Another! And Without Pain This Time

i had a dream i had to go past a group of children of the forest and i wasnt able to safely. but this girl i had a huge crush on freshman year could talk to them and let us pass? she was their “patron saint” and they loved her. thanks girl!

stop complaining about the professor because YOU cant walk far and YOU are hungry. YOU are only here cause you wanted an excuse to party in a place you have romanticized preconceived notions about, so shut up. youre a loser, i came here to learn. partying is great, i love partying, but if it is your sole reason for going to a new place, you have some serious rethinking to do.

unlike instagram this is not burdened by watchful eyes and my second guesses of “i want to post this, but dont want X or Y to see it”

she and i both leave each other again and again knowing full well we are very likely going to see and do things with other people. said people and experiences occupy her mind as well as mine. does this mean we are just that confident in our paths crossing once more, or that we simply dont care that much about each other? havent figured this out. maybe both.

sometimes i wish i was cat or a raccoon, they probably dont worry about this sort of thing. or maybe a toucan, i think i would make a good toucan.

i know quite a few people who would benefit from something akin to this

i dont listen to CAKE much, i dont even really like them. but that one song, Short Skirt/Long Jacket…. they described my type PERFECTLY. fun song

i only feel real attraction to people who also rock climb and/or read books. neither of those types of people are normal. maybe im projecting withthat statement (i am), but why cant i just be normal and satisfied? o_0

fighting to urge to grow out my hair very very long again. i know for a fact i look better with shorter hair but i love how long hair looks sometimes

never mind now its just miserable and depressing. it needs to be summer

today was a rare day. i had fun in the winter because of the weather. seeing a forest covered in snow is something that has only happened to me a few times before, i got to walk on ice too which i have only done once before. the edges and more curved parts of the reservoir turned into little magical groves. the silence is also really nice. maybe this winter will be peaceful and kind. also interesting- the closer i got back towards people, buildings, cars etc it got noticeably warmer, but standing in the middle of a frozen lake is COLD! my mind went to how the brothers of the nights watch must feel going beyond the wall. i think if i got over hating the cold i would totally be ok in the nights watch.

we both draw from the bananagrams pile and our hands touch…. i look into your eyes and you look into mine, entranced and in love