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1 month ago

And oftentimes its actually fun stuff. Like watching a movie ir playing videogames.

people who dont experience it cannot comprehend how awful executive dysfunction is. I WANT to do the task, i have the resources TO do the task, i will feel better having DONE the task

but i cant fucking do the task

1 month ago

And now for something completely different.

Photograph of a colourful, somewhat roughly-made clay teapot decorated in splotches of red, yellow and blue. It has four different spouts of various lengths pointing in different directions.

This is the ADHD Teapot. I made it in a ceramics class a few years ago. I use it to explain executive dysfunction to people who haven’t come across the term before (and those who think of ADHD mostly as Hyperactive Eight Year Old Boy Syndrome).

So, most people’s brains are like a regular shaped teapot with a single spout. Let’s say that your time, energy, focus etc is the liquid you have in the teapot. Your executive function is the spout, that directs the tea into the specific cup you want to fill-aka the task that you’re meant to be doing. Spills happen occasionally, but generally most of the tea goes in the right cup.

If you have executive dysfunction, (a symptom of ADHD, trauma, autism, schizophrenia etc.) you have multiple spouts going in different directions. You can try pointing one of them at your chosen cup and you will probably get some liquid in there, perhaps you will even fill it right up (finish the task). But meanwhile, tea is also pouring out of several other places and not going where you want it. If you have another container nearby, perhaps some of it will end up in there. But quite a lot of it is going to end up on the floor and accomplish nothing.

And at the end of the day you’ll have filled one or two cups ( or sometimes not even one) compared to the five or six that somebody with the same sized teapot (but only one spout) has filled, and everyone wonders why you’re so bad at getting tea poured, and why you make such a mess in the process.

One day I’d like to spend more time learning pottery and create a really technically good fucked up little adhd teapot. But that’s a long way off since i currently live in the outback and the nearest pottery workshop is some 400km away. But I figure that for now, it might be a useful or interesting metaphor to somebody even in its rough draft form.

This post is the cup I filled instead of cleaning my house btw.

1 month ago

me watching hollow knight videos every day but people dont know its a hyperfixation/special interest because i dont yap about it

no, i dont lose hyperfixations. theyre just moved to a different, slightly less used, shelf in my brain.

1 month ago

There's a bunch of adhd advice out there that's like "people with adhd tend to work better under deadlines due to the anxiety so here are ways to artificially induce a stress response in order to get you to get work done" and it's like well what if I don't want to be stressed out all the time in order to function

1 month ago
It Makes Me Happy When They Listen
It Makes Me Happy When They Listen

It makes me happy when they listen

1 month ago

This is so true. I had a REALLY bad phone addiction & was unable to watch TV at all. Now i can watch multiple 45 min star trek episodes (they're low stimulation to me) in a row without it feeling boring or exhausting. We have to train our brains.

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

1 month ago

Hey. Your brain needs to de-frag. Literally it needs you to sit there and space out.

If you want your memory or executive function to improve, stare out a window at the skyline or sidewalk or trees or birds on the electrical wires for like 20+ minutes per day. (With no other stimulation like a podcast or TV if you can manage but hey baby steps innit). If you're fortunate enough to have safe outside with any bits of nature, go stare closely at a 1 meter square of grass and trip out on the bugs and shapes of grasses and stuff.

Literally this will make you smarter. Our brains HAVE TO HAVE this zone out time to do important stuff behind the scenes. This does not happen during sleep, it's something else.

That weird pressurized feeling you get sometimes might be your brain on no defrag.

Give your brain a Daily Dose Of De-Frag.

1 month ago

The way most autism literature describes "literal interpretation" is often not at all similar to how I experience it. Teenage me even thought I couldn't be autistic because I've always been able to learn metaphors easily.

In fact, I love wordplay of all kinds. Teenage me was fascinated to learn all the types of figurative language there are in poetry and literature.

But paperwork and questionnaires are hard, because there's so much they don't state clearly. Or they don't leave room for enough nuance.

"List all the jobs you've had, with start and end dates." What if I don't remember the exact day or month? Is the year enough?

"Have you been suffering from blurred vision?" Well, if I take off my glasses the whole world is blurred, but I'm fairly sure that's not what the intake form at the optometrist is asking.

Or the infamous (and infuriatingly stereotypical) "Would you rather go to a library or a party?" What sort of party? Where? Who's there? I work at a library. Am I currently at the library for work or pleasure? Does it have a good collection?

It's not common figures of speech that confound me. It's ambiguity, in situations that aren't supposed to be ambiguous.

1 month ago
Four arrows forming a circle with four interspersed statements in all caps, in the center is a simple drawing of a person lying face down, butt up, flat on the floor, the words read: 

Faced with important adult task

Get scared by at least one part of it & avoid it

Blink

Months have passed & task is now even more important

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

1 month ago

fyi if you're trying to use the fact that that rancid ass muskrat cunt is autistic to be like "oh he didn't know what he did was wrong" about the fact that he threw up a fucking nazi salute then you are one of the stupidest fucking cunts to walk the earth and since we're in a housing crisis you should start offering the massive amount of empty fucking space in your skull for rent

(signed, an autistic person)

1 month ago

Sorry for infodumping about my special interest out of nowhere, you said a keyword and it activated my unskippable dialogue

1 month ago

My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit

Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before

1 month ago

I think some of you forgot that autistic people sometimes act strange and say things that are poorly worded and speak with incorrect tone and misunderstand or miss social cues because they are autistic

1 month ago
[ID: A timeline labeled "Hyperfixation timeline". All of the font is Comic Sans. Each point of the timeline points to a box with an accompanying doodle.

The first point of the timeline is labeled "so much yapping and theorizing and connecting the dots and—", accompanied by an unhinged person at a corkboard. Their pupils are red and staring at the viewer. The label and line on the timeline is also red. The line on the timeline goes up sharply.

The second point of the timeline is labeled "I can't believe I did all of that. That was embarrassing.", accompanied by the person staring awkwardly at the viewer. The line on the timeline goes down sharply. The text and line are black. 

The third point of the timeline is labeled "Oh god fuck I can feel it coming back", accompanied by the person holding their chest as if they were having a heart attack. The label is black, but the line is a dark red. The line creeps upwards again, but then goes back down. 

The fourth point of the timeline is labeled "Haha that was actually just a bluff", accompanied by the person laughing. The line is flat. The text and line are black. 

The fifth and final point of the timeline is labeled "hyperfixation demon", accompanied by the person looking upwards at the timeline in fear as the hyperfixation demon (drawn in red) lurks behind them. The label has an arrow pointing to the hyperfixation demon. The line and label are in red, with the line going up sharply again. /END ID]

What I mean when I do not control the hyperfixation.

1 month ago

This is what it feels like when youre unable to mask your autism

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1 month ago

adhd executive dysfunction sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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1 month ago

the neurodivergent experience:

20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333

80% of the time: this mind is a prison

3 months ago

Biologist here, it depends on HOW her hair works.

Does it still actively use the light as its power comes from the sun? And if yes, does the haircolor affect the absorbation of the light?Or is it only important that the hair isnt damaged/destroyed.

Lets just assume it can repair itself to a degree (otherwise stuff like split ends wouldve ended it long ago). How far can that go? Cutting seems to destroy it, so lets assume that for some reason, the hairs act like one big cell that gets destroyed by cutting.

Small attacks to its outer side will propably be able to be repaired, however damage that is done on wide areas will propably not be tolerated.

This brings me to the conclusion that stuff like bleach will destroy her power because of the structural destruction. Same goes for perms.

However, if it is true that the hair does not need to actively use the sun, semi permanent hairdye shouldnt be a problem and permanent hairdye could also be fine as long as youre careful and make sure the damage isnt too intense.

Having my nightly ADHD moment so bear with me:

If Rapunzel were to dye her hair, would the chemicals affect the magical properties of her hair?

This is taking into account the fact that her magic derives from the sun essentially, which then becomes a flower. Taking those chemicals into account, if we were to interact those chemicals with the chemicals of hair dye combined with hair as is, I’m just wondering what the effects would be.

I’m no chemist; in fact I almost failed chemistry. So if someone who knows chemistry could help me out here that’d be great!

EDIT: my discord friends are bringing up great points such as hair damage and how it varies.


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3 months ago

Yo this goes out to all hollow knight fans who want to play similar games!

I am not far into the game yet, but i recommend the last faith!

Its also a side scroll metroidvania with the kinda cozy/depressed vibe and an infection/abandoned world kinda trope.

It has a pretty similar fighting and playstyle, great art and nice music.

Its more dark than hollow knight tho, its usk 16, has some gory stuff (pixelart so not THAT bad) and overall is really gothic so be aware of that!


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3 months ago

Are People really so AO3 addicted that they want status updates for the site being down for 6 hours?? Its just 6 hours

AO3 will be offline for maintenance to fix the ongoing database issue, starting at 9am UTC on 7 Feb. We expect the maintenance to last approximately 6 hours. Thank you for your patience!

Posted: 22:53 UTC February 6, 2025

4 months ago

I had an amazing Biology teacher who we all assumed was a failed scientists.

He was OBSESSED with mushrooms.

He once randomly whipped out a bunch of champignons that he bought at the supermarket next door and continued yapping about them for 30 mins straight.

Our chapter was the processing of optical signals.

Paleontologist: I became a paleontologist because dinosaurs are cool

Astronomer: I became an astronomer because space is cool

Chemist: I became a chemist because explosions are cool

Archeologist: I became an archeologist because Indiana Jones is cool

Mycologist: I. Fucking. LOVE. Mushrooms.

Paleontologist: Uh…

Mycologist: IWillLiterallyMurderYouJustSoICanWatchFungiBreakDownYourDecayingRemainsDon’tTestMeBoneBoy

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