.

the silky softness of what we used to be,

it glitters with newfound gold.

a new start will improve upon the old.

wonder, wonder, wonder.

will the doors that close behind me ever open again?

their dim lamp gleams through the cracks between the hinges.

i wonder what they’re doing back there.

i wonder if they’re having fun.

but a new door sparkles in front of me.

a new start will be a clean slate.

#thankful for #newopportunities #newbeginnings #letsgetit #2018 #focused #dailydriven