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Man, svsss is actually terrifying if you take away the humor and actually acknowledge what's actually happening
Like tbh I understand why sy was scared that lbh would still get revenge even after he was nice. All the other major plot lines had been happening. There were things he couldn't change, who was to say that lbh's revenge wasn't one of them
Also I don't think I'd be able to think straight if a god if some sorts played with my life, making me run around like a mouse in a maze to live. That actually terrifying. Then what happened when he failed a mission. Like, what. I'd be terrified. Sure, death was always a threat but actually experiencey arm getting ripped off??? I'd be scared out of my mind to fail missions.
Don't even get me started on the occ point reductions. Imagine being ever so slightly pushed to death because you smiled at a kid.
Sqq was either not fully registering what was going on or was not all mental alright to be as calm as he was. I'd have broken so quickly under that. Sqq deserves to be a bit insane
Edit: reread the system punishment bit and Shen Qingqiu also got his leg ripped off right before the system took him out
“You don’t act like your source!”
shut the hell up I’ll beat your ass
don’t you know that I’M the only one who can satisfy you in this way? the only one who could quench that deep, growing need to take control? the only one you let close, the only one you let lie in your bed at night?
i’m the only one.
he may be this..this manipulative, god-status-having figure. but i am nothing if not a willing devotee, offering up my heart, body, mind and soul.
「★」 TO THE MOON, AND NEVER BACK . . .
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quick note btw, but switching for us is less like.. "being pushed aside" or "forced out of body", and more.. like transitional? it's not too smooth all the time, but it's sort of just... like for example; we're me, and then we're suddenly one of the others. it's not jarring, it just feels like a quick but steady transition, and then we're kind of just someone else (sort of?)
yeah that's basically what it feels like.
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edit: thanks to a person in my comments here, it's called non-possessive switching
to elaborate on roles actually:
zargo's role started out as the caretaker and protector, he'd form the front for any emotional stuff, and bad things happening around us. as time went on, he kind of became more of a co-host, especially since we hang near each other so often, and talk a lot. he's still a protector sometimes, but often just defaults to chill co-fronting and/or just hanging out.
shadow was more of a trauma response formation, he kind of just showed up one day after a string of bad events that particularly shook us. he's more of an emotion holder now, just because i take a lot of the brunt of bad things happening to us; mainly because i don't want anyones source trauma being amplified by new trauma. he still will contain any bad emotions when he can, but he's not forced to, and i remind him that he doesn't have to always hold on to that burden for us; since he can share it with me.
shrimpo is the newest member, half formed from a hyperfixation on dandy's world, and half formed from lack of self care for the longest time. he's always been a caretaker, usually doing chores and cooking for us, and he's still trying to be comfortable with forcing his way to front when i don't do important things (like feeding myself, or cleaning up). he also reminds the other two to take care of themselves as well; reminding shadow to not beat himself up over little things, and reminding zargo to keep clean and shower or brush his hair every now and again.
i've always been here, but i find that my form has definitely shifted. we don't particularly have a solid innerworld/headspace, let alone have one at all; but we can still see each other and what we look like. i'm still not sure why exactly my form changed to look nothing like the body but um, it did. i'm not upset about this though, i look like my skelesona, which gives me mega gender euphoria. also, trauma holding has always been a thing for me, but i never fully realized it until now.
normal + simplified versions of our sys bc why not- (i just wanted to experiment with the simplified versions)
zargo is transfem converted from transmasc btw, but her pronouns are she/he (because she still likes using he). also-also, zargo's become more humanoid now, but he's still a cannibal.
anyways yeah, the four of us
normal + simplified versions of our sys bc why not- (i just wanted to experiment with the simplified versions)
zargo is transfem converted from transmasc btw, but her pronouns are she/he (because she still likes using he). also-also, zargo's become more humanoid now, but he's still a cannibal.
anyways yeah, the four of us
Headmate of ours in Ena Dream BBQ cuz one of her sources is ena :3c Bonus under the cut
Gift for my love ♡︎ @inksplotch00
Happy Valentines everyone! ^_^
Art of my headmate Milkbone!! Alt vers under cut
bad attempt of a backround..
his refernece… its finally. complete….
Drawing of myself (Tena)… I have a tiktok, for those interested! It’s @/prismsbiggestfan (Totally not in reference to @inksplotch00 or anything like that.)
System family photo ehe…
(Apologies for the massive taglist… I just shoved all our sources in there)
Tena drew themself with @inksplotch00 :3c
Remade Milkbones reference too!
finaaaally finished freshs up to date ref (the style is so wierd i sont know why)
Mirs reference sheet :) were tryin to get reference sheets for our system all done but the progress has been slow hhg
A new reference sheet for our fresh alter :3