Latin Phrases I Wish To Remember:

If only I had the balls to actually end it all

this is one of my shitty art works from today :( anyways i’m feeling like i totally forget how to draw and it drives me crazy which not good and i’m tying out this new style or maybe even technic to draw when you do it by layering, which i already used when i was drawing not digitally which acril but rn in digital art i feel like i totally suck at this stuff and i just really want to learn to do it better. so for now i have goals and this whole quarantine took my motivation and power and i just want to be finally free and wish it is going to be soon because i’m literally dying which is not good yk yk

Astro 101

Lesson IV, Part 1, Post XXV

Planets in Houses

First House

Sun in First will give you vitality, leaderships skills, and a need to Express yourself.

Moon in First has a need to be appreciated they are intuitive and emotional.

Mercury in First has a thirst for knowledge and a need to discuss personal interests. They see everything from a logical stand point.

Venus in First tend to well liked. The have a taste for the finer things in life like beauty and art.

Mars in First have boundless energy and a need to take charge and assert oneself.

Jupiter in First tend to be elaborate and optimistic foreigne sites and topics interest them.

Saturn in First tend to be serious individuals with a quiet drive to successes. They likely have struggled with self esteem some point in their life.

Uranus in First have a need to Express there originality. They often experiences both positive and negative drastic changes.

Neptune in First have a mysterious allure. They tend to be in snyc with everything and every one around them. They can get carried anyway by their beliefs and have trouble with reality.

Pluto in First tend to go through periods of reinventing themselves.

Second House

Sun in Second is someone who is very concerned with their personal value and material world.

Moon in Second is someone who’s security is very important to them. The need to be comforted by shelter, food, and clothing.

Mercury in Second has an enterprising mind.

Venus in Second is attracted to symbols of success and partners who can provide for them.

Mars in Second are very ambitious, even if it means taking their time to get what they want.

Jupiter in Second tend to be very fortunate with high esteem.

Saturn in Second may work hard and achieve little. Success is delayed.

Uranus in Second tends to fluctuate in their values and possession.

Neptune in Second can inhance financial wealth and popularity or hinder it.

Pluto in Second can transform wealth and esteem positively or negatively. Greed can work against you.

Third House

Sun in Third House has a thirst for knowledge and communication. You have favorable relations with your relatives and community.

Moon in Third House allows their emotions to affect their mental focus and conversation. Intuition and memory are favored.

Mercury in Third House tend to be very quick minded with many intellectual and diverse interests. Travel may be common.

Venus in Third House are readers and communicators. There is favorable relations with relatives and community.

Mars in Third House are aggressive talkers that can lead to relatives and community disputes.

Jupiter in Third House has a taste for culture and travel. They absorb knowledge easily.

Saturn in Third House may struggle being heard. School or speech or socialization may have hit road blocks when young. You may have some responsibility to certain relatives and neighbors.

Uranus in Third House jumps from one focus to another. They absorb knowledge through random experience. Travel is often indicated.

Neptune in Third House has a visionary mind and memory. Some struggle communicating their vision. There is a wedge between xertain relatives and neighbors. Usually spiritual and intuitive.

Pluto in Third House is capable of transforming their environment often just my speaking their minds.

fourth House

Sun in Fourth House are very focused on their domestic lives. Their family, their home, and where they come from. They yearn to learn about themselves.

Moon in Fourth House has a deep emotion tie to their parent(s). They are often nostalgic for their childhood. Frequent change in residence is likely.

Mercury in Fourth House feels at home with intellectual pursuits. Healthy discussion was common in childhood. Frequency change in residence is likely.

Venus in Fourth House have close ties to their family and home. You abstain financial gain through family or property.

Mars in Fourth House learn independence early in childhood. Upbringing was energetic and in some cases hostile. You may have been put in a position where you were always competing or butting heads with another family member.

Jupiter in Fourth House thrive at home. Their childhood was happy and memorable. There may have been many family trips or spiritual involvement.

Saturn in Fourth House likely had too much responsibility and restriction growing up. They may of had to care for a I’ll parent or younger children. Discipline may have been harsh. Having children of their own may come late in life.

Uranus in Fourth House struggle for stability. Stability may have been hard to achieve in childhood. Home life was unusual and may of been lacking a foundation all together. This pattern may follow you into adulthood.

Neptune in Fourth House indicates a struggle to see things how they really are when growing up. You may have been sheltered from financial hardship, domestic violance, or societal upheaval. Intuition or prophetic dreams are possible.

Pluto in Fourth House indicates a need to transform the domestic experience. Upbringing may have been traumatic.

Fifth House

Sun in Fifth House requires pleasurable pursuits. Friendships, romance, hobbies, interests and arts take up a lot of your energy. Children likely bring you good fortune.

Moon in Fifth House enhances your creativity and bond with others. There is a deep need to Express your talent with others. Children is likely.

Mercury in Fifth House seek a intellectually stimulating bond. One where you can gush over common interests. Theater or script writing might be of interest.

Venus in Fifth House is happy sharing their love and joy with others. Children are often treasured and may possess a creative talent.

Mars in Fifth House need to expel energy in a relaxed setting such as a gym. Romances can be short lived.

Jupiter in Fifth House has a healthy relationship with art, romance, and children.

Saturn in Fifth House may have had to deal with too much responsibility imposed on them. The can have difficulties relaxing and expressing themselves. Child rearing may be delayed or encounter road blocks.

Uranus in Fifth House have unconventional relationships and hobbies. Your patently style is likely very progressive and modern.

Neptune in Fifth House is likely very intune with children of their generation with a deep understanding of their needs and wants. Creative gifts may be present.

Pluto in Fifth House may release some transformative art that reaches its entire generation.

Sixth House

Sun in Sixth House are hard workers that provide a service to their community at large. Often intune with our physical bodies and the impact of eastern and western medicine.

Moon in Sixth House will notice a direct relationship to their emotional state to their physical health and work performance. Their weight may fluctuate. Interaction with animals will bring you luck.

Mercury in Sixth House is mentally agile in the work setting. Work keeps you occupied from going astray. You are mentally thorough but must make sure your thoughts are going to good use. Excess stress can cause physical anomalies.

Venus in Sixth House is likely to be healthy and establish positive relationships in the work setting. One might meet their romantic partner at work.

Mars in Sixth House tend to be very physically active and require an exercise driven outlet. They are very ambitious but can stir up trouble in the work force.

Jupiter in Sixth House are usually are very healthy, though should watch their diet. There may be a interest in helping aid in underdeveloped countries.

Saturn in Sixth House may suffer a weak immune system and have to watch their health carefully or the may need to learn to establish a good work ethic.

Uranus in Sixth House goes through sporadic changes to their physical bodies and job titles. Extreme sports may be of interest.

Neptune in Sixth House maybe have weakened immune systems. They are better suited to jobs with loose guidelines and allow for creative reign.

Pluto in Sixth House your work can be transformative to its generation and to yourself. Your impact may be positive or negative, but, powerful whatever it is.

*stay tuned for house seven through twelfth!*

My kind of academia aesthetic

Listening to Chopin, Beethoven, Mahler, Debussy and Ravel and closing my eyes when the best part comes on

Going insane when the author I'm studying does something great-incredible-admirable as I start to fall in love with him/her

Thanking artists for sharing their art and assuring them silently that their message arrived

Trying ballet steps whenever I come across a mirror + the sound of pointe shoes, theatre's particular smell, tearing up after curtain calls, reharsing pantomime in an empty studio

Heart clenching all the time when a piece of art just strikes me good

Feeling spiritually connected and dreaming to have a chat with Virginia Woolf, maybe while drinking some tea

Knowing Opera arias by heart and humming the melody while busy doing something

Also, being super excited when it's almost theatre time! Like soooo excited! Can't wait!

Studying in an ancient benedictine monastery in Sicily and exploring every inch of it, walking a lot randomly and finding new pretty and quiet places to stay in

Looking up during a boring class and contemplating old frescoes on the ceiling

Tying ribbons in my hair

Ranting angrily about Lancelot in "Le chevalier de la charrete" to my best friend who absolutely had no idea about what was going on

Randomly telling my brother things I learned and him asking for more because I usually make him laugh a lot

Bragging about how much I love every subject I study and absolutely not regretting my choice

Smiling while reading because that passage was sooooo smart-written

FEMINIST. APPROACHES. AND. WARRIOR. WOMEN. IN. LITERATURE.

Taking pictures of the sky everywhere because I always look at it as the ultimate source of beauty

Intense philosophy lessons during summer, held by my father who studies philosophy just because he loves it, and exchanging facts about it during the day

Writing frantically my book's next chapter on the bus during my way home because I were daydreaming so hard about it before (+ my friend telling me it's as good as poetry)

Saving all the exhibition tickets I have been to

Being humble and ambitious at the same time

Telling everyone i'm studying humanities because the worlds needs to change and them not understanding how the two things are linked

here’s a list of my favourite playlists that i listen to when studying. only one playlist has lyrics so if you find that distracting you can skip it!

1 am study session - lofi hip hop/chill beats (1 hour)

a rainy town - animal crossing ost + thunderstorm ambiance (1 hour)

breath of the wild relaxing music with rain (1 hour)

lofi hip hop radio - beats to relax/study to (live radio)

relaxing life is strange music (1 hour) *has lyrics

relaxing music from uncharted series (45 mins)

skyrim music & ambiance - night (1 hour)

skyrim music & ambiance - rainy day (10 hours)

studio ghibli summer night piano collection with nature sounds (7 hours)

the last of us - relaxing music compilation (30 mins)

the legend of zelda - calming & relaxing music compilation (1 hour)

the witcher 3 - peaceful music & nature ambiance (1 hour)

the witcher 3 toussaint - relaxing music for sleep and study (1 hour)

uncharted - ambient music & ambience (1 hour)

all playlists

people do be fucking talented out there

art by inst: @flat.white_

Academia Friendship Clique

The Leader: lavender, honey, strawberries and cream, milk tea. The light academia friend, always smells of flora. white, gold, neutrals. Natural makeup. Neatly ironed clothing. Probably has a white/beige/brown cat with its own bell collar.  The Bodyguard: roses, chocolate, grapes, energy drinks. Punk academia variant, sometimes smells of an elegant musk. Black, silver, grey. Dark makeup, red lips. Shirt untucked, uneven socks, unkempt hair. Carries a pack of cigarettes, will play classical music with electric instruments. Dog lover. Will fight if provoked. Flips off professors. The Supporter: sunflowers, raspberries, water from the mountains. The cottagecore friend. Smells of sandalwood, gold, green, beige. Unkempt hair wrapped in flowers she grew in her room. Summer evenings with a little breeze, violin player. Loves to bake for her friends. Is baby. The Quiet One: peonies, chocolates and caramel, black coffee. Dark academia, thought to be the leader’s twin but in black. thoughtful and mysterious, won’t speak more than a few sentences at a time. Black, blue, silver, brown. Almost like the baby sister of the group, adored feverishly. Daydreams a lot. Will tell you Allan Poe is her great uncle. Straight A student. The Fashionista: hibiscus, vanilla and berries, light academia’s childhood friend. The one you go to for fashion advice, fur coats, leather boots, warm sweaters. Little effort in looking beautiful, has a beret from her great grandfather. Fruit juice, sometimes gets carried away when venting but her friends love her regardless. White, gold, brown, pink. Better in fashion than in studies. 

you made me feel like i was not enough

like i always need to pretend to be someone else

someone you wanted me to be

someone you would like to be friends with

even if you didn’t you it on purpose , this stayed with me till now

i will never walk through the valley of my personality without looking back, on this shadow. Scar that you left on my heart. Fear that’s going to follow me into the darkest days, just to give me opportunity to arise

from hellfire i walked through again

honestly it is so fucking tiring, when suicide means to be weak, and well yeah i agree that i am but at the same time i’m too scared and weak to kill myself what a coincidence

I feel like I can't stay strong for much longer and that scares me.

Tips for when studying is the last thing you want to do!

1. Write out on sticky notes the name of objects in your room, then go ahead and stick them on everything. Next time you turn on your light, make yourself look (or at least glance) at the word. Next time you open your drawer, look at the note. Any time you turn on your lamp, your laptop charger or your speakers, you’ll always have that vocabulary there and you’ll learn each of them in no time.

2. Play the radio/podcasts or a Korean show for background noise. Most of us don’t like to sit and scroll through Facebook in total silence. I recommend 슈퍼맨이 돌아왔다 (which is available on youtube!) as it is centred around children and any vocabulary you pick up will be helpful. Others include:

• 2 Days 1 Night

• Hello Counselor

• 이웃집 찰스

• Hello Baby

3. Write down phrases on flash cards. Break down the words. Some people have more success reading phrases on flash cards rather than just single vocabulary. Stick these in a place you’ll sit at often, or you could also stick them on items they pertain to just like in tip #1.

4. Just once a day, when you’re out and about or even just at home, search the dictionary for a word. Say you’re out eating, and you don’t know the word for “to order”. Whip out that phone, search it up and try to commit it to memory. One word a day is 365 words a year, and odds are you’ll pick up more than that anyway!

5. Google Play has a selection of multi-language books. Buy a Korean and English children’s book and try to read it (if you’re up to it). The English translation will always be there, so it’s less brain power for you to go and search up everything you don’t know! Plus, you might learn some small phrases in the process.

6. Watch Korean YouTubers. YouTube is fun to watch, so why not watch it in Korean? - 영국남자 (Korean Englishman) is an English man who is great at Korean, he always has English and Korean subs on. By the end of a few episodes you’ll know what “ 남자답다” and “살아 있네!” Means! - Pony’s Makeup is a great channel if you love makeup. You’ll pick up makeup related vocab and phrases, as well learn new techniques and styles. - Maangchi is a Korean lady who teaches you how to cook Korean food. It’s mostly in English but she talks about Korean words sometimes. - 꿀키 is another cooking channel, however there’s no talking, only the blissful sounds of soup boiling and onions frying! She puts small instructions on her videos in both English and Korean. Take notes!

7. Download a widget on your phone that gives you a new word every time you swipe to unlock. Simple, easy and there in your pocket.

8. Fill your social media with Korean. Follow Korean study blogs (though don’t rely on them 100% as most are run by non-fluent speakers), follow Korean daily vocab twitters and Facebook pages. Everything you see will be Korean and you’ll start to pick up on words that you see all the time.

9. Don’t feel discouraged if you haven’t studied for a week. Don’t feel like you’re the worst at Korean, or that you’re so far behind everyone else. Everyone learns differently and at different paces. Me, I’m competitive and need to absorb as much as is humanly possible in a short amount of time. Others stick to a schedule. Some learn stuff here and there. There is no right and wrong way to learn. Do you. Remember, just one word a day equals 365 a year. 2 words a day is even more!