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Why is my brain like this

Can anyone explain why 40 calories worth of vitamins is way too much in my brain but eating (and purging) 1,000+ calories worth of junk isn't?!WTF Brain can you decide if you're a restricter or a binger! I mean either way I feel like shit but still I don't understand the mess that is Brian. Also may or may not be related but if you have any challenges (exercise or food wise) or tips on how to stop binge please link me in the comments.

My finals are coming up, they're 5 hours each

My teacher just talked 5mins about what, when and how we should eat 🤣

"Dont eat too much, then your tummy will hurt and it'll be hard to focus. But dont eat too little either, then your growling stomach will distract you"

Sir, I have an eating disorder. I dont know how to eat so that it's beneficial for me

help... i weigh 113 is it possible to be down to 100 by mid-may??

30 day thinspo challenge - Day #2: How tall are you, do you like your height?

I'm 5'0 (1.53 cm), I don't hate it but I don't love it either because sometimes I feel like if I was taller it would be more easier to be skinny. Probably it doesn't make sense but I'm really short and fat so if I was taller maybe with my height I still would be fat but maybe it wouldn't shows too much, you know?

I'm dizzy all day and couldn't exercise because of it, If I move to fast I feel like puking. :/

30 day thinspo challenge - Day #1: Your stats.

weight: I'm 188lbs (85 kg)

height: 5'0 (1.53cm)

Feeling extremely guilty after eating 10 cream crackers biscuits as my first meal at 5 pm.

When I was a teenager I used to feel shy about eating in public, I didn't like to eat in front everyone at school so It was common to me skip meals. I remember that when I travelled with some friends I skipped meals a lot, sometimes I just didn't eat a whole day. Today I look to my pics from that time and a think my body was ok even if it was a little bit weight for my age. I miss that time, it was easier to skip meals, to not eat at all because I was to ashamed about eating. Now it seems everything I try it's not enough, I'm still fat and not losing weight. I'm aware that I'll be alone and unlovable because of it, I'm too fat and ugly for being loved even if it is by my friends or family. My mom clearly hates me because I'm not skinny like my sisters. Every day I get more depressed about my weight and everything it comes with it. I'm trying, I really am, but sometimes I don't know what to do anymore.

Pretending that my constantly headache isn't because I'm eating less than 800 calories a day. If I'm still fat it means it's still too much! I need to do more exercises but sometimes I'm too depressed to get off the bed.

I need to finish my paper for college asap, so I can do exercises because I'm a stupid bitch whose ate lunch today. Even tho it was salad I am pissed.

I'm here because I hate being fat, always the fat friend that anyone wants. The fat daughter, the fat sister. My mother clearly hates me because I'm a giant pig. I hate this so much I wish I was skinny because the way I look right now is so fucking humiliating and disgusting.

i would k!ll to look like this. . .

you know your fcked when "omg ur so skinni" "you look like ur dyeing" "you look sick" starts to sound like a compliment 😃

whn you say "i already ate" and no one questions "what? / when" etc 😌

my biggest ✨ thinspo icons ✨ ; park jimin, min yoongi, rosè, yuna and jennie <3

i am unhappy because i binge and i binge because i am unhappy....

i reaally wanna vent. its my birthday today. i wear this beautiful dress and the first thing my dad does is say "this looks too tight" "lets return it if ur uncomfortable". i thought i looked pretty in it. i am on the verge of crying. i asked my mom and my sis if the dress looks tight and they gave me "the look". i am fucking done. like i am fucking relapsing. fuck food. fuck everything. i hate myself for letting me get this fat. i am a pile of disgusting fats. lets get skinny.

the thing i hate the most? when i have been fasting for 48+ hours and i go to have my first meal and someone comments "aRe yOu gOnNa fINISh aLl tHaT, tHaTs aLot oF fOod" i don't wanna eat anymore susan, tysm.

me counting the calories after a binge:

when you count your daily calories and its more than your "limit"

why i want to be skinny? i want to feel pretty. i want to wake up and feel beautiful. i want to hug people and not worry about them touching my fat. i want to wear jeans and not worry about my huge thighs. i want to wear sleeveless shirts and not having to worry abt my jiggly arms. i want comments like "your so skinny omg" "wht is your diet like?" "can u give me some tips?" i want to feel superior. i just.... want to be beautiful ♡ and i know i will achieve all my goals. i want skinny, and i will get my skinny.