Almost-immortal - Vermilion

“‘Do you fall in love often?’ Yes often. With a view, with a book, with a dog, a cat, with numbers, with friends, with complete strangers, with nothing at all.”

— Jeanette Winterson, Gut Symmetries (via luthienne)

11.11.2021

French lesson 11 and I still make mistakes in dictation after 8 years of studying french

the professors start talking about exams and I don’t feel mentally ready

Every time we have a Japanese lesson, half of the class doesn’t understand and feels stupid (I’m part of this half)

I’m not studying linguistics anymore

I hope your week is going better than mine🥲

rinezha dynamic as tumblr posts

every post about punk's history leaving out jews is my villain origin story

concept playlists pt. 4

Not the usual super specific playlists but I spent a shit ton of time on these so y’all should check them out :) <3 there’s also a bunch of different kinds of music on each playlist so if you’re looking for a variety I got u.

invested in a figment: for my obsessive folk who long for love or someone they can’t have

can you feel my love buzz?: obsessive vibes again but more intense and less lovesick

stop it, wake up: self explanatory, I don’t know what the concept is here but I love this playlist so check it out

rhinestones from the sky: for rainy days and gloomy weather when you’re in your room and want to stare at the ceiling and you’re not happy but you’re not sad either

new wave: mix of synth and vibes

i work the week like sedation: made after I worked every day for a week and felt like I was deteriorating

such a lonely day: those days when you contemplate life and drive around and want to scream but also cry but in a mellow way where the feeling just settles

i’m aboutTo have a nervous breakdown: for when you are losing your mind, be it from school, work, etc.

dream workshop: artists and academics collide; a fantasy i have of having an apartment with my friends and working in a little workshop space on our own respective things like art, music, studying, etc.

dissociating on the metro: it’s before dusk during the blue hour and you’re on your way home on the subway/metro after a long day

pt. 1 pt. 2 pt. 3

there’s literally nothing more fun than being kind????? like? making someone feel loved and appreciated and seeing them smile and hearing them giggle?? sign me the fuck up

I think my dark undereye circles are adding to the aesthetic actually.

hyperfixating on this is not enough i need to eat it

In Mojave thinking, body and land are the same. The words are separated only by letters: ’iimat for body, ’amat for land. In conversation, we often use a shortened form for each: mat-. Unless you know the context of a conversation, you might not know if we are speaking about our body or our land. You might not know which has been injured, which is remembering, which is alive, which was dreamed, which needs care, which has vanished.

If I say, My river is disappearing, do I also mean, My people are disappearing?

—Natalie Diaz, from “The First Water Is the Body,” Postcolonial Love Poem

when you want to be the main character but really you’re the annoying background character at best and the unreliable narrator nobody likes at worst