Something Something "every So Often I Fall Down A Chronicles Of Narnia Rabbithole For A Week Or Two,

something something "every so often I fall down a Chronicles of Narnia rabbithole for a week or two, specifically the Pevensie era, and I can feel it creeping up on me again" and also something something "I was in Oxford last year I just got my masters from the same place Narnia was written" and also something something "Edmund being my favorite since I was a kid, Edmund being the one I related to, Edmund being the one who fell out of favor and was simultaneously handed forgiveness without needing to work for it but also continuously given the opportunity to earn it and feeling like he could recover because he did so but yet also still being the outlier, the one it's easiest to project queerness onto, and also the one who doubted the most and still wound up among the strongest in faith because of it and also not having to defer to blind faith trusting in it when it was necessary but also always finding evidence and thinking and being the logical sibling, the clever one, the negotiator, the politician" and something something "i went to christian schools since I was born until college and my relationship with the church is kinda antagonistic because I disagree with a lot of the social decisions of the church as a body but my relationship with faith itself being very academic and as i'm slowly trying to figure out my personal beliefs and spiritualism I'm finding my way back to it but it involves a lot of religious trauma unpacking around being queer and disabled and neurodivergent and having interests that weren't 'acceptable' like loving the symbolism of tarot cards and studying folklore and enjoying ghost hunting and cryptids and faeries and me just plain being weird" and something something "when I think of Narnia I think of Aslan and Lucy sure but I hear Edmund Pevensie"

does that make any sense