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imagine a fyolai art: fyodor behind nikolai (to make it easier let's imagine kolya sitting and fedya standing behind him). Fyodor is holding Nikolai's eyepatch thing (? I forgot what its called) which is broken in half, while Nikolai holds Fyodor's arms
what tf does this mean, you may ask. well!
(ch 121 spoilers) we saw fyodor tear the page, but there is a popular theory that it wasn't actually the book page, so we can say that the act was a farce. when we see fyodor doing the same here, its showing how nikolai's attempt at freedom (by killing fyodor back in Meursalt) was nothing but a farce (planned out by fyodor).
now, why would Nikolai be holding Fyodor's arms, you may ask. well, I imagine kolya holding them in the way a prisoner holds the bars to their cage. this is pretty self explanatory with reference to the fyolai dynamic
so I imagine fyodor serving face and Nikolai looking... Well. Uneasy. His eyepatch, which he used as an on switch for his fake persona, is broken; so showing himself in his entirety would be odd to him naturally.
someone draw this I'm actually going crazy rn. I was gonna but I gotta sleep and ain't no way I'll have motivation in the morning (also soz for the irregular punctuation I'm like half asleep i think)
so I just watched Cash is alive's video on Nikolai (they are literally amazing btw, I love their interpretations), and the video finally got me thinking ('cause I'm slow asf like that):
Nikolai knows that Fyodor uses him. Fyodor used Nikolai to leave Meursalt, leaving the latter under the impression that he died. Now, would Nikolai be mad that his emotions were played with? That Fyodor made him believe that Nikolai lost the only person that 'understood' him? I mean, it's not Fyodor wouldn't have known that he'd toy with Nikolai's feelings by pulling the act---like, he's smart asf.
So, rationally he should be mad. But he could also be in awe. Surprised, with the fact that there is a chance he could never truly escape and be free. So, what would that entail for Fyodor?
First of all, Fyodor isn't at any disadvantage in the manga as of yet. We know Akutagawa will eventually pop off (perhaps with Atsushi, now that he really hates Fyodor for taking his friends away), which will probably happen in the February chapter. That could result in Fyodor being in major trouble; he has aminogozen (or whatever his name is) but if that thing's defeated, Fyodor's kinda fucked? Or not, because of his ability but he can be somewhat physically restrained or something (WHERE THE FUCK IS DAZAI).
Here, could Nikolai finally come into play? Using his teleportation thingie (i know it has a cap and it's like. Barely been a few hours since the shit went down or something. Would it be enough for Nikolai to be there?) and then finally we'd see the effect of Fyodor on Nikolai. Would Nikolai be on his side, support him, 'save' him from shin soukoku? Or would he finally break?
Honestly, so interesting to think about. Before Dazai and Chuuya join the battlefield, I'm sure they should have some dialogue with Sigma, where Fyodor's memories are mentioned. Then the brain storming or whatever would begin, and they'd try to get to Yokohama ASAP (because, again, Dazai's ability and that it is only him that Fyodor can't affect.)
But because of this, obviously Dazai and Chuuya won't be joining in. So we naturally have Nikolai, which was the topic of discussion (sorry I'm rambling I'm shit at this analysing thing).
Asagiri could take this two ways. Either make Nikolai even more obsessed with Fyodor because of realising he still cares about Fyodor, or make Nikolai break the chain and turn on him.
Everything I've said is inspired by the video, and I really urge everyone to watch it! All in all, I am so excited for the new manga chapter coming soon.
Here's the link:
pls I wanna write about bsd and doa specifically so bad but idk what to write about I'm lowkey crashing out