Here’s The Abandoned Wip For An Au I Thought Of A While Back

Yes yes yes if you can comment please do!! I'm still working over my shyness over commenting myself but it's so nice to write a comment to tell the author how much you loved it. As an author myself, I am also giggling like a school girl when I get one

I want everyone to know that this is me every time someone drops a comment on something I've written:

sifdile beam upon yee

OHHFBGGHH NO SIFFDILE KABOOM SIFDILE CARCRASHHHHHHH

@jess-tra made the gifs for me :3

My friend told me to draw a dancing frog so have dancing Heket

Hi. Good morning. I just woke up. Thinking very intensely about Mal du Pays being """comforting""" towards Siffrin. Aa one does directly after waking up

Tw for discussions about child abuse.

I just need Atsushi, Tachihara and Aya to bond over their shit parents.

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Tachihara: And then my brother died and my parents told me they wished it was me instead.

Aya: My dad didn’t say it but I know he wished I was gone instead of my mum. She was so perfect and I couldn’t even get close to what she was.

Tachihara: Sounds familiar.

Atsushi: I’m glad you’re both here. No one deserves to be told that they don’t deserve to live.

Aya: Thanks Tiger boy.

Tachihara: Did your parents tell you that too?

Atsushi: Among other people. I didn’t lose anyone like you guys did. They just never liked me I guess.

Aya: That’s their loss.

Atsushi: Thanks.

Aya: How did you guys escape? I mean you know I ended up with Bram Bram and now I’m just here with you guys.

Atsushi: Yeah pretty sure Kunikida would end up on the news if your dad tried coming for you.

Tachihara: That goes double for Akutagawa. How did I get out? Oh you know ran off in the middle of the night and became the delinquent they thought I was.

Atsushi: Wait you actually became a criminal? That wasn’t just for the Port Mafia?

Tachihara: Yup before I got busted for bank robbery. That’s when Fukuchi found me. He offered me a deal and well you know the rest.

Atsushi: Man you guys were so cool, running and finding your place in the world. I just got thrown away.

Aya: You mean like being kicked out?

Atsushi: No I mean like put into a bag and then the bag gets thrown out onto a street corner, with me inside.

Tachihara: Now that’s just excessive.

Atsushi: Right?

Aya: And if you tore a hole out you could’ve crawled out. It’s not even a good murder plan.

Atsushi: I’m pretty good at surviving those. Ah well, least they all think we’re dead.

Tachihara: I’ll drink to that…and by drink I mean the apple juice we have here and nothing else.

Aya: Smooth save.

Tachihara: I don’t wanna die twice,

Meanwhile, everyone else can hear them:

Kunikida,: You know, murder wasn’t on my schedule but that can easily be amended.

Kyouka, unsheathes her katana.

Ranpo: And Katai just sent us the directions, you coming Mr fancy Coat?

Akutagawa: Obviously.

i love when tragedies are like “the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there”

Obsessed with vampires but specifically when they're really pathetic

Something amazing about In Stars and Time is how it makes you feel what Siffrin feels.

And yes, when you go through Act 5 and everything breaks down that's cool.

But when Siffrin feels loved and safe, I think that's what's special. That's what makes this game and these characters so special to me.

As someone who, too, had a similar feeling of feeling unlovable for a very long time. This game really healed that part of me.

When the timeloops start, and Siffrin clings to being useful, you still feel little bits of love. Small, barely there, a little distanced, because Siffrin feels distanced. But it's still there. The party looks out for you, pays attention to you, makes stupid jokes with you.

As you go through, you feel love through Loop. Loop who despite all the teasing and bullying helps. Helps the person who they so wish they could be. The one who holds their own heart, who has the family they lost. Loop reaches out to you, reminds you, you're here, I see you. It hurts, but I see you. And I will always see you and sit with you. And I will keep you from becoming as detached as I did, whether that be by annoying you or having a heart to heart or just yapping in general.

You feel love from the head housemaiden. That cruel kind as she weeps for your situation, and crys tears you can not. As she apologizes over and over again. Euphrasies loves by showing you the painful kind of mercy, the one that stabs you in your heart and makes you want to scream, because she loves through pity. Through pitying you and your suffering. No matter how much it hurts it is love nonetheless.

And finally, in the end, after everything you've done, after everything you went through. You feel love again. This time in your face, so burning and bright that you can not ignore it, you feel loved from the very people you loved from the start. The party who runs in to save you, despite everything you said. Who tells you it's ok, you were going insane, we may be a little mad at what you said, but in the end that doesn't matter. Because we love you. And man, when they really showed the unconditional love, I was going to cry. Because a love like that, especially one with the party, is so hard to find. And it's so precious.

Finally, you see love, one more time. Twohats. The Loop fight. Loop, who is trying to kill you, Loop who is so jealous because that is the love they so wanted. They want their family back. Loop who despite everything. They still can't kill Siffrin. Siffrin, who despite being forced to fight again, who could drop dead at any moment because of his craft exhaustion, refuses to oblige Loops request. They both refuse to kill. Because they still love each other. Siffrin who pulls Loop into a hug, and apologizes. Apologizes to who they once were, the Siffrin who should've gotten this. The one who had their family and their heart stolen from them. The Siffrin who never got to feel love. He thanks who they are now, Loop. For sticking with them despite everything. Who watched Siffrin, guided them, gave them a shoulder to cry on, bantered with them so Siffrin did not lose himself. Who despite everything, still decided to help. Siffrin isn't mad at Loop, because Siffrin knows, he would do the same. Siffrin gives Loop back all the love they gave. He let's Loop move on, knowing they're loved. That they always have been. Loop accepts that their family is gone, that they loved them all the same. They learn that even with them gone, they were still loved. Loop is allowed to be happy as they leave.

And isn't that just what this game is about? That no matter what, everyone deserves to be loved. To know it too, and to be happy. And that's what healed me a bit. Because if even the King, who spent his days weeping for a kingdom long gone, who lost all his family and could not build a new one, who froze everything in time, was still able to know and remember the love he had in the end, then why can't I? Why can't anyone? If even the ones who hated and cried and destroyed everything, the ones who hid it all until they couldn't, who didn't understand their emotions and felt trapped within a construct, who didn't feel like them no matter how much they changed, then can't we, too, love and be loved?

This game shows that love does not have to be romantic, does not have to be displayed in any way, is not something earned, but is a basic right for all of us. And for that, I thank it.

insane and crazy to me that these were my first funy liveblog drawings because. glances to my isat art now.

my siffrins have changed perhaps a smidge.

should i redraw that first one…

I should be doing one last edit and working on my AU, I'm not.

What am I doing instead?

Making an Atsushi Animatic