Just Read This Manhwa. I Think It Killed Me

Just read this manhwa. I think it killed me

NoHome is so utterly fucked for everything it does like. What do you mean Haejoon and Eunyung see each other as extensions of their mothers because they’re so deprived of motherly affection they’re helpless to the urge to project onto anyone that offers even a modicum of affection and understanding to them. But because of their dramatically different outlooks on family due to growing up in supportive, yet dysfunctional, versus outright abusive, households, Haejoon looks to Eunyung as a place of support to haphazardly fill the gaps his mothers loss carved in him, while Eunyung looks to Haejoon as a larger than life, inaccessible monolith of morality that he can never appease and must always be afraid of. And because of these juxtaposed views of one another they can never truly begin to understand each other despite knowing the most about one another compared to everyone else in their lives. With every step that molds them closer to each other there’s another barrier put up that prevents them from ever actually touching the others heart. What if I died.

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10 months ago

I also think Sam and Cas should have tried to kill each other every 1-2 seasons.

9 months ago

ADORABLE

My Brain Decided To Focus On The Fact That Dean Likes Cowboys… It’s Just Too Cute To Ignore :’3

My brain decided to focus on the fact that Dean likes cowboys… it’s just too cute to ignore :’3

7 months ago
Hello???

hello???

9 months ago

HAHAHHAH, I love Crowley's mostly unrequited love for Dean

Anyway, Dean's most inconsistent application of his own ethical code is Crowley.


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9 months ago

It's not always an easy thing to make breakfast in the morning when there's so many people around. Jostling for what exactly everyone's individual tastes are wanting that morning, or not wanting, or just how much coffee is left, or where the tea went, or who did the dishes last night and why there's stuff on your favorite mug. It's good though, he likes it. It feels right, having his family so close to bug him. He doesn't really like peace and quiet as much as he does the people he loves making themselves known in his life and routine. And the smell of coffee and feeling like it's a new day worth waking up for because everyone's there and alive. Right now it's just him and Sam in the kitchen, but your little brother being annoying is all just a part of it.

"You're like a middle aged divorced guy obsessed with his car, but without the excuse of ever actually having been married."

"Who wouldn't be obsessed with my Baby, she's hot as hell."

"She's never gonna love you back, Dean."

"Hey, that's not nice, I treat my girl right. Take her out on the town. Just last night, she and I went for a nice long drive, real romantic like."

Sam snorts.

Mary walks into the kitchen.

"Hey, mom, there's coffee if you want some. I'm doing pancakes, whether Sam wants 'em or not, you up for pancakes?"

"Always. I'm not gonna say no to pancakes."

"See, that's the right answer, Sam."

"Whatever, I just don't wanna throw up in the middle of my run."

"Seems like there's an easy solution to that where you still get pancakes," Dean quips.

Mary makes herself a cup of coffee at the kitched counter and grabs the milk beside Dean to put some in her mug.

Dean turns back from flipping the pancakes to look back at Sam. "Are you just bugging me about this because you've finally got a girlfriend so now you've got some kind of leg to stand on in how much of a loser I am?"

"Oh, I always had that leg to stand on."

"Sam." Mary chides.

"Sorry, Mom, I'm just messing around."

Dean smiles at Sam getting talked to. "He's just jealous of me and my girl and our long and loving commitment."

"Yeah, real jealous." Sam rolls his eyes. Dean is drinking his coffee, but he knows Sam is rolling his eyes.

"I took her out last night. " Dean offers a low whistle. "You should have seen her, man. Making heads turn left and right, she's still got it."

"Yes, she's so pretty, she's so hot, she's so stunningly blah blah blah, you understand how weird you sound, right?"

Mary smiles. "I think it's sweet. He really likes her. What did you guys do together last night."

Sam groans. "Not you too, come on."

"Took her out for a nice dive-in dinner, curly fires and a burger, with the tray that clips to the window of course, only the best for my girl."

"How romantic." Sam deadpans.

"Then we went for a nice long drive, just us and some Zeppelin, yknow. You gotta have some quality time."

Mary nods. "Your father and I used to do something very similar," Mary answers with a gleam in her eye.

"Yeah, see she gets it." Dean gestures from Sam to Mary.

"It's weird, you both are weird and I'm not participating in your perverse afflictions."

"Zeppelin never sounds better than on my Baby's tape deck."

"Yeah we know you really love a big deck." Sam snorts at himself.

"Yeah whatever." It's Dean's turn to roll his eyes.

Mary turns to him. "So what's her name, when am I gonna meet her?"

Sam starts coughing somewhere in the background.

Dean is just lost. "Huh? Who?"

"Your girlfriend. No pressure or anything, but I'd love to meet her, see who's stolen my son's heart."

Sam barks out a laugh. Dean just blinks. "Huh?"

"She thinks you were talking about an actual human woman, you weirdo." Sam spells out like he's a complete idiot. He might feel his ears turning bright red at the realisation.

"Oh," he chuckles awkwardly. "No, no woman."

"No, he doesn't date actual women anymore, only personified objects that he gives female pronouns."

"Dude, shut up, it's not that weird."

"He was talking about his car."

He should just say it. "Actually." Why shouldn't he just say what he's thinking. "Well, it wasn't just me and Baby, we might have drug Cas along, heh." He huffs at himself awkwardly. " I mean why would I need a girlfriend, I have Cas," he says it like he's joking, so he is. "And my Baby. What more could I want than that."

Sam just sighs deeply like he does when he doesn't think one of Dean's jokes is funny. Well, to be fair, it wasn't.

Mary just lays a hand on his on the counter. "You sound like you're happy." She smiles at him. "And I've already met Cas and Baby, so you don't even need to introduce me."

Sam is just shaking his head as if they're still joking, but Mary is looking at him, and actually seeing what he's saying. And he has to give her hug and try not to cry. "Thanks, mom."

4 years ago

Writing Advice: 10 Worst Experiences During the Writing Process😭

The experiences to prepare for, and to relate to during the writing process. Good luck fellow author! 

10. When you are trying to think of the perfect word thats right at the tip of your tongue. (Its worse when you loose the word all together)

This one is at number 10 because it is horrible, but you are still mentally active and not ready to cry yourself to sleep. Though it stinks!

Solution:

Think of a similar word, usually the second one on your mind and look for synonyms on google or other sources. The word you’re looking for or a better one may come up. If not than either choose one of the options or look for synonyms of another similar word.

9. When you write something that may not be correct so you research the topic for an hour. (I’m not talking about the big stuff you should have looked into before you started writing, exp: cultures, I mean basically meaningless stuff)

This has happened to me twice (once about horses and once about how to grill a pig) It’s second on the list because it takes up more time than the first one and it’s annoying. But usually not demotivating.

Solution: 

Do not do it.

8. When you read an article or watch a video about writing and realize you have been doing it wrong the entire time. 

Do I have to explain?

Solution:

Take in the advice if you like it and continue on with your book using the advice but do not go back and change what you have already written. Leave that to your editor self.

7. When you are irresolute (look it up) because of a family/friend. colleague/ exd’s opinion. (I mean they talk down at you for being a writer, or something similar)

This is hard on our feelings box and/or heartbreaking. But this list is mostly my opinions and since I haven’t felt the crush of this fully, its higher. I am sorry for those who have been hurt.

Solution:

Don’t listen to them! In fact, let it fuel you. Show them who can do what! Or who can be successful! You can do anything!

6. When you feel overwhelmed. This may be because you can’t make yourself forget that you have so much to do before finishing the book. Maybe your busy.

The editing, marketing, and paying are what overwhelm me. The writing phase is not particularly easy, but it was less stressful for myself. It may not be the case for you. You may still have chapters to finish, a world to build, characters to create. It could be very stressful.

Solution:

Make it fun! Make it a game and your going through the levels. Once your done creating your world and characters, you can finally write! The thing you have been waiting for months! 

Remember, you are building your world. Enjoy every moment of it. Because one day, you will finish your book or series and you have to say goodbye to your baby and creation. Enjoy it while it lasts!

5. Losing motivation to write.

Are you surprised this is only half way down the list? I’m not. Even though this is horrible, it’s not the worst thing. There are simple solutions.

Solution:

It may be different for everyone but here’s a few ideas that are good for me.

1.Start writing. Yep. If you just write, that motivation will soon come back. (This works best if you are very familiar with your characters)

2. Look back through your notes and future plans. Get excited, again, for your book or series.

3.Watch videos and read articles about writing 😉, they can help you get through the problem or just be fun.

4. Remind yourself why you want to write and why writings fun. its different for everyone but reading is an example.

5. Sleep, be healthy, socialize, get sunlight and fresh air, exercise. These can clear your mind, get you in a good mood and helps your overall day.

4. When you realize your dialog sucks or unnatural. 

This may not be as bad as some of the others I already mentioned, but dialog can help or ruin a book. Dialog can spark ideas of character development, relationships, sub-plots, or even how to continue the overarching plot. But if you do it wrong, it can take forever to fix.

3. When you are stuck.    You want to write but you can’t think of anything. I like to call this Writer’s Traffic instead of Writer's block. 

This is one of the worst case of scenarios for me as a writer because I want to write but instead I am staring at a computer screen.

Solution:

Skip the scene. Skip the next few lines. Leave a note for yourself so you can come back to it at a better time. 

2. When you realize you don’t know your characters enough.

It’s hard to admit, but when your character is inconsistent and its not part of their personality then you have a problem. You may even have to rewrite most of your book if you’re far in. If you don’t know your characters and your on chapter 4 then stop now and save yourself.

Solution: 

Do character questionnaires, explain anything important in their past. Anything traumatic they have experienced, their personality, how they would react in a certain situation. It’s really important to know their background (Note: You need to know, not your readers unless necessary) 

Link to a character questionnaires. https://www.writerswrite.co.za/prousts-questionnaire-35-questions-every-character-should-answer/    also they got some awesome writing advice!

1.DUN DUN DUN!THE LAST ONE! When your writing (or lack of) has an effect on you daily life and you feel absolutely miserable.

You would be surprised how often this happened to me, It’s almost like a heavy depressed feeling that makes it painful to basically do anything. 

Maybe it’s outside writing that makes you feel this way but you just can’t write. Everything is dull and grim, your head hurts or you have no motivation to do anything.

You just can’t.

Solution:

Use your miserableness as a motivation. You want to get rid of it, right? Then you must do what helps. Here’s a few tricks. 

1. Drink water. Perhaps your dehydrated.

2. Exercise. This one is really helpful on more than your emotions. Do this before considering taking a nap, because naps can make it worse.

3. Go to bed earlier. If your like me than your nocturnal but if you simply go to bed at 10 then you will feel much better in the morning. I suggest reading or doing something other than look at a screen before going to bed. Screens can make it troublesome to fall asleep.

4. Socializing. You may be awkward but at least you have a mother? A father? Grandparents? A best friend? Siblings? Random people online? Anyone who can distract you, and make you feel better. It doesn’t necessarily need to be a pleasant conversation, just one that won’t bring you down. Socializing can make you feel so much better.

5. Get a horrible beta reader. (this is a joke…kind of) A beta reader is a person who reads your book or a chapter and gives feedback. A good beta reader is honest and gives praise and criticism. This is what I meant for a bad beta reader. Someone who you trust who will probably be scared to hurt your feelings. Even though it might not be true, positive feedback will help. 

That is all I have! I hoped you enjoyed! Have a Fantastic day! I will be posting again soon!


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1 year ago

Not only do I think Dean’s autistic, but I think his autism masked his queerness.

I think Dean is a highly masking autistic who very early on learned to adapt his behavior to whatever would keep him safe or get a (hunting) job done.

And when his dad displayed disapproval of his bisexuality or feminine quirks? That was just another thing to mask and he was already good at it.

And this macho man womanizer? It’s his most useful autistic mask. It’s a role he’s practiced the most.

I also think that masking is why Dean is so good at hustling (that and maybe doing the micro expression overcompensating autistic thing).

6 months ago
Apollo Will Fall. But Apollo Must Rise Again.

Apollo will fall. But Apollo must rise again.

2 months ago

One of my favorite scenes from season 1

Gi-hun! Do You Know Why Your Life Is So Pathetic? Because You Ask The Dumbest Questions Even In This
Gi-hun! Do You Know Why Your Life Is So Pathetic? Because You Ask The Dumbest Questions Even In This
Gi-hun! Do You Know Why Your Life Is So Pathetic? Because You Ask The Dumbest Questions Even In This
Gi-hun! Do You Know Why Your Life Is So Pathetic? Because You Ask The Dumbest Questions Even In This
Gi-hun! Do You Know Why Your Life Is So Pathetic? Because You Ask The Dumbest Questions Even In This
Gi-hun! Do You Know Why Your Life Is So Pathetic? Because You Ask The Dumbest Questions Even In This
Gi-hun! Do You Know Why Your Life Is So Pathetic? Because You Ask The Dumbest Questions Even In This

Gi-hun! Do you know why your life is so pathetic? Because you ask the dumbest questions even in this situation. Constantly minding other people's business with that pea brain of yours, not knowing your ass from your elbow.


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it’s like sang-woo takes his self hatred and pushes it onto gi-hun like he’s aware that he’s ALSO there but he’s giving gi-hun shit for it. for being an idiot and getting himself stuck there because when he’s forced to consider whether he’d go as far as pushing gi-hun he can’t figure out the answer he does still care about him but he knows gi-hun has to die if he’s going to win they all would’ve died if gi-hun was in front and refused to move but would sang-woo resort to killing him himself? or would he convince gi-hun to take that 50/50 chance into his own hands? he doesn’t know and he’s upset at gi-hun for even being there in the first place and he’s upset at himself for falling this far so he lashes out at him when gi-hun asks a real question like that the words aren’t truly out of hatred for HIM but gi-hun still takes it then he takes the respect and pride he’s been holding for sang-woo and turns it against him gi-hun says what sang-woo is feeling out loud everytime gi-hun’s praised him the whole time this is exactly how sang-woo felt. if he was a success story then why was he here? it’s shocking to him hearing gi-hun say his own thoughts like this. gi-hun of all people. the one who was so very proud of him but he’s right and sang-woo wants to keep projecting his shame onto him instead of accepting his wrongdoings shame haunts him in a way it doesn’t haunt gi-hun (at least not yet) and he can’t stand that gi-hun’s still thinking with his heart. that he cares about him killing a man who would’ve gotten them all killed because gi-hun’s too good deep down and sang-woo is nothing like that gi-hun is there because he isn’t cold and logical like sang-woo. but then why is sang-woo there? what makes them so different if they’re both here? sang-woo can’t even respond. can’t lash out again because what does he even say? how could he possibly deflect a truth like that? gi-hun openly admits his faults. admits why he’s there. and sang-woo just can’t do the same also they should kiss it out sorry yapped about nothing there idk if anything i said even makes sense but idgaf
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