tw - unusual ways of sh please read at your own risk.
a/n - this is very bad but i need to feed y'all.
there have been moments when all you want to do was stop breathing. but you have too much to do and too many people who rely on you. so, you settle for hurting yourself instead.
tonight is one of those nights. sitting on your bathroom floor, you pull at your hair and bite your own arms. you taste blood.
tears fall from your eyes as you fall on the floor from exhaustion. you need to clean yourself up. he's supposed to come over in fifteen minutes.
and so, with a shaky sigh, you get up off the cold tile and rinse the blood off your arm. it kind of hurts but also feels kind of nice. it makes you feel kind of alive.
your gaze slowly looks up to the mirror and is met with what most would call an absolute trainwreck. "what a disgusting sight," you think.
your gaze moves back towards the floor as you finish washing the blood off. removing your arms from under the faucet, you look at the bite marks that adorn your arm. it almost makes you feel proud.
fingers trail across the marks as you exit the bathroom to find bandaids. or some gauze. or somthing.
but, much to your dismay, he is standing right outside the bathroom door. your eyes widen with panic as you stare at him. as you look up at him, his eyes meet yours.
"darling... this is getting out of hand," he murmurs. pulling you close, he looks at the damage you've done to yourself. his brows furrow with worry as he sees just how bad it is.
"i.. i'm sorry.." you mutter. it makes your heart hurt every time he sees you like this. it's not the first time he's had to help you after a breakdown.
"don't apologize."
"but you have to deal with me. i'm an adult. you shouldn't have to take care of me."
"i don't take care of you because i have to, darling. i do it because o want to." and with that, he pulls you into a tight embrace. his face buries in the crook of your neck as he goes on: "and i want to because you are my everything. not just my world, but my cosmos."
a lump forms in your throat as he rambles his love for you.
"i love you," you sigh as your voice breaks. a shaky breath leaves your lips as you cry into his shoulder.
"i love you too," he whispers.
the rest of the night is then spent with you curled up in his arms, watching a movie, and him whispering little 'i love you's every chance he gets.
bonus:
"why'd you come over so early anyways?"
"cause i left my razor..."
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a/n - sorry i was gone guys my depression got really bad :p
he laid on the bed. the buzzing of the fan made him sick to his stomach. wrappers and clothes and cups and pages were thrown all about his room. his own mind held him back.
the days felt like a time paradox. the hours felt like torture. the minutes felt like hell. the seconds felt like death.
he needed something to hold on to. anything. just a tiny bit of hope. he needed something to pull him out of his own head. anything. just a hand to pull him out of that train wreck.
that was, until you came along.
the second his eyes fell upon you, it was almost like a weight was lifted off his shoulders. he could breathe. he could see a hopeful light.
for once in his life, the storm clouds dispersed and a rainbow began to shine through. it was like you were his saving grace.
years passed and tears passed. keeping the storm away was hard for him at times. but he held you close.
he held you tight in his arms, feeling like he had a home. somewhere and someone to lean on. someplace to go back to when things got hard. something he needed for so long.
he muttered softly: “i will never let you go.”
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on the other side of that metaphorical one-way mirror, is a trembling little boy. is a fearful child.
he's so scared. so scared they'll see past the facade he puts on to imitate those around him. so scared they'll see his true self.
that mirror is the only thing about him that shows confidence.
but then he meets you.
you're the only one who can see through as if it's a window. you're the only one who can hold that small child and tell him it's okay.
please.. just tell him it's okay..
RANPO, ango, poe, kokichi, UZUI, giyuu, and any of your falsely confident favorites!
Looking in the mirror is pain.
His acne-ridden face. His shaggy, greasy, unkept hair. His teeth that look like creamed corn.
Every time he looks in the mirror, it's like a monster staring back.
or at least that's what he sees.
What you see is beauty.
It's so easy for you to get lost in his eyes. His long, slender fingers that are perfect for hand holding. His soft, red lips that kiss you tenderly.
Every time you look at him, all you see is perfection.
POE, ranpo, GIYUU, obanai, and any of your self-deprecating favorites!
take your time and feel better :)
Hiatus. 
a/n- bbg chuuya is on his way i promise
marina and the ada (pt 1)
cw - implied p*edophilia (by mori) in yosano’s
kunikida
“all my life, i’ve been fighting for what i believe”
a man so utterly obsessed with his ideals
but the world won’t ever align with them
he can’t help but feel that his ideal world is only make believe. he can’t help but feel that that the only why to truly live in a world of his ideals is the world in his dreams.
ranpo
“if you are not very careful, your possessions will posses you. tv taught me how to feel; now real life has no appeal”
he is the world’s greatest detective. he has the world’s greatest mind. and he knows it.
he spent all his life thinking that everyone was just as smart as he is. but he was wrong.
now, he has to stop himself every time. what he thinks is obvious cannot be said. that is what he was taught.
and when one is constantly trying to mask their true self, depression is inevitable.
yosano
“why be a wallflower when you can be a venus fly trap?”
she never had the chance to be a little girl. she had to learn to fight back.
when she worked as a nurse in the war, she had to be smart. she had to be snarky to deal with his advances.
and so, that’s how she grew up: a snarky, smart, serious girl.
2 more spouses and sigma'll be henry the eighth
Umm this is the family tree I know so far
I can’t remember all of Sigma’s spouses names and Fyodor said he had more children and didn’t give me names..
Ah, this is an excellent start. Hopelessbluebird also got married to Bram at some point, and Aya is part of the Bram family as well.
And @suru1990 is one of my adopted children as well.
reblog!! it very well could be the reason someone lives!
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everything happens for a reason
everything he went through. the darkness that he felt. the fear and anguish that consumed his soul.
it was all so that one day he could meet you.
on that fateful day, he was standing on that rooftop; he was about to take his own life.
that's when you showed up.
"please.. don't do this.."
words of kindness and... love...? words he had never experienced before. words that made him turn away.
tears rolled down your face as you tried to make the man step away from the ledge. he saw those tears. and he thought of what would happen if this teary-eyed bystander watched as he plummeted to his death.
and in that moment, you became his saving grace.
a/n - i really hate how this turned out but i have to feed y'all so.. DAZAI, poe GIYUU, nagito, shigaraki, and any of your self-destructive favorites
𝕓𝕖𝕖 | 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪/𝕤𝕙𝕖/𝕙𝕖/𝕩𝕖 | 𝕒𝕦𝕥𝕚𝕤𝕞 + 𝕒𝕕𝕙𝕕 | 𝟙𝟝 𝕪/𝕠ℍ𝕚! 𝕄𝕪 𝕟𝕒𝕞𝕖 𝕚𝕤 𝔹𝕖𝕖! 𝕀 𝕖𝕟𝕛𝕠𝕪 𝕨𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟, 𝕔𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕣𝕥, 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕕o𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕣 𝕘𝕦𝕒𝕣𝕕! 𝕊𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕞𝕪 𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕚𝕒𝕝 𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕤 𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕝𝕦𝕕𝕖: - 𝔸𝕟𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕄𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕒 - 𝕄𝕦𝕤𝕚𝕔 - 𝔸𝕣𝕥 - 𝕄𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕪𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕗𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕟𝕖𝕕 𝕡𝕠𝕤𝕥 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕗𝕗𝕤
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