Light Academia This Dark Academia That; There Is One Real Academia And It’s Made Of Rubber Dusts, Papercuts

not to be dramatic but! my bedroom windows!

one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

250108

song of the day: metamodernity- vansire

very chilly day today. my life flashed before my eyes too many times to count. why is my campus on an icy hill.

research: finished citations for my article and submitted it for editing. started the outline for my next article. bugged my team about finding our introduction for our paper (it has been over a month). sent out a few emails to profs.

academics: finished some online lab training courses for my upcoming synthetic biology lab workshops. am very excited!

selfcare: learned a little bit about game design. i know next to nothing about coding but i have to learn it eventually. ordered myself a very nice and comforting hot meal.

tomorrow's goal: i need to start doing reading assignments before i fall behind. i'll try to finish my pre labs before labs start next week.

notes: i didn't post for the past few days as i was quite stressed about my program. i was debating transferring to engineering, even transferring to another school. but i've figured it out so it's all good now.

hi!! any youtube chemistry channels recommendations?

Hello, I definitely do have some!

Something more theoretical:

Three Twentysix: positively one of my favorite yt channels ever, so many interesting concepts explained simply but also in depth at the same time. Highly recommended!

Periodic videos: they have a video for each of the elements but they also talk about all sorts of different chemistry things + The Professor is really funny (and rn is the perfect time to watch their video on the emerald Christmas tree :))

Chemistorian for some history of chemistry as the name suggests

Not a channel but The Royal Institution's playlist on chemistry

More in-lab action and syntheses:

NileRed (obviously. How could I possibly not include him)

ChemicalForce for the more explosive and dangerous (and cool!!) side of chemistry

Explosions&Fire who is absolutely hilarious and whose content I'd recommend even to non-chemists

Chemiolis if you're into organic synthesis

Apoptosis where you can get both organic and inorganic

Simons Nuclearchemistry: what it says on the tin

Honorable mention:

Reactions which I'd say is the most pop-science-y on this list but I think it can be fun especially if you're new to chemistry :)

drops them in a gothic horror au

thank you for tagging me, @sugaredpastille <3

last song: laura plays the piano- akira yamaoka

fav color: (dark) green

last book: life sculpted- anthony j. martin

last film: crimson peak- 2015

last tv show: hannibal (nbc)- 2013

sweet/spicy/savory: savory but i also like sweet

relationship status: single and yearning

last thing i googled: "why r code being stupid"

current obsessions: coffee rings in notebooks, flake stickers, soft cookies. mashed potatoes. cute small oranges.

looking forward to: next semester and having half the day free to make my notes pretty with new stickers! (i shoved my lectures all in the mornings)

i tag @h0n3ym00n333, @lizziesnook

250122

6/100 days of productivity

song of the day: zwitter- rammstein

finished my physics notes and almost done my research application. finished my chemistry and biology pre labs. attended a very interesting symposium by one of my professors who works at NASA about how her team got the first picture of a black hole (M87* & Sgr A*) and other facts about supermassive black holes. never regretting coming to this school ever again.

“Until it’s done tell none”

Your life is what you make it.

Winter is cold for those who do not have warm memories

250217/26

30-39/100 days of productivity

song of the week: b2b-charli xcx

it's been over a week since i last posted. i have been so stressed for my calculus midterm. i did over 250 integrals in five days, staying up until 4 am every day or not sleeping at all. my physics midterm got pushed to after the break so now i have three midterms back to back.

just had my calculus midterm last night and it honestly did not go well. this past week leading up to and after my exam definitely took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally which undoubtedly affected my exam. but i'm going to try and stay motivated for my other classes and get a better mark on the calculus final.

i have so many lab reports and proposals to write now but at least reading week is next week and i'll be going home to see the sun.

pictures:

walking home after my midterm

6 am after studying all night

integrals on the classroom blackboard at 3 am (the janitor forgot to lock the door)

practice questions an hour before my midterm with friends