He Poses, Even In Really Weird Situations.

In third grade I had a teacher who really hated my parents. I don’t know why she felt this way but she did. So she used to take out her hatred of them on me during class.

Now, I was a very outgoing and happy kid back then. I liked performing on stage and talking to people and doing my best with everything, including school work. So I always tried to be really nice to my teachers, bringing them gifts on holidays, offering to help in the classroom, giving them hugs whenever I came to or left class. I saw them as people to respect and appreciate, because that’s what I felt they deserved. And that was fine in the past but it kind of just made things worse during that year.

I did everything I’d always done but it was never rewarded. Instead, I was constantly being yelled at and singled out. I was never allowed to talk for any reason, even if I just answered a question she would say that I was talking too much or too loud but she would also accuse me of ignoring the lesson and being bad whenever I just remained silent. Even outside of the classroom I wasn’t allowed to talk.

I vividly remember one day when we were all having a bathroom break, I went into the bathroom and realized that there were no more napkins. So I told one of the other girls, because I was too afraid to tell the teacher, but the teacher still heard me from outside of the bathroom and came in to shout at me for talking during the break. She didn’t care why I was talking, she just didn’t want me to talk.

She never treated the other kids like this. She only ever yelled at me for my “bad” behavior.

Eventually, I started trying to find ways to avoid her and school all together. The solution I used the most was to make myself physically sick or injured so that I could go to the nurses office. I used to hurt myself whenever no one was looking so that I could say I’d bruised myself or I’d make myself not eat anything or eat bad things so that I had a stomach ache. I eventually learned how to force my mind into believing that I was sick. I even figured out how to make my stomach churn so that I could throw up on purpose.

I was just so scared of staying in school with that teacher that I was willing to do anything to get out of there. Unfortunately, this meant I got in trouble for truancy. So me and my mom had to go and talk to the vice principal.

I don’t remember everything from that meeting, but I do remember her leaning over her desk, looking me straight in the eye, and saying “You don’t want your mommy to get arrested because of you, do you?”.

And it was honestly one of the most horrifying things I have ever experienced in my life.

I mean, I was a child. I was seven.

And this woman just straight up told me my mom was gonna get arrested because of me.

I was terrified.

My dad was living in Virginia at the time, since he was still in the navy back then, and my sisters were still teenagers so my mom was all I had. She supported us and took care of us and now she was gonna be arrested and it was all my fault.

I immediately started crying.

But my mom, who knew better and was already upset about me being in the meeting in the first place, left in an outrage. She spoke to some other school employees about what had happened and filed various complaints and things and then she took me back home.

I don’t remember most of that year past a few of the more distressing events and a lot of memories of sitting in the nurses office. But I know that, after that year, the vice principal was fired and the teacher became a teachers assistant and was no longer allowed to teach classes by herself anymore.

But, unfortunately, the damage had already been done to me. I was no longer an outgoing and happy kid. I was terrified of talking after that. This ended up extending to me being terrified of interacting with people at all and, eventually, a fear of leaving my house.

By the time I entered middle school, I had no friends and had no idea how to interact with people past ignoring them or just being polite to them. My fear of everything led to me being bullied which led to everyone being scared of me when I fought back. I ended up failing a lot of classes, despite knowing and understanding all of the material, because I was too scared to talk to the teachers and I was just so tired of school at that point, and always feeling instinctively unwell, that I usually just took naps or read books during class.

Despite that, I worked hard to improve on myself and fix what I knew to be wrong. I entered spelling bees, I auditioned for talent shows, I won science fairs, I got awards for reading the most books, I got into marching band, I made some friends, and I got into anime. I did a lot in middle school in the hopes of making myself better as a person.

But when i got into high school, the transition kind of made me regress.

I lost all of my friends again, since I wasn’t interested in sex and dating while all of my other friends were, and I was placed into all advanced courses alongside my extra curricular activities. The stress quickly got to me and I ended up slacking on my classes and eventually dropping my extra curricular. All of the drama from the few friends I still had made me lose them as well. And everyone was still scared of me from middle school.

But, thankfully, I had a single saving grace.

Or really, two saving graces.

I joined choir that year and it was one of the best things that could have possibly happened to me. The choir instructor was an amazing woman who told me early on that I had a good voice that would only get better if I was brave enough to use it properly. She taught me all about singing, everything from reading music to properly projecting my voice. She gave me special attention and told me she was proud when I got into the talent show that year. And when I performed in the talent show(after spending almost ten full years auditioning for shows and never getting in)I made almost everyone in the audience cry.

It all did wonders for my self-esteem. I felt more like myself that year than I had in so very long.

Alongside my choir instructor was my creative writing teacher.

He was actually known throughout the school as the craziest and most troublesome teacher. He didn’t pull his punches and was brutally honest with all of his students. He was ex-military and it was pretty easy to tell, not from his appearance and maybe not even from his attitude to most, but to me it was obvious because he acted just like my dad. He was crazy and kind of rude but he was always looking out for his students and trying to help us learn in whatever way we could. I only had him for creative writing that year but it had a huge impact on me. He didn’t know why I acted the way I did but he always tried to find ways to make me talk. He’d ask me questions, he’d randomly move things away from my desk, he’d ask to talk about my writing, or he’d seat me next to people he thought I would talk to.

But he never really pushed me.

We were all supposed to read our work out loud, that was part of the class. But he always asked me if I was willing to do it. He never said that I had to and always gave me a choice. I think I only ever did it once or twice but he always made sure I knew how happy he was for me to talk. He encouraged my writing as well, always telling me how I could improve and what I was already doing well. And always trying to remind me that I was the only one who could limit myself.

That first year of high school had a huge impact on my life.

My second year was less useful.

I ended up having a scheduling conflict that kept me from entering choir and I didn’t have any classes with my old creative writing teacher.

But I ran into him sometimes.

And he always recognized me and usually said hi and checked in on how I was doing and ruffled my hair and called me random nicknames.

And the next year I got back into choir.

We had a new instructor but she was also pretty nice. She liked my voice as well and tried to encourage me to the best of her ability.

And my creative writing teacher found me again and invited me to join a new after school club he was going to be in charge of.

So I entered the creative writing club and got back into choir.

I’d also managed to gain a pretty solid friend group by then.

I was a lot more talkative than before and way more honest with myself and other people. I still had a bad habit of hurting myself, which escalated a little that year, and sleeping through classes. But I was slowly getting better than before.

I ended up becoming a regular in detention that year because of being late to most of my classes.

It was a very conflicting year.

But my senior year brought it all to an end.

I ended up becoming the go-to soloist in my choir. I was in every choir class I was allowed to be in and I had an English class with my old creative writing teacher teaching it.

I was still in the creative writing club and I’d started going out of my comfort zone by hosting panels at conventions.

That year was probably one of the best years of school I’ve ever experienced.

I even got to see my old choir instructor again.

She even invited me to join the choir at the university she was now teaching at. I’m still planning on taking her up on that offer in a year or two, even though it’s been years and she probably doesn’t even remember me.

After that I graduated and went to college for a year before dropping out.

And I’ve been working hard since then to focus on myself. To repair the damage done by that teacher so long ago and make myself a better person.

I’m a small time voice actor now and also a small time writer.

I work hard to improve myself and work towards living my dreams with the help of my family.

I’ve accepted all aspects of myself, my depression, my anxiety, my sexuality, and my gender identity.

It took me years to get over what that woman did to me.

So I want to just say this, after this long ass rant that I’m sure nobody bothered to read, emotional abuse is not a joke.

It is not something to take lightly.

Just because you weren’t phyisically hurt by someone doesn’t mean you weren’t hurt at all.

It doesn’t make it any more or less traumatic.

And teachers are not supposed to use methods like that to teach kids.

That is wrong and fucked up and not at all what helps kids learn and develop into functioning members of society.

This doesn’t mean all teachers are bad and like that.

Some of them are amazing and can help kids grow into amazing individuals.

But those teachers that hate their job and treat kids like that are monsters.

If you are tasked with the job of helping kids grow up and learn and develop then you should work hard to do your job right instead of just taking out your own issues on kids that don’t deserve that kind of treatment.

Fuck my third grade teacher and fuck all those other teachers for being terrible human beings.

I hope all those kids look back on their emotional abuse one day and think about how much better they are now that they’re away from those terrible people.

Someone Should Talk To This Principal

She ended up ignoring me...

My answers in order:

Martyn & Friends - Episode 1 “Can Cows Swim?”

About five or six years ago and I was around 14

I watched it on my computer in my bedroom

Martyn

I thought they were hilarious and nerdy and I loved them pretty much instantly

I actually found out about Martyn from a pewdiepie video, “Damned w/ InTheLittleWood (2 WIMPS, ONE GAME) Part 1”, and eventually found out about the rest of the yogscast from him

My favorite was Martyn by default since I found him first. My current favorite is Lewis tho.

You probably already know because of my last answer but my answer is that I’m a Yognaut.

Not really. I can’t think of anyone, at least.

Of course. They’re awesome people and they’ve grown so much over the years as performers and people. If there’s anyone I’d take inspiration from it would be them.

Honestly, Lewis’ grey streak is great. I think it suits him well. But, seriously, I think they’ve only gotten better over time. They’ve always been great, in my opinion, but they’re even better now. Everything seems a lot more natural to them now and I love it.

I watch more for their personalities than the games.(Cus they’re not always great at playing them...)I personally love watching the Minecraft series’. Though I’m usually quite partial to any sort of survival/sandbox games like The Raft, The Forest, or Colony Survival.

I think I joined tumblr about a year or two after I started watching the Yogscast but I didn’t really talk about anything on my account until recently.

This is a tough question. I love most of their songs but I think my top three are probably MoonQuest(Cus it’s a classic and catchy bop.), Honeydewyeahyeah(Cus it’s hilarious and I love singing it.), and Diggy Diggy Hole(Cus it’s Epic AF.).

I have. It’s been a while tho.

I have! And I enjoyed both very much!

Not really. I jumped once or twice, I think. But I watch a lot of horror stuff so it doesn’t usually bother me.

I always watch the Christmas livestreams. I try to do it live when I can but I usually just end up watching it later.(Jingle Cats and Open TTD with Lewis, Duncan, and Sjin are my favorite streams out of the bunch.)

I haven’t in a while but I actually used to have all of the episodes on my ipod and I’d listen to it while I was at school. I honestly really enjoyed the podcast and I think I should get back to it at some point. I’d probably like it more now than I did back then.

I have not. I don’t really like fish so I probably won’t bother unless I decide to be nice for once and make it for my family or something.

I have. Sometimes I’ll leave a livestream recording playing while I take a nap. I usually end up having to rewatch the entire thing later.

At my desk. Sometimes, if it’s a stream or a game where they all end up just talking about random stuff for a while(Like Colony Survival), I’ll play something like Minecraft in the background to keep myself busy while the video plays.

SOI was actually the second thing I watched from the main channel. I think I watched the survival games first after seeing Martyn in them. I really enjoyed the series and I’d be happy to see it revived. But I’m also pretty content with it being over. I’m happy with either, really.

Of course I’ve watched trucking tuesday. I was delighted to see them bring it back for the anniversary.

I think I may have been watching the tekkit series as it was coming out. I loved it, as I always loved the main channel’s minecraft series’. My fave faction(Tho I’ll admit I didn’t really pay much attention to that.)was the Jaffa Factory crew.

I also watched Voltz and when the Bomb happened I was hysterical with laughter. It was hilarious and I loved it. Def one of the best moments in Yogs history, hands down.

This is a surprisingly difficult question to answer. So I’m just gonna list a few. Captive Minecraft(from the main channel)(Cus it’s hilarious and I can never not say YELLOW STAINED CLAY without shouting in a deep voice now.), Jaffa Factory(It’s hilarious and I loved watching them through out it.), Hole Diggers(There were some cool and crazy moments I loved.), Druidz(Sjin and Lewis are fun to watch and I liked seeing them mess around with the mods in this one), Yoglabs(Classic and both hilarious and interesting. Lots of fandom fodder.), SOI(It’s the greatest classic.), Hat Films FTB(First I watched of them and it was tons of fun.), Dirt Quest(Hilarious. Nuff said.), Sjin’s Farm(every iteration including Rule the World and Feed the World)(I enjoy watching Sjin putter about in the game and I love watching him build things in minecraft. I’m just particularly fond of his series builds more than his actual building videos.), Duncan’s Skyblocks(It was funny and pretty chill.) and Hardcore Skyblock(Hilarious and fun to watch while also playing agrarian skies.), Duncan’s Hexxit(Loved it. Peaceful and fun. Had a great time.), pretty much all of the adventure and puzzle maps from the main channel(Cus Simon and Lewis are great and some of those maps are ridiculous.), Martyn’s Christmas ADVENTure’s(Fun and cute and sometimes wholesome. Toby is a cinnabun and Martyn is even more ridiculous in the company of others.), and Kingdom of the Saplings(which was my first favorite)(It was cool and fun and especially great when I was just getting into both Minecraft, Youtube, and the Yogscast.).(This is making me want to marathon through all my old favorites now.)

I have many favorite moments. When the tires fell from the sky on trucking tuesday, the first instance of the new Harpoooooooon Randomat in TTT, and the GTA V Glassinator bit where Sjin drives up in a dump truck. I really liked Tom’s Sylvio 2 series and Colony Survival is pretty great.

Lewis and Simon. Hands down.

Honeydew inc. all the way.

Flux buddies.

I love them. In every form, iteration, and reference. The BEES are my favorite. Just in general.

Generally any of the pigs Simon adopted during any series.

Professor Griswald

The Oil scene from Moonquest or Simon trying to create Santa in the Jaffa Factory.

In Yoglabs when Simon takes the place of the original clone in the cloning machine and Lewis leaves him.

I legitimately cannot think of one. I guess some of the singleplayer playthroughs on some peoples channels? I don’t really watch those ones as much.

I would love to have more merch but I do at least have a Project Ozone Poster.

Well, of course. They’re the ones who really made me want to play minecraft. And, despite it being such a small series on the main channel, Fallout 4 as well.

Most things that Lewis says and the BEES meme. Also, YELLOW STAINED CLAY.

Lewis’ halloween bee costume and pretty much all of the costumes from the Yogsquest series’.

I do watch them regularly today. I have been since I started watching in the beginning. Right now I’m really enjoying Duncan’s The Raft series, I’m excited for the next episode. Also Sjin’s All The Mods series seems fun so far, and the main channel’s TTT series is always one of my favorites.

Well, that was long and took a while to do.

But I really enjoyed it.

I’m glad you made this.

Thank you for putting this out for people to see and do.

It was a nice reminder of all the time I’ve spent watching the Yogscast and just how much I really enjoy them.

And I was serious about marathoning through some of my old favorites again.

That is a thing that is going to happen now and I am actually kind of excited about it.

So, thanks again!

This was fun!

yogscast 10th anniversary ask meme

🏠: what was the first yogscast video you watched?

👶: what year did you watch your first yogscast video, and how old were you then?

🖥: what was the device that you watched your first yogscast video on, and do you remember where you were?(e.g.: tablet, laptop, school, home)

👥: who was/were the first yogscast member(s) you watched?

💭: what was your first impression of the yogscast?

👂: how did you find out about the yogscast? did you find them randomly?

😘: who was your favorite yogscast member when you started watching? who is your favorite yogscast member now?

😏: are you a yognaught or a yognaut? (“yognaught” = a fan who prefers simon, “yognaut” = a fan who prefers lewis)

😡: is there a yogscast member you “hate to love,” and/or one that you “love to hate”?

😯: are you inspired by the yogscast?

👴: do you think that the yogscast has aged well? (i meant this about the humor in the videos, but you could comment on lewis’s grey streak as well)

🕹: do you watch for the games or for the yogscast members’ personalities? which are your favorite games that the yogscast have played?

🔵: when did you join tumblr? were you involved in the yogscast fandom right away or later?

🎶: what is your favorite song by the yogscast?

🔺: have you listened to area 11?

🎃: have you watched creepy o’ clock or fright night?

👻: has there ever been a scary moment in a game or playthrough that genuinely scared you?

🎄: do you watch the christmas livestream specials? do you try to watch live or watch it later on yogslive?

🎙: have you listened to the YoGPoD? did you like it?

👩‍🍳: (if answered yes to the previous question): as per hannah’s instructions, have you tried to make thai fish in a bag?

💤: have you ever fallen asleep while watching a yogscast video?

🛌: what is your favorite thing to do or place to be while watching (a) yogscast video(s)?

💀: have you watched shadow of israphel? did you like it? do you want shadow of israphel to come back?

🚚: have you watched trucking tuesday?

🏭: have you watched tekkit? what did you think of it? who was your favorite faction?

💥: have you watched voltz? what was your initial reaction to the bomb?

💗: what is your favorite minecraft series or playthrough and why?

❇️: favorite non-minecraft series/moment?

👯‍♀️: who is your favorite “classic” duo or squad in the yogscast? (e.g.: the flux buddies, sipsco)

👺: honeydew inc or sipsco?

👾: flux buddies or flux baddies?

🐝: what do you think of the BEES?

🐔: favorite pet/animal from any minecraft series?

🤖: favorite NPC from any minecraft series?

🤣: funniest moment in any series?

😭: saddest moment in any series?

❌: what is your least favorite series and why?

™️: do you own any yogscast merchandise? (if so, which pieces? if not, would you ever want to buy merchandise and why/why not, what pieces would you want, etc.)

😋: did the yogscast get you into any other interests or fandoms? (e.g. hannah’s playthrough of far cry 4 made you go and play the game yourself)

🧠: favorite yogscast saying or meme, could be a citation needed brindley quote or a famous sipsism

👗: favorite costume that a yogscast member has dressed up in

❗️: do you still watch the yogscast regularly today? if so, what is your favorite series right now?

My drawings in progress always look weirdly creepy...

He loves his chair, a little too much... (at Florida State College At Jacksonville Centers)

I am excite.

Reblog if you want a terrible, 3 sentence fan fiction in your ask, based on your url

Five hours of work to make a hand and now I’m too scared of messing it up to try and make it the appropriate size...

*is pouting*

What the hell, Funimation...

I was in the middle of watching “Handa-Kun” and you just went and crushed my dreams like the assholes you are. How rude, deciding to do scheduled maintenance in the middle of my binging.  

I even decided to start watching your shit yesterday and this is how you repay me. With buffering, glitches, and maintenance induced shut downs. Damn it...

Well, at least I finished watching “Servamp” beforehand. I would have been incredibly annoyed if I had been forced to take a break in the middle of that. I would have to put in the effort to find the anime elsewhere as quickly as possible. And, given how apathetic I am by nature, that would have been a pain in the ass. Too much effort.

Y’know, I really felt connected to Kuro and his laziness in Servamp. I pretty much agreed every time he said things were too much trouble. Personally, I would very much prefer to just laze around doing fuck all instead of going out and trying to help people. Then again, I don’t have the same reasoning as Kuro does when it comes to a lot of his apathy so, I suppose, I can’t really talk.

Whatever...

*sighs*

God damnit, Funimation. Finish your fucking maintenance already!

A couple of Once-lers waiting in line with us. (at Morroco Shrine)

He’s the best part of The Fifth Element.