All My Characters Must Be Dead By Now

First try for my new art homework

I’m a loser

Me: this is great!!! I finally have time to write! I can make some progress!

Me:

me: *sad at 3am*

'[crush's name] replied to your story'

me: am happy 🥺

there’s this kind of heavy sadness invading me for no reason and leaving me broken even when nothing’s wrong

Harry: I once thought Draco used to be an equestrian

Ron: Why?

Harry: Because he rides my di-

Ron: Nevermind! Don’t finish that sentence, EVER!

just logged out of instagram and i told people i was feeling out of place, i'm always left behind

and i know i'm gonna receive a lot of dms like 'hey you know i'm here for you' and all and i know they mean it but i don't need fake people that show up when i tell them i'm giving up, i need real people that can see i'm just falling apart and all i need is some real and honest company, a word, a smile, a look, anything

my mind is poisoned and i'll believe every single bad thing my brain imagines until you tell me how it really is

he’s taking care of me like no one ever did and i have no idea where this is going but i sure hope he does appreciate it as much as i do

my life’s literally falling apart

i’m giving up on everything and everyone, i’m isolating myself and barely answering the few dms i get, i spend my time avoiding my ‘friends’, my crush still ignores me in the hallways, my coping mechanisms stopped working and my autodestructive behaviors are back

the only kind thing i received in days is a text from my crush cheering me up

idk how to describe the life i’m ‘living’ but i definitely didn’t sign up for this