it:s an explanation of why i like shinobu from chihayafuru & the peripheral people / moving-object that pop up sometimes
Source ~ My Autistic Soul
When an autistic person is in burnout, it means that they are experiencing extreme mental, physical, and/or sensory exhaustion.
This exhaustion can stem from a variety of places, especially from masking, and can lead to an even larger variety of symptoms.
It can last a few hours or several years
It can be the result of a slow build-up or it can hit suddenly
The effects of burnout (especially loss of skills) are more likely to be permanent if the burnout has lasted several years
It is more common in adolescents and adults
It is different than neurotypical burnout and regular depression
It affects every area of your life
It requires more time to recover
Masking
Too high of expectations
Lack of support
High intensity interactions (concert, party)
Prolonged interaction (school, work)
Sensory overload
Suppressing autistic traits
Operating beyond capacity
Not being able to recover from or cope with stress at the beginning signs
Change
Anxiety
Increased shutdowns or meltdowns
Depression
Suicidal ideation
Little to no motivation
Loss of interest
Loss of basic skills
Exhaustion
Increased executive dysfunction
Difficulties with memory, communicating or sleep
Easily triggered/overstimulated
Headaches/migraines
You may seem "more autistic"
Difficulties in making decisions
Low attention span
Accommodations (in work, school, and everyday life)
Say no
Find community (on social media or in person)
Take breaks (often)
Let autistic traits breathe
Get rid of expectations
Therapy (especially for prolonged burnout)
Leave, even if it seems rude
Engage in simple self-care
Learn to manage energy
Stim
Ask for help
Rest
Set boundaries
Put yourself first
Identify your triggers
Autistic burnout is largely fueled by having to navigate a world that was not made for us. And so, burnout is nearly inevitable for autistics.
Burnout is exhausting, overwhelming and scary. It is something a lot of is deal with on a daily basis without even realising what it is. It has become our normal way of existing.
Recovering from, preventing, and coping with burnout is not a quick and easy fix. It is a lifetime process of taking care of and being gentle with ourselves. Which is hard, my dudes, not gonna lie.
But we're some tough sons of bitches.
C. The obsessive-compulsive symptoms are not attributable to the physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication) or another medical condition.
“im a seed
and i’ve been sowed on to sand.
my whole life i’m raised as a crop seed, like my friends and family. so that’s what i believe i am.
but i can see them growing, and im still just a seed.
i just don’t fit in.
i wonder whats was wrong with me.
i start to think maybe i’m a bad seed, not meant to be successful.
When i turned 18 i was pulled into the ocean by the tide.
i’m panicking because i know i can’t survive out here alone. no one prepared me for this.
i get to the bottom of the ocean.
i realize this is reality. there’s nothing i can do about it. this is just adulthood.
i start to sprout.
the only way this is possible is if im actually a sea plant. but there’s no way. my parents would have told me.
but i never was a crop seed.
i’ve always been sea weed.
i start to grow.
and i realize there was never anything wrong with me.
so now i know who i am, and i can live the rest of my life. happily, a sea weed.”
awhile back i mentioned a loose spiritual sequel to a loose spiritual sequel to the "enlove" story i wrote, and here it is, along-with the draft of a VN script i never finished, + some art (for the VN) by henrietta (pictured), + some of my notes from church
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