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Wow so who else gets extremely worked up thinking they have to confess to their partner a “big secret” or “bad thought” or “deal breaking worry” and then immediately after confessing it (and sometimes having a full on conversation or even argument about it) gets into a state of cuddly bliss and feels super in love despite having just been extremely stressed and feeling like everything was about to come crashing down????

and followup what the hell is this??? Is it rocd?? Is it just relationship anxiety??? Is it just general like anxious attachment?? What is this pattern bc it definitely happens to me like I feel intense distress and think the relationship is about to end with this conversation and then immediately afterward I feel over the moon in love relieved wanting to make out whatever the whole 9 yards

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yoshitoshi ABe’s an omnipresence in the wired || 安倍吉俊の『an omnipresence in the wired』

the worst part about ocd is no matter how much work you do, some days you just can’t get your brain off of a sticky loop of rumination

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I’ve experienced two bereavements in a very short period of time. My (undiagnosed) autism is making this trauma even more difficult. I feel physically ill all the time, I can’t do anything but at the same time I can’t process anything. I have barely cried and don’t even feel like this is real, or that it’s even me experiencing this. It doesn’t help that my family don’t accept me being autistic, so when I try to explain that I’m overwhelmed, anxious and experiencing sensory overload more, they just ignore that there’s even anything for me to be upset about. I just don’t know what to do.

I am really sorry you're experiencing grief so close together.

It is well known that Autistics experience grief very differently to neurotypicals. We process it far slower, experience far more inner turmoil with less ability to express it, and this can lead to a long-term burnout/shutdown relationship, where we're more sensitive to sensory input but instead of meltdowns we are trapped in our grief.

I don't know how to get your family to accept your autism, but the fact that grief is experienced differently by everyone should be enough for their compassion. It's cruel that they don't recognise that for you.

THINKING PERSON'S GUIDE TO AUTISM

Autistic Grief Is Not Like Neurotypical Grief — THINKING PERSON'S GUIDE TO AUTISM

You see, every brain only has so much space in which to process information, and if a very large part of that is consumed with emotions, it