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⟅28.07.2024 — eu sei que parece que esse pensamento é muito adiantado PORÉM eu tenho algo a dizer: eu fiz muita capa fofa e LINDA ESSE MÊS (!)¹ isso não é meu normal, se você é meu amigo, ta na hora de você vir me perguntar se ta tudo bem (!)² essa capa foi minha segunda favorita de fazer esse mês, estou praticando colocar mais pngs e implementar mais detalhes, talvez isso esteja dando resultado e eu estou muy happy happy happy :) bom, eu já queria fazer uma capa de bsd porém não tinha ideia do que seria a capa e isso acabou me deixando inseguro com que tema abordar com o fandom CONTUDO, acabei achando um possível spoiler e eu fiquei tão :') que decidi que iria capar com o que eu achei desse spoiler em específico. Faz 80 anos que não leio o mangá, nem lembro em que cap eu terminei mas depois dessa coisa linda que fiz, vou retornar a minha casita <3
Créditos para esse PSD que salvou minha vida e que vou até usar mais vezes :3
REASONS NOT TO END IT ALL:
1) all the unreleased songs from your favourite artist
2) all the dogs and cats waiting to be loved by you
3) GOTTA OUTLIVE THE HATERS
4) THE HATERS GONNA BE HAPPY IF YOU DIE
5) potatoes. boil them, mash them, fry them up till golden and crispy
6) we got 2 more fnaf movies to go
7) dr. pepper
8) you have so many hugs left to give and get
9) you might eat your favourite meal tomorrow
10) keep telling yourself “not today.” one day you won’t have to.
please, REBLOG + ADD MORE REASONS!
My aesthetic? The Bungou Stray Dogs intros.
I recently discovered that if you initially draw a picture in a sketchbook, and then finish it from a computer, it turns out quite well.
If you take requests, can I have Atsushi being comforted by the reader when hes crying because they saw him as a weretiger? Please?
Request?: yes Summery: The reader runs after Atsushi, as he lost control of his tiger form, getting hurt in the progress. Character?: Atsushi nakajima Genre: Angst to fluff
A/n: hi hi! Thank you so much for your request, it was different than most of them and I'm glad I made it! Please feel free to request more for it to be written in the near future. For now enjoy the fanfic! <3
All you could think about is ‘Run as fast as you can’.
You ran through the screaming crowd, trying to reach the one you love with all your heart. Atsushi and you have been assigned with a mission, it wasn’t a difficult mission at all, but someone had did their research on the agency and their members, and all it took was a little bit of information about Atsushi’s past to get him out of control.
He had fully turned into the were tiger without ever meaning to do so
“ATSUSHI!” You screamed for him, as you used your combat skills to get onto objects like trash cans, bus stations or even cars. You needed to calm him down before anything would happen to him.
You jumped over the cars, seeing him in the distance as you received a call from none other than kunikida.
“Y/N WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING OVER THERE?” You heard him scream, as you realised this is all being broadcasted, looking up as you saw the news helicopter fly above the two of you. ‘Shit.’ You muttered, as you speed up.
“Someone got sensitive information kunikida, He went out of control and almost killed the guy have they not gotten away since I stopped Atsushi.” You explained, your legs aching while you still speed up after Atsushi, hearing more screaming people of fright.
“SECURE THE AREA FOR ME OKAY THANKS BYE-“ You rushed the call before you heard kunikida scream on the other side.
You ran as fast as your legs could, as your eyes widen, seeing Atsushi about to attack. “ATSUSHI!” You screamed as you came in between the innocent people and the tiger that was about to attack. He couldn’t stop on time, as his claw made contact with your arms, giving it a nasty scratch mark.
You screamed out in pain and held onto your arm, whimpering slightly as you saw the blood and clothes being ripped off your body.
That’s definitely going to leave a nasty scar.
“Run!” You screamed at the innocent people, as they quickly scrammed, leaving you alone with a clearly distressed tiger. “Its okay baby its okay..” You whispered softly, holding your other hand out, treating him like a cat. “Its just me, your safe Atsushi..But you have to get control again.” You put a step forward, as him bumped his nose against your hand, smelling in the scent and his pupils dilated to a normal size again, as you heard whimpers come out of his mouth.
You slowly pet him with your good hand, as you squad down.
“We have to get out of here, can I ride your back?” You asked him as he nodded gently. You hopped onto his back, leaned forward and whispered, ‘Make sure to lose the helicopter first dear”
As you guys moved like the speed of light, going directly towards the Agency.
They immediately stood their ground, as Dazai and Kunikida came to your rescue. You were bleeding quite a lot on the floor as your vision began to blur because of the amount of blood you had lost by the wound that needed treatment this instant.
You heard screaming, Dazai nullifying Atsushi’s ability, Seeing the doctors coat of Yosano flash in front of you, as you slowly fade away out of consciousness.
As everything around you became black pool of darkness.
You woke up, slightly feeling your arm being sore, as you slowly opened your eyes to adjust at the light of the room. You groaned softly, as you felt a weight at the side of your bed. You looked down, seeing a sleeping Atsushi with red puffy eyes, sleep by your side.
A sharp pain in your side snapped you back in reality, as you realised you also had been bandaged by the side of your body.
“Your lucky it wasn’t something that touched our organs.” A sudden voice spoke as you were eye to eye with Yosano herself. “A shot like that could’ve been nasty if you weren’t here on time.” She stated, something that you nodded your head in agreement on. “He’s been worried about you, He basically cried like a small baby when I told him your state and that you were okay.” Yosano chuckled as you smiled gently, stroking his hair with the hand attached to the bandaged arm.
You heard him groan slightly, as yosano took that as a cue to get out of the room.
He slowly woke up, as you smiled softly at him, your hand on his cheek as you whispered softly. “Hi baby..” You let out a small smile as he started to cry again, His arms and body flopping on top of him.
“Y/N!!” He sobbed, as you groaned slightly but rubbed his back and kissed his cheek gently. “Right here dear..right here..” You smiled gently, as you cupped his face, making him look at you. “Oh Y/n Im so sorry I shouldn’t have lost control and that was just- he just-“ He stuttered, trying to get his words in the right context.
You kissed him gently, immediately shutting him up. “Its okay its okay trust me it is okay-“ You stated, as he still kept crying. You hugged him close, as you guys slowly calmed down together.
“We’ll train some more sushi, you need the emotions and those powers of yours under control.” You teased him as he kept crying.
“Okay- I love you”
“I love you too”
2/8
part 1 https://iami12.tumblr.com/post/667688635005534208/18
Seeing if I can feed this Fandom a bit more with an art I made for matching keychains 🫶
I offer you matching artwork for keychains I'm making of Arthur/Verlaine and Atsushi/Akutagawa 🤲
chapters 63, 78, 105 and 121.
and each time, Atsushi's reaction was to acknowledge Dazai's presence and be motivated by it:
but, now that the veil has been lifted, it's very easy to see that this Dazai hasn't been very nice in his approach at all. Here, let me help you visualise it a little:
Looking back, that Dazai's words were systematically accusatory and harsh, and if at the start his face resembled the man Atsushi knows, recently his expressions have turned dull and cold, much more reminiscent of what we've seen from the orphanage headmaster.
Yes, the headmaster was cruel. Yes, it was unfair. No, Atsushi didn't deserve any of it. He should have been protected, he has every right to despise that man and to feel all the conflicting feelings he has about it. But it happened. It happened, and he was shaped by it, and every step he takes as he makes his way through his new life has the echoes of the way that man raised him. He's making the choice not to let anyone go through what he has to if he can help it, but also makes him prone to self-sacrifice because of his lack of self-esteem.
Atsushi's been struggling hard since the Decay of Angels arc began, and the voice that's been motivating him whenever his determination waned has been the one of the man who raised and abused him hidden behind the mask of the one who brought him to his new home. It's fucked, and it worked.
Working through art block-
And Lucy phase is still going strong
So ta-da magical girl Lucy!
Me awaiting the next BSD chapter like :
pov: ur an Atsushi kinnie in a trio with an Akutagawa and Dazai kinnie, and you have to watch the exact same situation between BSD Akutagawa and Dazai play out irl
#why do akutagawa kinnies seek the love and approval of the dazai in their life so much </3
Every Atsushi kinnie needs an Akutagawa kinnie bestie 🫶
-an Atsushi kinnie currently missing their Akutagawa kinnie bestie
Atsushi Kinnie Callout - From an Atsushi Kinnie (Part 1)
I'm gonna be brutally honest here and projecting a lot so be warned fellow kinnies
1. You were taught that the worth of your life is determined by how much you help or benefit others
An important figure in your life (the orphanage “headmaster”) taught you that people who don’t help others with their existence do not deserve to live, and it would be better if they were dead.
The irony is, you only extend this belief to yourself, because you recognize that in extending it to others, you would be believing some other people do not deserve to live. And you recognize how cruel, terrible and wrong that is. Yet, you cannot see how cruel and terrible it is to yourself.
2. You have a huge savior complex
Since you believe the value of your life comes from how much you benefit others, you try to help people as much as you can. To others, it seems like you are a kind and selfless person, but deep down, you have two things motivating you:
• the suffocating fear of being unworthy of living if you aren't of any use to people around you
• the rush of "selfish” joy you feel when you have a great impact on someone, when you are the most important person to someone and are irreplaceable to them. Because these make you feel useful and worthy of living.
Because of these, you have the tendency to form codependent relationships, with you as the "giver". It ensures that someone always needs you, so you are always worthy of living. You may even become slightly manipulative, befriending and trying to become close to those who seem more in need of help, more isolated, more lonely.
Because they're more likely to need you, as desperately as you need to be needed.
3. You believe your kindness is fake, and that you are actually a selfish and terrible person
Because you help people out of the selfish motivation to make yourself feel better, so that you feel like you deserve to live more, you feel endlessly guilty. Because.. an actually kind person would help others, for others to be happy, not for themselves, right?
Additionally, since the belief that helping others gives you the permission to live was taught to you, you feel your kindness was a taught behavior as well. You feel that at your core, you are a selfish person who was just taught not to be, and that makes all the selfless actions you’ve done worthless. Maybe you approach caring for others in a calculating way: memorize their interests, check up on them, listen to them; these will make people happy.
4. Guilt is your primary emotion
Guilt for your existence, for your mistakes, for failing to help people, is the biggest driver of your emotions. Guilt controls your life, and it is an exhausting emotion to live with.
5. You care more about what’s inside than outside
You’re not concerned about other people or your appearances, reputations or social status, because how people treat others around them and their hearts is much more important to you.
6. You are stuck in the past
The belief that chains you to the cycle of guilt is one in your past. The headmaster in your life is gone now, but the flashbacks and words remain. Why is that? Is it because you became so used to them, that they kept you safe? They were all you ever knew, the only way you knew how to navigate the world. With no other guide, you are terrified of letting go of this belief, which defines your existence.
Maybe you are terrified, if you let go of this belief, you will become a terrible and selfish person. Or maybe you are scared of becoming better, because it would feel like your past never happened.
Okay thanks for reading! Will post part 2 when this gets 20+ notes :D
Atsushi Analysis - why I kin Atsushi Nakajima (and maybe why you kin him too)
From the moment I started watching Bungo Stray Dogs, I felt a huge connection to and related a lot to Atsushi, and it’s the reason he is still one of my favorite characters to this day. But reading other people’s analysis of Atsushi, though they are wonderful, I didn’t feel like they quite captured how I connected to him. So I am posting this in the hope someone will feel similarly to me and be able to relate! :D
starting with episode 1, the first scene that struck me was Atsushi’s flashbacks:
I did not grow up in an orphanage, and my past is nowhere near as terrible as Atsushi’s, but a parental figure (the ‘headmaster’ in my life) had spoken to me like this in the past, and their words continued to haunt me almost everyday, or when something triggered them. What shook me was that Atsushi’s flashbacks were almost identical to the words that would attack me often in my head.
“You’re useless.”
“Worthless.”
“Stupid.”
“You should just die.” “It would be better if you were dead.” (If you relate to this, I’m sending you the biggest virtual hug <3 no one deserves to think these thoughts, and they are so wrong.)
2. The way Atsushi hugged his legs when he was upset was exactly how I sat when I was upset.
3. The test to join the Armed Detective Agency
To save everyone from the bomb, Atsushi covered it with his own body, thinking it would kill him but protect everyone else.
At the time I watched BSD for the first time, I genuinely believed my life was worth less than others’. Therefore, as a logical choice, I would have done exactly the same thing as Atsushi. If my life was worth less than others’, then I was the logical sacrifice.
4. The worth of Atsushi’s Life
in the episode when Atsushi fights Kyouka, we find out the belief that the headmaster instilled in Atsushi: that Inconveniencing/not benefitting others means he doesn’t deserve to live, while saving (or helping) others means he deserves to live.
Simply put, Atsushi believes the worth of his life comes from how much he helps and benefits others.
and that is exactly the same belief my parental figure taught me.
By trying to save/help others, Atsushi seeks the permission to live, to exist. Maybe, if he helps just one more person, if he has a big enough impact on someone, then he’ll finally be free of the guilt he feels for existing. But it is a never ending cycle, because there’s no finish line for his race. How many people, exactly, does he have to “save” for him to be worthy of existing? He lives in never ending guilt, never ending fear, that the amount he has helped is not enough for him to live. The truth is, the number of people he saves will never be enough until he confronts his twisted belief.
5. Atsushi vs Akutagawa
this is the moment Atsushi confronts the belief he was taught that how much he helps others determines his right to live. He realizes through the injustice of Kyouka’s situation that others don’t get to decide if someone is worthy of living. Because everyone is worthy of life, including Kyouka, and so including Atsushi as well.
And watching this, I realized it with him. The ‘headmaster’ in my life didn’t get to decide how much I deserved to live. No one did. Everyone has the same right to live.
so if you related to this post, you deserve to live too. Not because you help others, because your life is valuable and precious, without you doing anything at all. <3
have a photo of my Atsushi plushie cuz I love him sm <3 thanks for reading!
hiihii tiktok getting deleted take my art ! i am atsushi and also sskk number 1 fan
its 10pm here which is still christmas time so i can still post this. happy holidays from the detective agency
(parody of that one My Hero Academia Christmas omake)
i was watching serial experiments lain and i thought "her hair kinda looks like atsushis" so uhm.
(ignore the random side profile) i hate it he looks like a mosquito
BABY BYAKKO SUPREMACY?!??!
Do you think it would have been cool if Atsushi's white tiger aged with him as he grew up
Atsushi drawing I did on a bit of cardboard
My fucking heart.
So uh- just got into the fandom really- read the whole manga (that’s out) in 2 weeks just finishing today and uh- fuck-
Just a small bit of my up coming BSD soukoku one shot, "Restocking & Recharging," that makes me giggle🖤🖤
Here are some Odango, Fukufuku and ranpoe comics/drawings I've made. I just love the "two gay dads" trope.
Translation for the first one:
Dazai: I'd like to introduce you to my parents
Ango: We are not your parents-
Oda: Hi
Atsushi: So you're our grandparents?
~Don't look at me with those eyes
You dazzle me
You break me down
Don't look at me with those eyes
I give you everything
Whatever... ~
Song: Impacto / Enjambre
First time posting anything here! Here are some of my bsd drawings because the hyperfixation is hitting hard and I really wanted to share them :D
#We love camping
