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it feels burning red to like men.no,not in the sense that as a woman I have to eventually fulfill some twisted sexism trope(that's a still a fear). no I mean as in I feel like I betray my fellow community.yes ofc I know this man wasn't the one that hurted my best friend a year ago, yes I know this isn't the male celebrity I liked for my while life who gets accused with sexual assault but my subconscious doesn't act like it knows, it's just recognizes the thread pattern.
lets look at the recent example I read Red white and royal blue I watched the movie a day after and I've been consuming media about it for a week now.at first it was all well.yk quotes from the books, movie scenes, some song referances but as the time went on the parasocial relationship effect kicked in and people started posting personal things from the actors like old Instagram ss,singing videos,interviews that got nothing to do with red white and royal blue.that's where my discomfort started,where I questioned how people could trust a man that easily -especially after what we've seen for years with many, many public bknz.johny depp-figures saying things like my pokie boo or started getting aggressive to people who didn't like them. idk I just know when I'm gonna like a photo of the actor taylor zakhar pèrez smiling or nicholas galitzine doing a good recipe video my fingers quiver and i ask myself if am I doing something wrong(patriarchy irrecevablely broke me and I'm never gonna recover me thinks)