Three Years Ago I Was Just About To Talk To My 'ex' For The Very First Time

three years ago i was just about to talk to my 'ex' for the very first time

two years ago i was getting yelled at by my 'ex in the middle of the night bc i was working and it apparently was too late for them and it made them mad

one year ago i was slowly healing from this massive destruction i went through

tonight my intrusive thoughts made me go through all of this and i felt the abuse again as if it was still there

i'm just getting used to live on my own, i'm completely alone, facing intrusive thoughts, surrounded by people that know absolutely nothing about this all, it just feels so... it feels like i keep falling apart even more than a year after putting an end to this and it's so hard i want to give up

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3 years ago

looking at it now, all the posts about my crushes, cute boys at parties and sentimental delusions didn't age well lmao

and i mean i was just about to make a new one rn but i stopped myself bc i don't wanna get my hopes up again

3 years ago

please, don’t pretend to care about it. you made a mistake? it’s fine. you try to make up for it with excessive kindness, it only feels fake and awkward.

3 years ago
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6 years ago

James: Who ate my leftovers?!

Sirius: Who ate my brother’s ass?

James, blushing: ...Okay. *Leaves quickly*

4 years ago

me taking forever to reply to both my crush and the toxic person i hate

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3 years ago

thinking about the day someone will actually read my tumblr and find out it's about them-

i'll be so embarrassed and ashamed

6 years ago

sirius: please let me put eyeliner on you just this once, we can’t go to a punk show if you’re not wearing eyeliner

remus: alright, fine

sirius: *sees remus with eyeliner on*

sirius, choking: holy fuck, i think i might be gay

6 years ago

some people are so tall and beautiful and here I sit, 5′4 and resembling a shrunken mountain troll

4 years ago

Me: this is great!!! I finally have time to write! I can make some progress!

Me:

Me: This Is Great!!! I Finally Have Time To Write! I Can Make Some Progress!
3 years ago

my english teacher just came up to my desk during the break to read the text i had written down and it starts with 'when my time comes..' and he just looked at me like 'wtf are you ok??'

i'm sorry sir i didn't mean to make you worried


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