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✧ YOURE NO GOOD FOR ME - S. RINTARO ✧

☆ finally writing for my bb suna i love him sm ill prob be working on you are my liberty or i go and spoil it all after this one but im not sure yet ☆ cw: nsfw-ish, angst(?), i put angst cuz its gonna get angsty later ik that fs, m!reader, making out, drug use(ouid), readers first time using, heavy feminization, suna has internalized homophobia this whole fic ⊹ all characters are aged up !

part;; 01

✧ “no no no that’s not what i was saying,” you and suna laughed as the two of you sat in his car in the middle of a walmart parking lot. it was late at night, cars and shoppers few and far in between. 

“right so you totally weren’t saying if your friends were girls you’d fuck them,” you cocked an eyebrow at the man sitting in the drivers seat as you took a sip of your soda. both of you were facing each other, backs pressed against the windows. 

“no! i was just saying if i were to be turned into a girl… id let the homies hit and i expect them to do the same,” he shrugged, trying to keep himself from laughing as he looked at your expression. 

“so you’re bi?” you replied. despite the playful smile on your face, deep down you felt a sense of dread towards this conversation. having a crush on your friend was bad enough, but not even being a part of his sexual orientation was worse. taking a bite of his taco, he shook his head, waving his hand in front of him.

“nuh uh,” his response was muffled as he chewed, the smile on his face never wavering. you felt sort of guilty because of this. your friend was just having a good night and here you were trying to get any clue of his sexuality. “i only like pussy,” he spoke with his mouth full, laughing at his own answer. 

“suna that’s disgusting,” you laughed, swatting at him as he stuck his tongue out at you. finally swallowing his food, he reached for your drink and started to chug it. “oh right help yourself,” you said sarcastically, rolling your eyes. 

“hey i paid for this shit,” suna reminded you as he took another swig of the soda. you held your hands up in surrender, laughing softly as you repositioned your legs on the seat. the car fell into a comfortable silence as suna continued to eat and you pretended to not be madly in love with him. when he finished his food, he looked up at you with a smile. “wanna listen to music?”

you nodded, resting your head on the headrest of the passenger seat as suna connected his phone’s bluetooth to his car. the song playing was a familiar and your eyes lit up when finding out you two liked the same song.

“hey i love this song,” you exclaimed, getting a small smile from suna as he glanced over at you. 

“yeah? its pretty good isn’t it?”

“very,”

the car fell into another round of comfortable silence aside from the music. the lights in the car were now turned off, shadows casted from the illuminated walmart logo now filtering through the car. you couldnt stop your eyes from wandering to suna’s face as he looked out into the parking lot. 

he was so pretty, the prettiest boy you’ve ever seen and you so desperately wanted to kiss his lips and tell him how much you love him. 

“hey y/n do you smoke?”

“huh-” you were brought out of your own thoughts by his sudden question. 

“do you smoke?” he repeated, turning to look at you head on with an expression you couldn’t quite put a name to. 

“no not really-”

“do you want to,” there was a sly smile on suna’s lips as he dug into his pocket, fishing something out before opening his palm to show you. it was a cart, one that you’ve seen suna use many times at parties and with friends. “you don’t have to if you’re not comfortable i’ll just blow the smoke out the window,” suna offered when you didn’t answer, not wanting to force you to do anything. 

“no uh… i want to,” your voice was small, not entirely sure what to expect. 

“okay cool we can hotbox then,” you watched as he held the cart to his lips, holding down a button before sucking in a deep breath. 

“uh hotbox?”

“dont worry about it,” suna said as he exhaled, waving a hand in dismissal. you nodded, suddenly feeling a bit nervous and self conscious. you jumped slightly when he held the cart out to you. taking it from his hand you tried not to look too obvious as you looked it over. “take a small hit since it’s your first time,” you nodded, putting it to your lips and pressing on the same button you saw suna press, inhaling only for a short moment. 

the taste was weird and it hurt as it went into your lungs, a small cough leaving you as you exhaled. hearing suna laugh at your state you started to feel your face heat up. reaching for your drink you handed him back his cart. 

silence once again filled the car, random songs playing in the background but neither of you were playing much attention to it as you paced the cart back and forth between you too. you weren’t sure how much time had passed, but you were feeling happy, laughing at nothing. 

“what’re you laughing about?” hearing suna’s confusion only made you laugh even harder, bending over as tears started to form in your eyes. your laughing was contagious apparently, having caused suna to start laughing just as hard with you. “oh shit i can’t breath,” suna wheezed out between laughs, tears now falling from his closed eyes as his whole body shook with his laughter.  

the two of you laughed and laughed and laughed for who knows how long before finally, silence enveloped you two again. reaching for your drink, you were stopped as suna placed his hand on yours, his eyes half lidded as you just stared at you. 

“suna-”

“you’re pretty,” he spoke abruptly, keeping his hand on top of yours. his voice was low and smooth and your eyes were wide, not entirely sure you heard him right. 

“what?” your voice cracked just a bit when you spoke, causing your cheeks to heat up. 

“you’re pretty like a girl,” his voice was a bit quieter now as he leaned forward, his face mere inches from yours nows. he lifted his hand from on top of yours and tenderly cupped your face. “i’d kiss you if you were a girl,” he brought his face closer to yours, noses barely skimming against each other as his breath fanned against your lips. 

despite how your heavy eyelids felt, your eyes went wide, heart racing at the close proximity. you couldn’t help but lean into his touch, humming softly. 

“you’ve got pretty eyes like a girl,” suna whispered, his lips nearly skimming over yours as he talked. “ ‘n pretty lips,” he ran his thumb over your bottom lip, pulling it down slightly so it looked like you were pouting. you looked into his half lidded eyes as he slowly pressed his thumb deeper into your mouth, pressing down on your tongue gently. 

you didn’t realize you weren’t breathing until suna took his thumb out of your mouth and you let out a sharp exhale. his eyes were still on yours, it was like he was studying you and it was making you squirm in your seat. 

“suna,” you whispered meekly, not sure what to even say in this situation. you couldn’t understand what suna meant by his words and the weed was definitely getting to your brain. absentmindedly, you lick your lips. the feeling was faint and would’ve been barely noticeable if you two weren’t so enamored with each other in this moment. both of you definitely felt the tip of your tongue swipe against suna’s lip and within just a matter of seconds, those same lips were pressing against yours. 

your mind was racing as suna didn’t waste any time intensifying the kiss, poking his tongue between your lips before exploring your mouth with it. hands reaching for his hair, you pulled him impossible closer to you. 

he moaned into the kiss when he felt you tug on his hair and you couldn’t help but feel your dick twitch in your shorts. his hands were firmly cupping your face, keeping you right where he wanted while he continued to hungrily kiss you. 

suna could feel himself getting hard at the sounds of your small whines and mewls being muffled by his lips. he felt guilty, and slightly disgusted, that he was kissing a guy. but he couldn’t deny how good it felt and if he tried hard enough he could think of some imaginary girl. but he found himself not wanting to do that. he wanted it to be you and this thought brought a shudder through him. 

suddenly overcome with the need to hear more of you, he brought his lips to your neck, sucking on the skin harshly. blood rushed directly down to his dick when he finally reached the spot you were more sensitive, breathy moans leaving your lips. you kept your hands in his hair, gripping tightly as you tried to not buck your hips into the air. 

“ah suna-,” you whimpered when you felt him lean more into you, almost putting all his upper body weight against you as he sloppily left love bites all along your neck and collar bone. you could feel his body trembling slightly against your body and you couldn’t help when your eyes wandered down to his pants. 

although the car was near pitch black, there was no mistaking that he was hard just like you. there were a thousand questions threatening to swarm your brain, but the stimulation and ambience of this whole event was enough to distract you. 

one of suna’s hands fell to your hips and you felt your heart stop for a second as he brushed his fingers past the hem of your shirt. your body shook with anticipation as he traveled farther up your abdomen, but within a split second suna was off of you and fixing himself in his seat. 

“suna-”

“i’m taking you home,” his voice was rough as his pinched the bridge of his nose between his index finger and thumb. he sighed shaking his head once before starting the car, not once looking at you. 

completely in shock, you just nodded, slumping back into your seat and keeping your face towards the window as you felt your eyes begin to tear up.

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