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She wasn’t surprised to hear it come from Synn’s mouth, but even when you expect something, you can’t ever really predict how you’ll react in the moment. Past trauma has a way of resurfacing, and for her, it stirs the fear that no one could ever like her for who she truly is. She holds her breath for half a second, then blurts out, “Are you sure?”

The second the words leave her mouth, she knows: she let the intrusive thoughts win again. She tries to correct herself. “I don’t mean like that, not at all. I just... do you like me, or do you like what I am in the ring? There’s a difference.”

And there was. She played the bombshell, the femme fatale—but in reality, she was the farthest thing from that. In her time traveling with Wilson, she’d shown him glimpses, but never the full picture.

“I’ve  held  these  feelings  for  so  long,  afraid  of  what  might  happen  if  I  spoke  them.”

(Synn)

"Well", Azin started, trying to find the right kind of words, the right answer without telling him how he should feel. "I do understand, I do, I don't want to tell you how you should feel though." She explained putting her cards out on the table. "But I've been there, afraid that you'll speak them into existence. Like a curse, or some nonsense, not that curses are nonsense, but just speaking your feelings shouldn't curse you." Az was stumbling over her words, not wanting to tell Synn that in her bloodline that could be very true. "But people like us? We fight, it's not for the faint of heart but we do."

“I’ve  held  these  feelings  for  so  long,  afraid  of  what  might  happen  if  I  spoke  them.”

(Synn)

"Well", Azin started, trying to find the right kind of words, the right answer without telling him how he should feel. "I do understand, I do, I don't want to tell you how you should feel though." She explained putting her cards out on the table. "But I've been there, afraid that you'll speak them into existence. Like a curse, or some nonsense, not that curses are nonsense, but just speaking your feelings shouldn't curse you." Az was stumbling over her words, not wanting to tell Synn that in her bloodline that could be very true. "But people like us? We fight, it's not for the faint of heart but we do."