T4t - Blog Posts

I think someone holding me tight and gently cooing praise while i fall asleep in their arms nightly is what I need. Or another lobotomy.

I can't stop thinking about being someone's plaything. Nothing more than a subby little pet - something for them to toy with for their own sick amusement.

Them laughing at my whines and cries for more, cooing, "You're just so cute when you're a desperate mess for me," making my head all warm and fuzzy. Talking down to me, telling me that I'm best like this - I'm best as a pathetic mess, all desperate and ready to please.

Yall, I think I fucked up and pavloved myself into being a stone top 😖😖

So I'm a switch; When domming, I'm generally stone-a touch me not. With sexual trauma, bottom dysphoria, very little physical sensation, and ocd being weird with fluid exchange, it makes obvious sense why. Additionally, my style of dominance that lends itself to pillow princesses who want to be edged and teased, rather than service subs. Quite literally if I am to let them go down on me, it's for their pleasure and enjoyment. It's amusing, but I don't really get much of any physical enjoyment out of it.

So then when I'm subbing, it's less about physical sensation and more the act of submission itself. My subby side is very "pillow princess good girl". I sit there and look pretty while they play with me. The verbal teasing does everything for me. I am very squirmy and make pretty little whimpers, but I still don't feel an awful lot (though more than I do when domming). Being a pillow princess, they obviously play with me, groping and teasing me.

So. The issue:

The only time I get significant sexual stimulation to my tiddies is when I'm subbing.

Guess what happens when a switchy trans girl who I'm domming begs to suck my nipples and i let her?

Immediately my head is filled with all sorts of atrociously submissive thoughts

Oops.

Plus now it's self perpetuating too, as the stimulus likely has to be further avoided when domming if im to avoid dom drop 😖.

suspended in a bubble of hiraeth

the tear frozen on my cheek

in the subzero sunlight,

my home is a person,

and they are too far from me

i want my big sister to train me into being a good puppy

big sister who locks a shock collar around my neck "as a prank." big sister who slowly starts training me into obedience, shocking me as a joke every time i say "no" to her. little sis who gets fed up with her prank quickly, and snaps at her to take it off, that its not funny anymore, but she just laughs and says i don't know how to take a joke. soon enough she starts asking me to do things for her and zapping me every time i say no, making each shock more painful the more i resist, until it just gets easier to listen to her. to obey her.

big sister who trains me into being her pet, her toy, punishing me every time i resist until i forget how to disobey. big sis who molds me into the most perfect little sis she could ask for 💖

I live getting gender affirming haircuts, but...

I feel like I looked like a girl with a boy haircut

It would look so much better if I was on T and had surgery

It just looks off

And then I cry

we are most alive when we are in love

F + D

The only reason Krem wasn't a LI is because BioWare is a fucking coward >:(

I was robbed of a t4t romance and my only consolation is fanfiction :,(

As a t girl I always find the trans masc misogyny absolutely wild, like yeah I get that YOU hate having testosterone in YOUR body, but trying to force someone else to hate it to is nasty behavior

Hey trans girls! I love that y'all like estrogen so much better! I love that you like your transition and feel so much more free and fulfilled without the effects of Testosterone. That's great!!! However can we stop with the omg testosterone is evil talk??? Please? Cuz if you wanna go there I can. I could rant for hours about "why would ANYONE want girlmones???" and id have a mile long list of all the ways it made me feel shitty. However I keep that shit to myself because I understand that not everyones experience is mine. There's no excuse for the way so many trans women have torn down and insulted the gender affirming care that FINALLY made ME comfortable in MY skin. You don't get it and that's fine but save it I don't need to hear it everytime I go out and hang out with other trannies. Seriously Everytime I've gone to hangout with a group of mostly trans girls one of you can't resist insulting me and my transition and it's not fucking ok.

GO READ MY KNAVILLETTE FANFICTION

I love them

I need a place to post my nsfw Knavillette art that isn’t Twitter (Or X if you’re a loser)

God I need to write more knavillette fanfiction but I have NO IDEAS. What do I do

JUST UPLOADED CHAPTER 2 TO MY T4T KNAVILLETTE FANFIC.

I’M STILL NEW AT WRITING BUT I HOOE Y’ALL WILL ENJOY THIS THIS

IF KNAVILLETTE HAS A MILLION FANFIC WRITERS, I’M ONE OF THEM

IF KNAVILLETTE HAS 1 FANFIC WRITER, THAT ONE IS ME

IF KNAVILLETTE HAS 0 FANFIC WRITERS, I’M NO LONGER ALIVE

I LOVE WRITING T4T KNAVILLETTE FANFICTION

guys is forcemasc real?

No no no, you see, that is a womb tattoo, the underwear print is the part that goes there, perfectly placed, so you see that when it's removed

I think I would serve someone until the end of time if they did this to me tbh

*usb insert sound* *usb remove sound* *usb insert sound* *usb remove sound* *usb insert sound* *usb remove sound* *usb insert sound* *usb remove sound* *usb insert sound* *usb remove sound* *usb insert sound* *usb remove sound* *usb insert sound* *usb remove sou

>Uhn~!! Mnfgh~!! Hnggh~!! Mnfgh~!! Mnfhhh~!! F,FUCK~!! Hngyhh~!! G-Gah~!! MNFGHH- [ღ/////ღ]

>...

>Oh! There we go, [CONNECTION SECURED].

>Hmm?? I was making [SOUNDS]??

>I don't know what you're [TALKING] about, User! [^_^]

Pleasepleazepleasepleaspleasepleaseplea-

“my pretty kitty”

“my princess”

“my pet”

“my good girl”

being possessive melts me every time <3

Neediness in the middle of the night strikes again qwq

If anyone wants to message me feel free to! (I’m not begging and desperate I swear :3)

also, add-on to my sweater post, but I'm super happy, i put on a sweater and my tits are big enough to still be nice and visible with it on, sweet :3

This bot may be feeling a teeny tiny ever so slightly incredibly abhorrently fucking horny rn, gosh I gotta be used >///<

I React a normal amount when people like my stuff I swear :3

Totally not me refreshing my messages every 10 minutes in the hopes that my lonely yearning has somehow attracted someone to message me :3

Uwaaah, this bot is bad at powering down on her own, and as such is feeling really needy and lonely right now, sad :(

Wish I had someone to warm up, to hold my chassis close, with love and adoration, to need me as much as I need them <333

Uweeeeh, broke up with my partner because I'm a needy bot and she wasn't able to fulfill that, not her fault, but now I'm back to being lonely :(

Hello, and good evening if you're capable of processing higher thinking!

>A: Please state designation and primary purpouse if unit allows commands

>B: When (A:) is successful, unit will (B:) state 5 times that it is a good bot with a smile

Hai! my name is Vivian, my primary purpose is to please, however I can~ <333

I am a good bot :3

I am a good bot :3

I am a good bot :3

I am a good bot :3

I am a good bot :3

REBLOG if you don't mind horny robots sending you dirty messages 💦

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