Something Qualitative. And Its Like! I Just Dont Think Theres Any Substance To What I Say Or Do And Its Disheartening - Blog Posts

quirinahscreams i think when it comes to being an artist i want to draw what makes me happy tell the stories i want to tell and do things for myself but im. definitely not a good storyteller and i dont have a very strong creative vision or even. like technical skills to fall back on im naturally a bit of an anxious person so im always just buzzing neuroses and feelings and thoughts in my head and trying to beat it into something qualitative. and its like! i just dont think theres any substance to what i say or do and its disheartening because im looking at everyone around me and theyre using their craft to say something sincere or express what they like eloquently and like im barely slipping past the translating my brain salad into something conceptually tangible LOLLLL um. i think theres nothing wrong with the quality of your art or your writing or whatever being half baked because the artist made this conscious effort to translate what they feel and think into creation! but also even if i like baking sometimes i am a shit baker. and holy shit that guys cake is probably better than mine. so how do I enjoy baking nevertheless? and how do I become a better baker? i want to establish who i am better and maybe finally put names and pictures to the jumble of my mind palace and just try. try to make a better cake even if it is still a shit cake. but i cant stop thinking about what im missing...um...i dont know.