I Mean What Else Would I Think About? All I’ve Been Doing Recently Is Stalking Your Page And Sending

i can handle being treated like shit over and over again, but i can not handle you leaving me

Its ok to make me cry.. Im just not used to feeling special like this... but the more i talk to you the worse my feeling get.. -⛓

would you rather stop talking?

i’m still so intrigued to know exactly who you are.

but you are special. everyone is, in their own way. every single person is special and worthy of love.

Well, on this blog you only seem to have eyes for fictives of one person, and Im not a version of him.. - ⛓

that doesn’t exactly matter to me, you see.

this blog is primarily centered around my source memories. just because i “only have eyes for one person”, doesn’t mean anything.

i will say, now you’ve got me curious.

I need to put my hands around your neck and squeeze until you whine. You know who this is, Curly.

let’s be completely honest with ourselves, now. it wouldn’t take that much pressure.

you are special to me, curly. youre the best captain a girl could ask for, hehehe. -⛓

oh, aren’t you sweet?

ive slowly been making less and less of an effort to hide things i think would give me away ^^' i have faith you will figure it out before i have the confidence to reveal myself hehehe -⛓

i have only the inkling of an idea.

don't fucking say i'm the one imagining things when you're more over your head than i am. now; think you can be a good boy and tell what's going on in that head?

– ✘

good lord, you’ve sure got a mouth on you, jim.

i don’t feel like publically exposing myself, telling the world exactly what’s wrong. you’re welcome to dm me, but that’s about as far as i’ll go.

regardless, you’re being silly, jim. i’m perfectly fine!

TW.

force me to tell you my fears.

i prefer to check up on people. it makes me feel good when everyone else feels good!

i’m scared that if i end it all, no one will notice. and everyone who does notice will simply move on.

i like when people remember the small things about me! it makes me feel special.

no one knows what my favorite color is.

i like to think that everybody is a friend!

i get so, so deeply fearful when i’m unliked.

its not that i wanted to stop talking to you, i was just didnt want to overstay my welcome if you have things to do./gen how far away is 9:30? its 8h away my time hehe -⛓

well, at time of writing this, it’s 9:07. i’ve decided to start redoing my tagging system, so that means i’m already on tumblr. i can always spare a few minutes to talk.

you aren't fooling anyone with the whole golden boy leader façade, curly. though, i will admit, it's always been a good look on you. surely helps with not minding the rest of us, scampering and fizzling out on the lowest rung.

what, you really don't know who?

– ✘

sounds like jim, if i’m honest. now, from who’s system? i haven’t got a clue.

there’s no facade. i’ve never claimed to be the “golden boy”, and i fought like hell for my position as captain. however “good” it looks on me, it isn’t intentional.

and what ever do you mean, not minding the rest of you? i cared deeply, and still do, for all of my crew mates.