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TW : rant/dump
I’m not fishing for anything, I just really needed to say this, and I’m not willing to put it on anyone I know. Please don’t read this if you’re unwell. I don’t want to add to anyone else’s struggle
I just needed to get off my chest,
This couple weeks have been… not good.
My grandma has been making sui/homi threats when she can’t get more pain meds, my grandpa is obsessed with conspiracy politics and won’t keep it to himself, my mom depends on me emotionally
My shelf came off the wall and broke my file box and shattered a glass frame all over the floor
I spilled soda so incredibly that it got on my carpet, walls, floor, the bottom of my bed (?), my printer, my extension cord, my yarn basket, and so many other places I keep finding
I ruined an entire load of clothes with chapstick, it will not come out, and my mom tossed them
My air purifier itself has started smelling like mold despite upkeep
My windowsill is covered in mold and my plaster is cake and even my carpenter uncle can’t figure out my Schrödinger studs
Because of all these things I’ve been having to fix or account for on top of my medical bills and car bills and insurance bills I can’t even quite make it paycheck to paycheck
I don’t have the time or money to take care of procedures I’m supposed to have done already
My doctor says I’m in the chronic pain of someone twice my age and that my job isn’t going to work for me in the long term and my job is trying to shove me out but I can’t find another job that won’t kill my mental health, physical health, or support me financially
Im just stuck,
I’m stuck.