Curate, connect, and discover
If you've been harmed by cbt, I see you. You're valid, and you do not deserve to be subjected to more clumsy attempts. Just because The System(TM) claims cbt is a magical perfect cure for all mental troubles doesn't mean that's true for you, in your current place and time. I wish you strength and patience in all things, but especially in finding a healing path that respects you as a person.