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P.O.T.D #3

Meant to post this draft yesterday but hey I’m posting this week soooo that’s what matters lol. Finally getting some of my shit together so excited to try and post more. Anyway, the Heart Killers ep. 11 came out yesterday and I gotta yap about it. Let’s get into it, folks.

Ep. 11 Review - Wow. The dreaded BL Ep. 11 curse strikes again cause the way this episode caught me lacking at the end. Damn. Jo, expect my therapy bill by Monday. Seriously, this episode was fantastic. From the little party Style and Kant attended to the couples spending their last day with each other. Everything was perfectly balanced if you asked. A great balance between drama, happiness, comedy, the calm before the storm that made you feel so many emotions by the end of it. The bathroom scene with the brothers, I swear, I don’t care if I’m glazing but the acting from those two specifically is goddamn amazing. The way you can see them shake with anger and sadness, the heartbreak in their voices is just stellar. And of course, the best friends breaking down in each others arm in the end, the weight of everything finally coming down and that their boyfriends, their loves, are gone was all just. Again, I cannot say my praise enough for this show. Another one of the few shows that brought me to tears, last one being Jack and Joker lol. And looking at the preview for the last episode, I don’t know how they’re gonna top this.

Overall, an 9/10 episode. Gonna cry and find some way to cope for the finale next week. I expect them to have a wedding and to be happy, Jo. Anyway, that’s all for now.

Until next time, bye!

Thoughts for Today - Ep. 4 of The Heart Killers

Ah yes, the long awaited THK Wednesday has arrived and with it, a new episode. Once again, it delivers a nice a little episode, a more laid back one in comparison to last week’s BDSM scene, FadelStyle NC scene, and so on. I loved the vibes of today’s episode and without further ado, let’s jump right into.

Review:

So I’m still figuring out how I want to format my reviews, just bear with me guys 😭. But anyway, to start off, we finally boyfriend conformation from both sides! I would say congrats if this wasn’t The Heart Killers and we all know how it’s gonna go down. Another praise of the show is I like how messy it’s making everything. It’s clearly showing the audience the messy web that it’s spinning, how everyone is deceiving and lying to one another that makes it feel very so real, unfortunately. It’s miracle how it’s been able to balance campy and uncomfortable realism so well. Like Kant’s character, for example, finds new ways to make me fall in love with him. You understand why he’s doing what he’s doing while also watching him fall deeper in love for Bison that conflicting with his goals. And it makes the audience struggle of which path he should take; if he chooses Bison, he loses his brother and freedom. If he chooses his brother, he loses Bison and what it means to love someone like that. It’s uncomfortable, tense, and I love it.

Same with all the characters. Bison showing more signs he’s not as naive and cutesy as he pretends to be and if that preview for the next episode has anything to say, it’s that were finally going to see more of this cold blooded killer side. We did get to see more of that side today and I like how the show is taking its time with showing that to us. Saw a little bit last week with Bison’s sadistic tendencies in bed and now today with his jealousy and threats to Kant before he switches to his more nicer side. The beginning being hilarious, little side tangent. The little side vigilante mission they went on was also very cute, a close call from Captain, but otherwise a great little scene that helped to deepen their bond. Till they finally made it official as boyfriends. Now, I definitely think Kant likes Bison. Probably more than he should as we can see whenever he’s been genuine through his facial expressions. When he’s apprehensive about something, his face will show it as will whenever he’s being genuine and caring about Bison. Also showing that when he had those flashbacks in the shower. He likes the man and he knows he shouldn’t because now, his goals, his freedom and his brother are at risk. It’s all going to be so awesome to see unravel next week.

The scene between them in the forest, disregarding the kitchen scene and the scenes of him missing Style, were an awesome build up to the scene in the woods. We know very well that he could’ve killed Style anytime he wanted and hell, he’s probably thought about it more than once. That was until he started getting curious about him. Then the infamous self-fun scene in Ep. 2 came out, where his curiosity turned into lust. Then that lust exploding into fruition in last week’s episode where he slept with Style, hoping to get it out of his system when he knew deep down he’d probably want more just as much as Style. The same Style who, show cased as being a playboy and only down for hookups, was legitimately hurt that he was ‘nailed and bailed’ in his words. I like how even though he tries to pass if off, he’s hurt with Fadel treating it like nothing, where now, he’s invested in the man before he was told that he’s an assassin. Before that, he made it clear that he’s cares now about Fadel, wanting to learn more about him and be there with him more, stating these thoughts and emotions in the warehouse in the woods. That scene was so well done. The vulnerability from Fadel, the intent listening from Style. You can see Style a little on edge before Fadel grabs him, then his face and guard falling the more he listens to Fadel rant about his feelings. His face turns from caution to understanding, leaning in to kiss Fadel and confirm his own feelings by saying ‘It’s ok to love.’ (Screamed at this part) And Fadel? Joong never fails to impress. The way he just rants about his feelings, how he hates that Style has made him this way, how he hates that he misses Style. This is first time in the series that I think we get to see that crack in his shell, his mask slipping for a brief second as he lets all this come out and for a second, we see the caring man we was once before his life got in the way and molded him into putting up such high walls. And when Style tells him that, his face soft for the first time ever, he embraces Style not because he has to but because he wants to. There’s no excuse of wanting to let it out or to get Style off his back. He WANTS Style. He WANTS to have him, embrace, to care about him. The NC scene feeling so much more passionate, tender, and real than last week. Both sides giving into each other completely, opening up their walls for each other, even if for a little. I loved it so much, the acting from both sides incredible and the chemistry off the charts that gives KantBison a run for their money.

Overall, had fun with this episode like usual. With the way things are going, the slow buildup to eventual catastrophe soon to come will be great to see, well story wise. The acting was fun per usual and we got to see some great character moments despite the more laidback setup of the episode. Love how the plot is still progressing, my only complaint is that I hope we get to see more Mother and Keen moments as I know they are going to be somewhat responsible for the downfall of our characters. That’s all I had for today, give the episode an 8/10. Thanks for reading this far and hope you great rest of your day/night!

Until next time.

Here’s something I’ve always been curious about:

This video, right? Argentum Inanis is Latin, and Google tells me it means empty silver. (Although Inanis can also be translated as void or lifeless)

I’ve always wondered what that had to do with anything, though. He wouldn’t name it that on a whim, right? And for a long time I’ve had no idea what it might mean. But then I rewatched Anomaly Found, and noticed this:

You guys see those eyes, right?

Empty Silver.

me seeing anti:

oh no he’s hot

i dont know if anyone mentioned this, but thinking about that last scene of Anti finally coming thru the camera, passing all of the bodies of the iris workers he literally just killed and introducing himself to chase and like. if that was the point where anti was corporeal/chase finally saw him in person, like can you just imagine how terrified  Chase must’ve been to see all those people drop like flies basically out of nowhere beforehand? 

Something you can’t see just decimating everyone around you as you remain the last person alive somehow. only to have the thing you had just tried to warn them about,  very thing that has been haunting you for so long, that feeling of absolute dread and horror personified literally looming over you. greeting you with a simple hello and a smile.

After finishing The Killers Heart episode in a proper watch where I could see it in all it's glory (which means uninterrupted and in the big screen with no one around) I can say I had SO MUCH FUN.

Kant and Bison hadn't really caught my attention until today's ep, and Fadel and Style continue being such interesting characters I cat help but be all 👀‼️about themselves and their interactions.

What I feel also allows me to really turn my brain off (in a suspension of disbelief sense) on here and enjoy what the show's offering is that:

1) I started this with zero expectations (literally, not good, not bad, nothing, just went with it) and as the show progresses I get more and more interested in it. I still have no expectations as where the story is going, there are things I would like to see character-wise, but from the story I have no ideaaaa, I'm just a witness so far.

2) The tone of the show really does feel like a comedy, in the classical sense of the word, where It does not mean that it will be comical.

Comedies are about absurds, situations out of the ordinary, that often lead to contrived situations that yeah, might cause you to laugh because they're ridiculous, but they don't stop taking themselves serious about what happens within them, and the absurd can also lead to absurd tragedies: over the top, messy, but tragedies nonetheless. So in terms of the genre I feel it's quite true to itself (and I love it when that happens)

3) The characters are so well balanced it's ✨chef kisses✨.

What I mean about this it's that I don't feel any character has the upper hand over the rest, they're all on the same ground, albeit in very different directions.

When it comes to messy relationships I enjoy it a lot more when all parts are equally fucked up (see Big Dragon) rather when the messiness or toxicity comes from only one of the characters to the other.

This is literally a comedia de enredos (comedy of entanglements?) in all the ways, every character has something to hide and it's creating a web of misunderstandings one above the other, the assassin settings just adds a tad bit more of risk to the overall experience.

Kant is lying through his ass, Bison is masterfully making everyone believe he's an innocent little guy but Kant knooows he and his brother have killed people and YET send Style to pester Fadel without telling him and now Style is really intrigued to what Fadel is hiding and he's gonna take whatever it takes to find out while Fadel just wants a break but it's pretty conscious he's still an assassin and it's also jumping around between those realities and aha aha aha aha.

4) Finally, I'd say that overall and above everything else, what I enjoy the most in anything is congruence.

I like it when something it's set up and then followed through, I like it when characters act in ways that make sense for them, and I like it when stories are earnest and stay true to their genre.

It's only ep 3, but I really like the bases and conflicts it's setting up to, and the way it's executing them so far has been pretty coherent within what we've been shown.

So yeah, unironically enjoying the ride in more ways than what I expected to! Let's see how this one develops 🫴✨

Thoughts for Today - Ep. 1-3 of The Heart Killers (BL)

Hey guys. I know, it’s been a fresh minute since I’ve used this blog, well besides for looking at posts without doing some of my own. Trust, I plan to fix that starting today. Don’t expect super frequent posts as I am still in school (cries in final exams) but I do want to be more active here, especially regarding some works I have cooking that I want to share as well as shows I want to rant about. Which brings us to today’s icebreaker, the recent Heart Killers BL series.

And my thoughts so far? I honestly am in love with this series. Might be one of my favorite off all time so far, and that’s saying something coming from a Kinnporsche glazer, rightfully so that series is also incredible. So I’m going to rant about the episodes so far and some other topics I’ve seen floating around the show. So strap in cause I got quite a few things to saw if you’re interested.

EP. 1 - Great start to the series in my opinion. I loved the character intros and all of them are perfect to showing the audience that these are not good people. Extremely morally grey and paints the way to great character development. Makes them more realistic, as people in real life are often morally grey as well, dirty and complex, just like these characters. Brings an element of realism to an otherwise campy and sometimes goofy show about assassins and deceit. Also yes, have to talk about the KantBison scene. Now, I havent watched too much of their work, only pieces from their shows, but from I could see they had great chemistry and it’s on full display here. Their scene was passionate, raw. Another praise to give to the show is how openly sexual it is and I love it. Also loved the dynamics they’ve at that point, Bison being the dreamer, Fadel the reluctant, older brother who does what he thinks is best, Style an annoying but lovable diva, and Kant, a liar who’s doing it for the greater good of his brother. The tension as well between Fadel and Style, chef’s kiss. Can’t wait to see one of them break. Overall, had a great time with the first episode.

EP. 2 - Have to say, the most campy episode so far. But I’m not complaining, Style of course being the reason for this. I got to say, usually I hate characters like this, the overly annoying ones to smother and don’t respect boundaries, so I’m shocked to find that Style is still as lovable to me as ever. I think it’s because of the added subtext that at first, he’s only really doing this for his best friend and his car. So he’s doing it with the benefit of the reward after. It’s messed up and keeps up with the theme of toxicity in this show. And it’s also hilarious to see Fadel have the patience of a saint and put up with his shenanigans. Hell, even giving him money for his products he ‘dumped.’ The tension between the two is great and got even better during the sauna scene. So many thoughts for that, super hot. It showed Fadel being the most giving to Style since they first met, makes sense since that only happens when the two are alone. He leans into his touch almost, closes his eyes and just lets himself feel Style’s hand on him. At least, till Uncle comes in and ruins it. Style basically being the ‘Ricky, when I catch you Ricky’ to him was hilarious. Till we go to the unconsensual kiss. Now, again, makes sense character wise since Style has been described as shameless in his attempts to pursue someone but I like how the show portrays it as something thats still not right. I love that the show isn’t afraid to delve into heavy subjects like this and still manage to portray them in a bad light without romanticizing them like other BL shows. It fits the tone of the series perfectly and I love it. Especially when we got to the end of the episode of Fadel’s fun time to himself. Hot as well, shame we lost a soldier so early. The post nut clarity hitting him hard afterward also made me chuckle out loud. It’s ok, we’ve all have our rough days. The Kant and Bison stuff was also very sweet, Kant paying off his friend to flirt with Bison to make it more convincing to him is a level of dedication I can’t even hate on. Proud of my toxic boy. Love how they’re still learning to trust each other, more Bison to Kant really, showing that he’s not as naive as some might think. Again, had fun with this episode as well as can’t wait for the next.

EP. 3 - Wow, def need to touch some grass after this episode. Here I thought nothing would top the Fadel fun time scene last episode but here we are. Now, there is a lot to say about this episode as got a good amount of info this time. We got introduced to ‘Mother’ who is actually worse than I expected her to be. It’s clear that she doesn’t give a damn about these boys (at least so far), merely using their ‘love’ as a means of manipulation to have the boys blindly follow her orders and take our her enemies. Reminds me of Tony from Pitbabe just gender bent. Showing the outsider brother, sorry I forgot his name at the moment, clearly being set up as a foil for the assassin brothers and I’m interested to see where they take him. Also, lore drop on Fadel? So boy wasn’t just rightfully paranoid, he lost an ex bf in this line of work and poor boy doesn’t want the same happening for his brother. Makes sense since at the beginning of the episode, he covered for Bison and lied about him seeing someone. Another cute brotherly moment besides from the one later one where he tells Bison he’ll help him get out of this so he can have a normal life. I swear, I love these two so much. And of course, more Style annoying Fadel, my favorite pastime. Jk but Fadel being used to it at this point is hilarious. Also loved how Style went to help Fadel and then proceeding to make the boy nervous when he changed into the uniform in the kitchen. Like Style, if only you knew the true effect you had over this boy. Fadel was practically drooling at the mouth looking away from him to stop getting horny. More cute scenes between Kant and Bison but unfortunate when Kant had to report back to Captain who suggests getting into their home instead. Mission failed successfully? (Iykyk). The club scene with Fadel was amazing, Style is right when he says that he’s handsome to be making like that on the side. But when he started imagining he was in fron of Fadel instead of the woman? They’re literally soulmates your honor, two minds think alike. Interesting though that after Fadel saved him from those three after the club, he’s switches on wanting to sleep with him to actually wanting to know more about him. His suspicions opposite to Kant’s, who wants to date Bison for the reason of staying out jail, to Style, who actually wants to know more about Fadel, what makes him tick and to let his walls down. So makes sense when they finally have sex, he’s not enjoying as much as he would’ve before he changed his goal about him. The whole sex scene actually, while still good, feels underwhelming for those two and it should be. Fadel’s doing it because he claims it’ll get Style off him, which lets be fr, he’s dying for that cookie since that last episode, so he feels this is mandatory and not into it as much as he would be if he actually vulnerable with Style. To which Style picks up on. He looks attentive, not as in the moment as one think he would be because he knows Fadel isn’t doing this because he really likes Style but because he feels like he has to. It’s more interesting than it is erotic and I love how the direction for that scene was. And the punch to Style after? Much deserved cause I did not like that whole grief club scene. Maybe to was to further hit home that Style isn’t a good person or maybe this foreshadowing for something, idk. I’m not a fan and it seems I’m not the only one. However, I can’t say the same for the ending of the show. The BDSM scene. Now the show is filled with triggers, stated that very early on, as early as the trailers so this didn’t surprise me too much. The roofing however, was interesting but makes sense since Kant needs to get more evidence at their house. But when the tables flipped, it catches him off guard. Him clearly hesitant and somewhat scared at first but not saying anything cause he’s far in to give up now. But to him starting to melt into and possibly feeling good was another level of spice I welcomed. I have so much more to say but maybe I’ll save that for after the series is over for a full analysis.

Overall, the series is so much fun and entertaining, the level of tension, incoming angst and storytelling is all wonderfully done and it leads me to being excited for the next coming week and how they’re going to redeem this band of morally grey men. That’s what character development is for. If they started out as goody two shoes then the show would be boring. The element of realism in the toxicity and deceit all these characters have is honestly what’s setting up for some amazing drama to come and it boggles my mind that some people are using that reason to drop the show. The show was very clear that it would go into some heavy subject matter and people hating the show on that are the reason we can’t have nice things. I understand not wanting to watch the show due to some of its triggers but calling the show ‘bad’ because of these reasons is absolutely ridiculous. There are other shows who try to go into this subject matter but don’t have the good writing Heart Killers have to pull it off. Sorry for the rant but had to get it off my chest.

All in all, watch the series if you can handle the heavy subject material as it’s definitely worth the watch. And don’t if you don’t! We all have our preferences but don’t hate something when it isn’t finished yet please. Let’s spread love, not hate. But I think I’ve all I wanted to say. Can’t wait till next week cause the show is getting good.

See you all in the next post, my marvels. Bye!

rewatched jacks new video, Anomaly Found - Chase Brody, and here some notes on the weird, little sounds I found throughout the video.

Enjoy!

Post of the Day (P.O.T.D) #2

Hello, guys! Ignore the disorganization of this blog and the posts. I won’t waste too much more time because we finally got the new episode of Heart Killers 😭🙏. Blessed day truly lol. Don’t worry, I’ll be going over episode 6 as well since I didn’t do that last time. No more time wasting and let’s dive in.

Ep. 6 Review - A nice set up episode in my opinion. Nothing too major (besides the ending) and nothing too small, a perfect way to progress the plot while also having more character moments that help us fall in love with the characters even more. This was essentially more of a FadelStyle focused episode as it showed more instances with them this time but also giving a great moment between Kant and Bison in that bowling alley. The real surprise of this show is how eventful that bowling alley is. The beginning with Fadel and Style was cute and loved their date at the rock club. How Style was giving his hand to Fadel and telling him to be himself, to not give a fuck what everyone else thinks, to just let go and have fun in being his real self and the persona he puts on. A great, touching between the two, their dynamic is incredible. The other brother having a moment as well, making plans with Kant to see the lights was a cute but also a heart sting for us as, well, we know that might not happen with how this is going. Especially with how the captain almost catches the brothers after Bison saves Babe. Another close call for Kant, but of course, it didn’t matter as Bison finally found out about Kant working with police. And as I expected, it was heartbreaking. Both the actors for the brothers did fantastic in their reactions, both encapsulating their personalities. Bison more bigger in his reaction but keeping it to himself and Fadel merely shedding a tear, hiding his real reaction in the presence of someone else. I continue to feel for Kant in this show and I will not be accepting anymore slander against my son, or any of them. After the small clinger of this episode, I was so excited to see how the next one would follow up, and boy did it follow up.

Ep. 7 Review - What a rollercoaster. And I mean it in the best way in regards to the storytelling. The level of deceit, lies, and pretending this episode from the birther this time, the tables totally flipped as now Fadel and Bison are the ones trying to fool the besties. But let’s be honest, there’s no need. They’re already head over heels for you both. Anyway, the truth also coming out to Fadel about Bison being the reason that Style asked him out. Poor Fadel just getting hurt in every episode it feels like. The acting from both of them in that scene was incredible and tense. Chefs kiss per usual. Then both of them focusing their efforts on killing the boys, Bison nearly killing Kant early at their BB shooter date (Sorry idk what it’s called lol) and Fadel thankfully reeling him in. Also, all the boys saving the bowling alley from the random asshole ex was great, Kant’s scream for Bison was done beautifully from First. Seriously, the way this episode kept escalating, keeping the tension even after Bison got shot is a skill I wish to master. The confession from Kant too, ugh. Why does this show like to break my heart? Then of course, we get to the part of both the brothers kidnapping their lovers to supposedly end them but they don’t cause of course not. They love them as much as the besties do. But I loved the way the show handled showing how both of the brothers handled their lovers and their betrayal. Style flirting with Fadel and him being cautious and aggressive towards him, Kant trying to be calm and rational in order to explain to Bison while Bison lets his emotions take the wheel. A perfect display of the characters personalities and their dynamics in action. God this show and its writing is *Mwah*. The preview for the next episode once again looking like it might break my heart or at least punch it a few times.

Anyway, that finally sums up my thoughts for the past episodes. I’m so sorry again for the disorganized posts and lack of them. Getting for school has been a hassle but I promise to be better guys. Hope you guys enjoyed and please feel free to leave your thoughts here as I always love seeing what you guys think.

Until next time. Bye!

He’s taken form.