Hello!

Y’know, I had this weird plan to separate myself from everyone. I figured if I just left and didn’t look back, then I could just stay by myself and nobody would bother me.

The plan was super simple. Just stop going to school, don’t make unnecessary contact online, and tell everyone when you see them that your doing fine by yourself. Tell them you prefer being by yourself, and they’ll leave you alone.

It worked.

The plan worked perfectly and, for the most part, I’m alone again.

I’m alone again.

Nobody really cares about me or my life. about the things that I like or dislike. Sometimes they say they do but I don’t really believe them. I have no reason to. It’s not like they’ve given me one. They’re always lying about themselves anyways. Hiding things from me, only to say them when they think I’ve left the room. That’s fine. I get that. The need to vent about your feelings is understandable and I’m not a very nice person to begin with, so I get why people don;t like me.

I wish that they did though.

I don’t like being alone.

I say that I do, but that’s not really true.

I just don’t like being scared and that’s all I ever seem to feel when I’m around people. I’m scared that I’ll mess up somehow and they’ll hate me like so many others already do.

(they all left me)

I hate that.

I hate that part of me that everyone seems to despise.

(all of me they hate all of me and so do i because i should)

That part of me relishes in those terrible feelings, in being feared and looked at with disgusted eyes. That part of me thinks it’s hilarious how much these feelings affect the rest of me.

“It’s fine.” She says with her sickening smiles and empty eyes.

(terrifying monster makes me sick want to vomit)

“It’s not.” I mutter because I’m too tired to say it louder.

(so tired just want sleep stop it let it stop please)

It’s always been like this and that’s not fine but it also is.

(its not it never was)

Because I’m worthless and that’s just how it is has been and always will be.

(it hurts)

That’s fine.

(its not)

I’m not though.

(im not)

...

The plan worked.

(it hurts)

I’m alone again.

(i didnt want it)

I’m not as happy about that as I thought I’d be.

(i wasnt happy to begin with)

(we never were)

Just a cat drinking water. And getting very close to the camera... And shouting at me.

My drawings in progress always look weirdly creepy...

Just press play.

Decided to finally watch “Kiss Him, Not Me” today

So...

This:

And this:

Fucking murdered me.

I instantly screamed and oozed out of my desk chair and onto the floor to hyperventilate for just a bit. Holy hell! I was genuinely not expecting any of that. My heart has exploded and I have no regrets but, damn it, I need a minute to just calm down after that.

Oh my god...

Every time I look up and see him in that second picture I die just a little bit.

This is my favorite episode, by far.

Second favorite, however is the fourth one because of...

This!

And Fucking!

THIS!

RIGHT HERE!

*inarticulate screaming*

WHY CAN’T THIS JUST BECOME YURI! I WANT MORE YURI, DAMN IT!!!! FUCK THE HETERO PAIRINGS! JUST MAKE IT GAY!!!!!!

*cries*

*sighs*

I suppose the other pairings aren’t too bad though...

Mutsumi is my favorite.

He is the sweetest little cinnamon roll! He loves her without question and he just genuinely enjoys spending time with everyone! It’s so adorable! He never has a hidden motive like the others and I’m constantly worried that he’ll suddenly get one later on but he never does and it’s literally the best thing ever! I just want to give him a hug for the rest of my life!

*screams*

It depends on the individual.

For some it’s making jokes, either with or without specific romantic or sexual connotations.

For others it’s an extra amount of attention paid to an individual by way of seeking them out for activities and companionship or trying to have conversation with them whenever they can.

Some people are outright and will drop very obvious hints, sometimes literally saying that they would love to date the other or be romantically or sexually involved with them.

Other people are unable or unwilling to show their flirtations and will do small things like being a little kinder in conversations or giving little gifts and a little bit of extra attention to them.

And for a few people, such as myself and my partner, flirting can be seen as simply being more comfortable with another person and projecting this comfort to this person as a way of saying that they make you happy and you want to be around them more.

So, yeah.

Flirting is a little difficult to get properly written, since there’s so much variety involved.

But, I recommend just considering the character you’re writing about and how their love itself kind of manifests itself.

Is it intense and unabashed and obvious?

Is it quiet and nervous and hidden?

Is it settled and comfortable and warm?

Consider this and match it to fitting actions.

It’s all about capturing the personality of the individual.

Sorry, I rambled.

Hope this helps or something.

I cant write flirting, how to people flirt, WHAT EVEN IS FLIRTING

He poses, even in really weird situations.

It’s true tho. It’s been like three weeks. There’s an alligator now living in my flooded backyard and I’m pretty sure my neighbors who actually leave the house have become semi-aquatic.

Coming This Summer! 🌊

I have an alternative.

Instead of just telling Natsume to pretend he’s being chased, Sensei actually chased him. Or sends the dogs circle after him.

imagine there being a culture festival at natsume’s school and he gets signed up to do the baton race by nishimura because he has seen natsume run, he knows that boy will help the class win. natsume is kinda mad but then he starts worrying about not being able to pull through for his friends. he worries for weeks, and the day before the culture festival, nyanko is finally like “just pretend you’re being chased by an ayakashi and you’ll be fine.”

as it turns out, that works. way better than nyanko expected. not only does natsume help his team win, he beats the track team star’s record. the track team does not stop bothering him. for weeks.

I made my jewelry box adorable.