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I never seen a person pass away in my life. Everyone I knew was alive and well, and I thought they were going to be around for as long as I've lived.
Until my grandpa passed away, then that's when the others followed through.
That was the first funeral I went to. I was so sad for my grandma because she lost her partner, and my dad/aunties/uncles because they lost their father.
I never seen my dad this sad.
During our trip to the US I remembered my dad saying "Don't worry [REDEACT] I won't die," then I had a nightmare of me at my dad's funeral. I was crying so much I almost thought it was real. I didn't realised it was a dream until I woke up.
Me and my dad has a great relationship, even though sometimes I was scared or angry at him, I still love him because that's my dad. He tries his best and he is great. Even though sometimes he's rough, he's very kind, funny, and wise.
I remembered that he and my grandma (from my mother's side) were both great at jokes (I think?) And they got along very well. Unfortunately I never met her because she passed away before I was born.
I know that when my dad pass, I will never recover from that. But I will treasure the times we have with one another. I really hope.