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No
No.
I never meant to push you away.
To build up all these walls
and forcing myself to believe that everything was okay....
Making you think I don’t care at all.
Never.
I never wanted to hurt you.
I just never met anybody so nice...
because all I knew
was that people came with a price.
Stop.
I need to stop these feelings
that keep reminding me of what I miss.
I wish I could stop all of the wrong things I keep doing....
The things that keep dragging me deeper into this abyss.
Don’t.
Don’t say I “deserve happiness.”...
because I know very well that’s not true.
You don’t know that I really am a mess
because I made sure there was never really any proof.
Won’t.
I will never forgive myself.
For all of the wrong things I have done.
Forever locked away in this cell.
Never able to freely tell everything to anyone.
Can’t.
I feel like I can’t stop this monster
that keeps making me feel less human....
I keep telling it I have nothing else to offer.
Yet it never listens even when I say it over and over again.
None.
This monster called madness is always there.
Never not being so rough.
Making life so hard to bear.
Always feeling like I’m never enough.
..... I give up.