How I Sleep Knowing I’m Not Coping With My Breakup, I’ve Failed Maths, I Need Better Meds And I’ll

obsessive compulsive

used the shower to relieve the sick

from the intrusive thoughts i get

washed the dirt off of my skin

it’s soiled from what lies within

i ripped hair straight from the follicle

and thought of going to the hospital

during sex i squeeze my eyes shut

and pray my mind keeps itself put

not even safe with my own touch

the things i think are a little too much

it’s hard to interact with others

when i’m thinking of harming another

how do i explain to someone else

that what i’m scared of most is myself?

- @homvlily (2024)

Should be laid up with someone's daughter playing with her hair right now instead of whatever this is

💞

thinking about a time when i was worried about being judged for my scabbed cuticles and my mum told me it wasn't dirty or gross.

so for everyone with a bfrb. you are not dirty. you are not gross. you are not ugly because of your bfrb.

Sweetheart, Puppy Butch X mean, black cat femme who hates everyone but their butch

(Pspsps where’s my butch)

via schulzmuseum

Me

Settling back into sobriety but oh my god I forgot how fucking insane I was without my favourite coping mechanism

these are all me btw

“Well, I've been there, sitting in that same chair

Whispering that same prayer half a million times

It's a lie, though buried in disciples

One page of the Bible isn't worth a life.”

The Village- Wrabel