- His Secret -

-smoking hot-

“could i trouble you for a cigarette?”

Y/N’s a hot smoker who Wanda is so desperate to impress, so desperate that she would go up to the girl having never smoked before and ask the girl for a cigarette

The music was blaring and teenagers roamed the halls of some random kids house, drinks provided of course and a lot of bad decisions to come. Wanda had seen them a few times with them being in most of her classes, yet all she knew about the mysterious person was that they where popular yet such a loner, she had continuously seen them alone smoking in various corners of the college they both attended. And when Wanda caught glimpse of the mysterious person at her best friends 18th birthday party, she knew with the liquid courage in her system that she HAD to make her move.

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Wanda’s best friend had practically shoved Wanda over to where the person was yet after a few seconds of silence, Wanda has accepted her fate and silently walked away, being replaced by her twin brother. Pietro was one of those popular jocks who knew everything about everyone, knowing this Wanda had made a mental note of her brother and Y/N’s friendship, y/n had been around the Maximoff house a few times actually, once they had helped Pietro get home safe after a practice one night when he broke his ankle, another time they had brought Wanda snacks and ice cream because Pietro had told them that Wanda’s dumbass ex had broken up with her, they ended up making Wanda Paprikash and leaving it outside her door with the snacks, ice cream and a note which Pietro had then told Wanda about his new friend that had put this much effort into making his sister feel good after such a hard day. Wanda needed to know more, or actually interact with the person who had piqued her interest.

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Many drinks later, Wanda stumbled outside in attempt to grab some air, in doing so, she had found the person her heart had been violently beating for. Y/n stood there, alone, with a cigarette hanging out of their perfect mouth. “Hey” y/n says upon recognising the other teenager to be her best friends sister, Wanda however, stands looking at the smoking hot 18 year old, wondering how to impress them “can I try one?” Wanda quickly asked, y/n lifted an eyebrow, knowing Wanda to be a goodie two shoes yet having Wanda ask them for a cigarette is very new to them. Nodding, y/n took their tab box out of their hoodie pocket and holds the open box out to Wanda, who slowly takes one and asks for a lighter, once y/n hands her one, she puts the cigarette in her mouth and strikes the lighter, after a few attempts the cigarette doesn’t light, she looks over to her peer who is holding in a laugh “what?” she asks feeling dumbfounded under the gaze of her crush. “come here” y/n said, Wanda quickly obliged, walking closer to y/n “pass the lighter I’ll do it for you” y/n commands with a slight smirk, upon grabbing the lighter, y/n had stepped closer to the girl and put the cigarette back in her mouth, they put one hand hovering around the cigarette to block the winds draft and another holding the lighter, they struck the lighter and lit the cigarette first time. Taking the cigarette out of her mouth to speak “thankyou” Wanda thanked y/n for the simple task. “So any update on the boyfriend?” Y/n asks in their deep monotone voice that Wanda loves so much, a chuckle escapes her throat and she shakes her head “I’m looking to get over that douchebag” she states, seeing the opportunity y/n quickly takes it “why don’t we go to the bowling alley and diner next weekend?” Y/n smirks “why those places? They seem a bit out of your comfort zone” Wanda quickly asks “Piet always talks about how you love the 60s and that’s as close as we are going to get around here” y/n states while rubbing the back of their neck awkwardly like a child that had just been caught in the act which made Wanda infatuated by the teenager.

Im not even gonna send this anonymously cause u know by now but DONT IGNORE ME U BITCH OKAY?!

LOVE U POOKS

Side eying these knowing exactly who they are from ;) IM WORKING ON IT GIRL (txt me which one of your men you want me to write them for 😭)

@bookaddict05

Voodoo4Dummies

Wanda x y/n

Agatha x Wanda (friends only)

Nat + yelena + y/n (sisters)

Y/N gets killed on a mission, leaving her one true love, Wanda to deal with the consequences. Throughout the weeks after Y/N’s death, Wanda seeks out help from her old friend Agatha, in which they stumble upon multiple books, the Dark Hold, The Manual of Witchcraft and Alchemy and Voodoo for Dummies.

WANDAS POV

“im closing in on the room with the, what did you call it tasha? a goober?” Y/N’s voice echoing through the earpiece which allows the team to speak to one another during missions, with a hint of sarcasm she speaks in her Russian accent. Following this Natasha chuckles into her earpiece and following up with “shut it y/n/n, get the USB and get out”

I smile at the interaction they share while fighting off another round of hydra agents.

“Uh guys. So I took the USB out of the computer and now there’s a timer on the screen. i- I think it’s a bomb” y/n announces with a tremble clear in her voice

“hey, hey no malysh, cmon, it’s okay just get as far away from that room as possible, what floor are you on?” Yelena says in a comforting tone, recognising the fear in her baby sisters voice

“Fuck I don’t know Lena, but it’s high maybe 5th floor from what I can see” my heart sinks, memories of Pietro’s death flood back into my brain, she can’t die like this. I can’t loose her. “My love come on, just keep running please” I plead with her, I can hear her heavy breathing through the earpiece.

One I manage to get outside, all the hydra agents on sight are dead and the whole team are out front looking at the door waiting for one of Y/N’s last minute miracles, she always gets into trouble on missions because she is careless with her life, always diving head first into trouble and unlike any normal person she always ends up surviving. It’s an ongoing joke that her power is luck.

I run over to Natasha and turn to the building in hopes y/n runs outside and into my arms. Tony points up to a window “what is she doi…*BANG*”

the whole team falls to the floor in attempt to cover from the flames that burst out of the building. We all watch as Y/N jumps through the window of the 5th floor, her body on an incline toward the floor, a scream rips from both mine and Yelena’s lungs as our y/n hits the floor in one swift motion, her small frame, slumped against a car, her head hung low, her tactical goggles covering her eyes, her raven curls covering the remaining surface of her face.

Everyone stumbles to their feet to get to y/n, yelena making it to her first, falling to her knees and holding her younger sisters lifeless head up in her hands, she cursed under her breath as the rest of the avengers huddle up around the two, i kneel next to yelena with panic. “Is she awake?” I say in a sense of urgency as I lift up my girlfriends tactical goggles off her eyes, her head still resting in yelenas hands.

That’s when it hits me.

I cant hear her heartbeat, I lift my hand up, my palm just in front of her face, my fingers grazing over her forehead. Strands of red magic float around her head.

“i- I can’t feel you” I say in a whisper to y/n before looking around “I can’t feel her” I announce to the group in panic “why can’t I feel her?” I say as Natasha pulls my body into hers, wrapping her arms around me as tears cascade down my face. Yelena starts to gently slap Y/N’s face “come on little one, this isn’t fucking funny, wake up. Wake up y/n, WAKE UP” Yelena’s screams can be heard from anyone, probably even from universes away.

“wake up, come on Wanda, wake up your having a nightmare” I am shook awake, my eyes flutter open as my body is shook by my best friend Agatha, she looks down at me with fear in her eyes. I rub my eyes, tears staining my black stained fingers, I slowly lift my body into a sitting position opposite Agatha. “Oh hun, it’s okay, we will find her body and bring her back, just like we said, yes?” Agatha says in a hopeful yet reassuring tone of voice. I nod slowly knowing today is the day I am to go to S.W.O.R.D headquarters to talk to general Hayward about Y/N’s body.

- time skip -

I walk into S.W.O.R.D headquarters with a plan and an right to commit to my plan.

“Ah yes, hello miss Maximoff. Here to see general Hayward? Right this way, let me get this door for you” a man on front desk greets me but I know where I need to be “I’ve got it but thanks” I say interrupting the kind man as I use my powers to open the door.

Once in Haywards office he greets me with a nod “hello miss Maximoff” he smiles “okay yes I know your here for your girlfriends body but I’m sorry to inform you, she’s the government’s property” i tilt my head in anger knowing he would say something like this, and because of that me and Agatha came up with a plan, I would distract him while Agatha goes in and teleports Y/N’s body back to the house we share. “If it where that the two of you had married before her death then I would of been allowed to hand over her body to you” that one hit a nerve, the night my love died I was planning to propose to her after our weekly movie night. After a breif moment of silence I went to speak, just as the radio attached to Haywards fancy suit blazer goes off “general Hayward, the mutants body has been compromised” I smile a little knowing they meant Y/N, however she wasn’t a mutant she just… well she was a mutant, but she wore a power dampener in fear she would hurt the ones she loved, I remember her staying up for weeks upon end in the lab making the stupid gadget, she would stay up until she passed out in someone’s arms. My thoughts are broken as I see Hayward run out of the room, I chuckle knowing she is already at the house, I drive back to mine and Agatha’s small house quickly with excitement radiating off my body.

Once entering the driveway, i quickly get out of the car and run into the house, without wasting time, I go straight to the basement, throwing my overcoat off my body, Agatha already has your body upon the medical table we built. “You ready hun?” She says in a comforting voice

I grab the only book that had gotten me and Agatha any progress. We had tried the Dark Hold but this book, voodoo for dummies was a remake of a old witches book from the 1600s a spell for reincarnation had been left opened in the book. I smile at Agatha and nod. We had done this spell many of times in the last week, we would kill people before bringing them back, it would work.

Agatha on one side of the table, me on the other, we lit candles and as much as it hurt me to do we had to carve runes into your skin, we started on your arms, carving over your scars, then we had to rip your shirt and I had to carve over your heart. Once we finished we started chanting in Latin. After a few minutes your body started to shake as if you where having a seizure I pressed my hands down onto your freezing shoulders and held you down. all of a sudden your body went limp again and Agatha threw the book “what a crock of shit” she curses. And turns around to pace the room.

I sigh and look down at your body, caressing your cheek lightly, this is when your eyes flutter open slowly, “my love?” I say quietly as Agatha quickly spins around to look at what I’m talking to. “oh my, Wanda she’s alive, she’s alive” Agatha nearly shouts.

cynthia and lydia get your shit together

totally not freaking out ab this <3 but drop the eyeliner tutorial pls bestie 😭🫂@crawlershq

omg crawlers are in their tumblr era 🛐 ily guys

And for some reason they appointed me (Liv) to look after it. I'm not sure what's being implied here

PS we love you too x

Revamping some of my old clothes that I don’t wear/like

didn’t exactly turn out how I expected it to but here it is, the spidey lover vest (first is inspo, second is my attempt)

my next victim is one I have been meaning to do for over a year

me : “I’m not drinking tonight him still sick”

Also me *strolls in the house at 5am after clubbing* “fuck”

YOUSE BETTER PRAY FOR ME WHEN I WAKE UP

Anywayyy ended up at a gay bar somehow LIKE WHERE EVEN IS THIS BC I CANT REMEMBER

WEB HEAD PART THREE

Sitting on my double bed me and Tess are gazing a the small vile of medication that could possibly save my life. Tess picks it up, ripping the needle out of its package and places the tip in the tiny glass bottle, absorbing the liquid into the needle “you ready?” She asks me, with a small nod i lifts up my shorts to expose my upper thigh, tattoos litter my legs, the needle goes in and the liquid is pushed into my bloodstream. With everything going on i never thought this would be happening. I’m finally on testosterone. I have grown at least four inches since i got my powers, my aunt who works at the hospital managed to get me in with a doctor who specialises in gender affirming care. And now i have just took my first shot of testosterone.

Anyway that was last month.

“Oi emo” Tess says as she waves her hand in front of my face snapping me out of my trance, I look up and we are at the rugby club. Presentation night, she nudges me and nods her head to a group of boys, tall muscular boys who obviously play rugby, I see her crush Finley by the bar with them, he’s a sweet boy, admires Tess’ father and is respectful. “go talk to him” I say jokingly knowing Tess would never even go close to him. She laughs and I stand up to walk over to the boys, she grabs my arm and pulls me back earning a few chuckles from the rugby girls, I turn back and smirk shrugging my shoulders “what I need a drink” I say laughing “no you don’t” she replies.

The night quickly ends as Tess and her millennium mindset kicks in even though she is LITERALLY GEN Z. We head home and go get rest for the next day. School has finally broke out and me and Tess have to search for university’s to go to, I run home from Tess’s place and quickly change into a black hoodie and black cargo joggers matched with a balaclava, I climb out of my window and onto the roof with my radio that I had modified to channel the police’s walkie talkies.

The radio cackles and creeks then a man’s voice comes through “ROBBERY ON THE WEST SIDE OF TOWN AT THE OLD AYLES CORNER SHOP” I smile before jumping off of the roof and using my webs to swing downtown, I quickly end up at the shop, I walk in slyly and see three tall men wearing purge masks, I sneak up behind them and grab a can of redbull cracking it open and leaning against the till, all three of the men and the cashier snap their necks to turn and look at me. “Cmon guys did you not hear the news they cancelled the anual purge this year” I chuckle at my own joke before throwing my wrist out and webbing one of the robbers hands to the wall behind him, the other two make quick work of getting to me, the one with the baseball bat lifts it up and goes for the swing before he swings it down onto my head I catch the bat in my hand, using the other one to web him in the face, temporarily blinding him, once he screams of pain I take the opportunity to kneel down and sweep his legs, knocking him to the ground, I then web his arms and legs down to the ground. Next the bigger guy grabs me by the hood of my hoodie and throws me into the aisle stocked with glasses of alcohol, my body flys to the ground and a bottle crashes onto my head, cold beer runs down my face, I wipe my eyes and look up at the man “wow you fellas sure know how to show a man a grand time” laughing again I stand up and nod to the cashier “hey ma’am how much do I owe you for that and the redbull?” I say with a smile, she chuckles and waves her hand “oh nothing dear, catch these guys and it’s on the house” she says with a thankful look, determined to get my redbull I make quick work of webbing the man’s eyes then arms before grabbing my drink and watching the police enter the car park, I walk out of the shop, quickly swinging away from the police as bullets fly past me. Apparent the police did not appreciate the help.

I look at the time on my phone seeing it’s only 11pm I decide to go to anyone but Tess’ house, I swing by Emily’s house and climb up the fire escape. I look through the window sighing, there she is sat on her bed watching a Tim burton film, me and Emily have been friends since childhood, we know each other like the back of our hands. I knock on the window and she jumps a little but knows it’s me, looking over she rushes to the window and opens it, grabbing me by the scuff of my hoodies collar she drags me to her bed and throws me down pointing at me then her phone with a stern look, I pull my balaclava off my face and give her a look which screams i need help. She whisper screams “your the Spider-Man dude?” She slaps my shoulder “what the fuck y/n/n” she goes to her set of drawers and grabs a jar. I look at her as she grabs some weed, a grinder and papers, throwing them at me she points at it “explain yourself lover boy or no drugs” I chuckle at the unserious tone in her demeanour, cracking open the grinder I put some of the magic plant in and start to twist it allowing the parts to be cut up into tiny pieces. “So I may or may not have been bit by a spider, and decided to go fight crime” I smirk as I then take out the green and place it on a rolling paper still explaining my situation. I start to roll the joint and twist the top completing it. Emily comes and sits next to me placing her head on my shoulder before looking up at my face slightly “your bleeding” she stares before lifting her head up and grabbing my face to look at her, she looks down at my lips before looking back up to my eyes, she lifts her finger up wiping the blood from my bottom lip and and kissing my cheek and grabbing the joint out of my hands “go change into my clothes you look like bat man” I laugh and go over to her closet grabbing a pair of grey joggers and a Radiohead shirt, I walk back in and throw her the lighter from her bedside table, she lights the end of the joint and blows on it allowing it to burn. We take a few hits each before playing puff and pass, the room is blurry and we both are in one of those moods where everything is funny.

“Wait wait stay here I have an idea” she shouts as she runs to her closet, she comes back in with a navy blue hoodie that has maroon sleeves she throws it to me making my spider sense go off and allowing me to catch it before it knocks the joint out of my hand, then she throws me a white paint pen. “Get to work wonder boy” she says as she gets on the bed and drags me down cuddling into the side of me. “Doing what?” I pass her the rest of the joint “make ur super human costume” I laugh and pop the top off of the pen, I decide to stick with the spider themes and draw a spider smack bang in the middle of the hoodie “baby?” She whines “mh” I say while I scribble in the details on the spider “does Tess know?” She asks, shaking my head I sigh “I don’t know how to tell..” I am cut off by a knock on the door, Emily groans and gets up opening her bedroom door, in walks Tess… shit.

Closing the door Tess points at me “it’s you isn’t it?” I smile confused “your the spider thing all over the news you idiot” she comes over to me slapping my head “why didn’t you tell me?” She demands “I didn’t know how” I shrug “y/n y/l/n I’m your best friend, she’s your lover or whatever you two are I haven’t really figured that one out yet but that doesn’t matter, you should’ve came to us not go out and try to be a vigilante” both Tess and Emily sit either side of me asking multiple questions about my powers. I answer everything in time then we all decide to turn on a movie, Tess’s father ends up calling her forcing her to come home leaving me and Emily alone once again.

Girl in the chair Pt 4

tw: torture/ graphic

I wake up in a moving vehicle and what I can tell from having a bag over my head is that its a van. My hands are tied up with what feels like zip ties. However my feet are free, I try to shuffle around to get the bag off of my head, but that's when I feel the searing pain run through my leg.

'crap the cut' I think to my self. Still blinded I try to feel for the cut to try and sense how bad it is. Glass still imbedded in the skin, the arseholes didn't even take it out.

Taking a deep breath in, I brace myself and pull the biggest shard in my leg out unknowing if there was any other pieces hidden beneath the skin. I tried to muffle my scream to avoid getting the attention of my captives.

I manage to rive off the hood that was keeping me blinded and could see from the tinted windows on the doors the sun was starting to set, I must of been out for hours.

That's when the van starts to stop, and I hear both the driver's door and passengers door open and close. There was 2 of them as I suspected when the home invasion took place.

The van doors open and I quickly pretended to play unconscious still waiting for an opportunity to escape when they least expect it. They grab me and one of them throws me over his shoulder. Yeah there is no way I'm getting out of this one.

~ TIME SKIP ~

I'm carried into a room and thrown on the hard floor, I open my eyes again to see that I had been locked in a cell and my captive standing on the other side looking right into my soul.

"Ah good morning sunshine or should I say good evening" he smiles down at me. I know that face and I know them tattoos it couldn't be mistaken. It was the man who came to my fathers office that morning. I knew something was off about him.

"You must be thinking who am I? and why have I taken you? Well Y/N, my name is Rumlow and the answer for that second question will be revealed soon enough" he says while walking away from the cell, leaving me on the cold hard concrete floor still with my hand restraints on.

~TIME SKIP~

I'm sitting here knowing that there is no way of escaping this hell hole that's when I hear someone approaching.

I saw his arm glinting from white light, and it couldn't be mistaken. Mr Barnes.

"I told you we would see each other again soon" he says with a cunning grin.

"I knew something was off with you, Leave my friend alone or I swear to God that super soldier serum won't be able to save you" I say trying to threaten someone who could literally snap me in half but if that was his intention I'd already be dead they wouldn't keep me alive. Unless it was a trap for Milo. Oh god, Milo I pray u don't come looking for me.

"Your threats don't scare me, I've been through world war two for crying out loud" he starts laughing at me. "Anyways, as soon as we get what we need from you will dispose of you pretty quickly"

He opens up the cell and grabs me by the wrists, dragging me out of the cell. I try to weigh my self down to make it more difficult for him but that made no affect on him, so I stood up in a quick movement and kick him in the balls causing him to loosen his grip on me and bend over. That's when I decided to knee him in the face and try and make a run for it in this maze of a building.

Running through multiple corridors trying to stay out of sight of anyone. But that's when I felt the sharp prick hit my side, I pull out an arrow off my hip and everything started to become dark.

No no no not again, I was so close. The darkness started to engulf my sight as my eyelids became heavier and heavier. The last thing I see before full darkness is the Winter soldier standing over me grinning like the Cheshire cat.

~Time skip~

I wake up to a fist colliding with my face, causing me to be even more disorientated from waking up after being tranquilised.

"Ah nice for you to make an appearance Y/N, we need to ask you a few questions, and if you don't answer well we have a few persuasive methods that might get you talking" Rumlow says while standing next to a table full of tools. knifes, hammers, plyers and more for him to enjoy his twisted little games.

"I won't tell you anything, do your twisted mind games and methods but I will never give you any information"

"Oh is that so, well we will just have to test how far you can go then"

He picks up the knife on the tray and walks over to the chair in the middle of the room to which I am detained in.

He re-opens the cut on my leg from the glass that started to heal.

A blood curdling scream erupts from my lungs and he makes it bigger.

"How about now?"

I look at him with tear filled eyes but determined not to back down. He then makes another cut across the top of my thigh. Blood oozing out as I bit down on my tongue to not to give him the satisfaction of another scream.

He continues slicing up my body in different places, from my legs to my back, to my arms. Muffled screams escaping from my mouth as i try to hold back.

"Well then we do have other ways of means of getting things out of people, GET ME THE SERUM" he shouts over to one of his henchmen at the side.

He opens a container and white smoke falls out from in it, they pull out a syringe and walk over and hand it over to Rumlow. Walking over he says "Now with this you shall become very compliant" smiling sinister at me he injects me with the serum and put me in this torture device. Spikes surround my body and breaks through the skin, I was in so much pain that I could not help but scream. I passed out due to the pain.

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I'm a prisoner in my own body I though, I cant control my self, I tried to lift my arm as I have been taken out of my major restraints with only leg ones on, but I am unable to move the rest of my body.

Milo is now sitting in front of me unconscious, he tried to save me, oh god I wish he didn't now we are both in this mess. He starts to wake up and he makes eye contact at me, unable to say anything to him, all I can do is sit here with a neutral expression on my face.

"TESS, IT'S ME, YOUR GOING TO BE OKAY" Milo exclaims while trying to wiggle free. That's when Rumlow came up behind him and put his hands on his shoulders.

"Who the fuck are you and what are you doing with my best friend you sick fuck?"

"Hello Milo, my name is none of your concern, all you need to worry about is about your pretty little friend here"

ANYONE BUT HER 7

JANIS IMI-IKE X FEM READER

a little Regina x reader

Warnings - swearing, mentions of cheating, mentions of anxiety. Regina being Regina. Hurt. Angst

The POV switches between reader and Janis (I use — when I change the POV)

The last part🤧, happy reading lovelies 🫶🏼

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“Hey Tes, you should totally come sit with us, y/n has finally agreed to sit with me and the girls” Regina almost brags, a massive grin plaster across her pretty face.

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Ignoring all of my surroundings i stare down at my full plate of food, i feel everyone’s eyes on me and i don’t like it. I use the small plastic fork to push a piece of food around the plate, wishing the world would swallow me whole. I feel a hand on my shoulder and look up to see Regina with a reassuring expression. “you okay y/n/n?” She asks in a low voice obviously trying to avoid bringing any attention to the fact that she is being nice to someone. I flash her a small smile and nod praying she lets it go. Which thankfully she does. Well she was distracted i should say. I look in the direction of her glare. Janis and Damien are glaring right back at her. And as if on que in walks bea, she sits down at their table, trying her hardest to get Janis’ attention, a smirk plastered across her face. I look back at my plate. My head once again shoots up when i hear the clatter of a lunch tray hitting the floor, i sigh upon seeing that Karen had dropped her lunch, Regina looks at the girl as if she was internally face palming, Gretchen had yet to grace us with her bubbly presence, and Karen, she is stood in front of the table looking like a deer caught in the headlights of a car being drove by Regina. I quickly push my tray across the table and gesture for Karen to take it. She stands there for a few more seconds, confusion evident in her expression. “Have mine, I don’t want you waiting in that lunch line again” I chuckle before wiping my sweaty hands on my jeans and standing up. “Hey imma just go to the bathroom okay? I’ll be right back” I say looking at Regina who simply nods, still glaring at Janis.

I rush to the bathrooms, not even a second after I enter, in comes Tessa. “Okay I can’t take this anymore, Janis didn’t- BANG” she starts but is interrupted by a loud crashing noise from outside the bathrooms. We both stay still looking at each other, our fight or flight response having not kicked in yet. That was until we heard shouting, both of us run to the door, her beating me to it and opening it for us both to look and see what caused the sound. Next thing I see is a flash of blonde hair run past me, I look on the ground to see a navy blue backpack, with pins and a cross stitch circle on it, I roll my eyes and pick it up knowing exactly who’s it is. “Cmon that was Janis and Regina, I don’t like this, whatever that was. was not good news” Tessa says while grabbing my arm and running in the direction of where the blonde ran.

We end up outside under the bleachers, a few students circled around to watch the chaos too.

“Why the fuck do you keep messing with my life Regina? Just leave me alone for once in your sorry life” Janis nearly screams while she steps forward to be right up in the blondes face.

“I didn’t do anything loser” Regina laughs back in Janis’ face, which only angers the smaller girl more.

“Well I didn’t cheat or use y/n and you know it” she continues to shout at the blonde girl

“Well suck it up because she’s mine now, she hates you” Regina pauses to laugh once again, this is also when Janis had noticed your presence within the circle of teenagers who are observing their little argument. “And all it took to break her was some silly little lie but now I have her all to myself” Regina finished before turning to look what Janis was starring at, her face goes pale and she opens her mouth to speak but I move faster, my legs taking me away from the scene, dropping Janis’ backpack from my shoulder somewhere on the way.

I end up in a janitor’s closet, the bell had already rung so there was barely anyone in the halls, allowing me to swiftly slip into the room. My legs buckle, I brace myself for the cold surface of the floor but I am instead surrounded by the heat of someone’s presence, I didn’t even hear the door open again, through clouded vision I look up to see the green haired girl I’ve been so desperately trying to avoid the past few days. “Let me go” I choke out a sob, which only makes her grip on me grow stronger, she pulls me up a little so she has me in her full embrace, one of her arms around my waist, the other cradles the back of my neck. She tangles her fingers in my hair, the coldness of her rings inviting me in, she continues to hold me, slowly pulling us both onto the floor so we can sit more comfortably.

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This isn’t the girl I knew, the girl who was in a band, the girl who had everything together. Well that’s how she seemed to me. Now she’s in my arms sobbing. Tessa warned me not to break her heart, and even though I didn’t do anything, I feel like im in the wrong. So I do the only thing I can to save her from me hurting her again.

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“I’m sorry” she says while letting me go out of her hold. I look up, tear stained eyes, my eyeliner probably streaked down my face by now. She gets up, dusting her jeans off before turning towards the door, she doesn’t even hesitate before opening the door and leaving. I stay sat on the floor for what seems like forever. I pull my knees up to my chest and put my head down, closing my eyes.

The door slams open and I hear the squeaks of multiple peoples shoes before I am shook by the shoulders, I slowly look up hoping it is the green haired girl I have grown to rely on in these situations. But no. My eyes focus on the people’s faces. Tessa is kneeled in front of me, Aaron stood behind her and Damien stood in the doorway. Damien quickly shuts the door seeing the state im in and flicks on the small light. Aaron just stares at me and Tessa sighs. “Cmon we are ditching” she states knowing better than to ask questions right now.

We all get out of the janitors closet and walk towards Tessa’s pink jeep. Tessa and Aaron in the front, me and Damien in the back. I press myself right into the corner of the car, not wanting or needing anyone to touch or come near me. Damien keeps staring at me as if at any second I will disappear, Tessa makes quick work of driving while Aaron plays with the radio, he whispers something to Tessa, she whipsers something back and they argue in a hushed tone for a few minutes before Tessa agrees to whatever he was saying and turns to go a different way. I stare out of the window, not exactly taking notice of where we are going, just thinking about everything that has happened this school year and praying it ends soon.

After ten minutes of sitting in silence, the only sound being from the radio, the car stops, I look around to where we are, my heart skips a beat when I realise we are at the beach me, Aaron and Tessa grew up going to nearly every day. I look up to see Tessa looking back at me, Aaron and Damien get out of the car but she sits there staring at me. “What happened in the janitors closet?” Her ocean blue eyes staring into my own, perfect blonde hair shining as the rays of sun hit her through the windows of the car.

-

If you had told me five years ago this is where we would be I would’ve laughed in anyone’s face and told them to fuck off. Yet here we are. Broken and Damaged.

If you had told me five days ago I would’ve been heart broken by Janis ‘Imi’ike I would’ve said “she would never, anyone but her would but she would never” yet here I am. Broken and Damaged.

-

“Y/n, listen, Janis really likes you, she just feels like she’s to blame. Regina is a bitch for doing that to the both of you. And in result of that you and Janis lost each other. But trust me when I say. It will all work out.” Tessa says now stood in front of me, her hand held out for me to take, the car door open, I willingly take her hand and walk with her to the beach, Aaron and Damien following. We eventually all split off to do our own thing, Damien is on the phone to who I am assuming is Janis. Aaron and Tessa are in the sea making the most of the weather while I sit watching them, I know they both like each other. I’ve known for years, probably before they knew it themselves. Aaron has always stood up for Tessa and Tessa has always been there to pick Aaron back up when he falls. And if that’s how it will be for the rest of eternity, then im more than okay with them. Nothing can break them up. They are Aaron and Tessa.

I pull out my phone and see multiple missed calls and texts from a multitude of people at school. Regina. Bea. Gretchen, Karen, Cady and Janis being those people. I turn my phone on silent and grab my headphones from my bag and play music before turning my phone off and putting it back into my hoodie pocket.

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(Damien’s pov)

The whole car ride my phone rings off the hook, but I couldn’t care. Y/n is sat next to me looking like she had been hit by a bus. She looks a mess. Eyeliner somehow still in tact but she looks empty, her gaze set on the outside world. I notice she does that a lot these days. Just blankly stare at things, lost in her own head. Aaron and Tessa are trying to talk to her but she isn’t paying them any mind.

Once at the beach she just goes off away from everyone and sits down, throwing her backpack down before grabbing her phone and headphones out of her bag. That’s when I notice my phone is once again ringing. The ringtone being the one I set specifically for Janis. I pull my phone out of my pocket torn between my two best friends. Janis hurt y/n but there has to be a reason behind it. So I do what I have to and answer the phone.

“Daims I fucked up big time, please go check on y/n, I left her in the janitors closet and I don’t think she’s in the right headspace to be alone” she says with a hint of regret in her voice. I can tell that she is pacing around even through the phone.

“Okay no, Janis the girl is absolutely broken right now, you best explain and have a goddam good excuse for this. I know the whole Regina thing wasn’t you, but what the fuck?” I almost shout, only quieting down because y/n is sitting not even a few feet away from me.

“I’ve watched her since we where kids, I’ve seen her happiest moments from afar but never had the courage to go up to her, now that I have she’s been the saddest I’ve seen her. And I feel like it’s on me, I never wanted her like this. I wanted to make her happy” she starts

“Shut the fuck up and come to the beach, tell her yourself. But don’t blame me or anyone else if she doesn’t want to hear it” I say still angry at my best friend. I look over to y/n who is still spaced out, music blaring from her headphones.

“Fine im nearly there anyway, was going home but I’ll turn around. Cady is driving us”and with that the phone call ends.

Not even a few minutes later Cadys car pulls up next to Tessa’s. I watch as Janis gets out. I look over to see y/n layed on a beach towel from Tessa’s car that we brought out, her eyes closed and an angry Tessa storming over, Aaron following.

“What the fuck are you doing here?” Aaron surprisingly says before Tessa can, his face confused and angered. “I came to talk to her” Janis tries to walk past the taller boy. He steps in front of her before she can “wait Janis don’t we need to talk first” Tessa then buts in, grabbing Janis’ arm, taking her back to her car. They both come back a few minutes later and Tessa nods to Aaron to let the two girls talk it out.

——-

I sit up and open my eyes, the sun blinding me, making me wipe my face for what seems like the thousandth time in the past hour. I pull my phone out and change the song just as someone taps my shoulder. “Don’t touch me right now Tessa I swear to fuck I will dunk you in the sea” I say flinching away from the person who only moves to stand in front of me. There stands Janis, her face full of shame. She sits in front of me so I take my headphones off and stare blankly at her. She goes to speak but stops herself so I take that opportunity to talk for her “if your only here to ‘comfort’ me then leave again then save your time and fuck off” I put y headphones back on but she leans forward and takes them off of my head before I can react. “The fuck?” I say in shock. “Middle school” she says as if I should know what that means. I continue to just stare at her, pissed off. “I’ve had a crush on you since middle school. I used to watch you every class we had together. Then in high school when you started the band. I would listen to every song. I went to your first show. I forced Damien to go to that show that night. Your last show. When Bea cheated on you I was so pissed because ever since I’ve known you I’ve seen you to be this happy person. But then these past few months you’ve lost your smile. And I blame myself for that.” She blurts out in one breath.

It takes me a second to process what she said but once my brain catches up i sit there shocked. “I’ve hurt people in the past, I’ve had the hardest time falling in love with things, but falling in love with you has been one of the easiest things I’ve done, but seeing you like this” she gestures to me “has been the hardest thing I’ve done because I know I’ve played a part in the way you’ve lost your smile. I don’t expect you to forgive me but im here to ask you to give me a second chance to fix this and bring back your smile” she finishes with teary eyes. I look back at her already crying, all I can manage to do is nod and choke out another sob as she leans forward to hug me.