Latest Posts by blu3berry4non - Page 5

I would shit myself… This is rather a taco bell for me…

EXPOSING @f3ntime

As a woman, I've gained the right to speak since 1942. This goes also for the right to speak over my own body. I won't allow this. #MeToo.

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That's going too far, man…

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FUCK. I HAVE NO COMEBACK… BUT MAMA DIDN'T RAISE A LIAR SO… SUCK MY ASS MWAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAH

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YOU CAN'T IMPORT A PICTURE IN INSPECT

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YEAH SURE, BUDDY, WHY DOES IT HAVE YOUR NAME, HUH? EXPLAIN THAT.

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That's fine! One-on-one convo's are more comfortable than all this in public lol. ^^"

welcome back, eldritch being :)

Hello person from the Christian community. How has life been faring?

I'm so relieved to hear you say that!<3 I've lost a lot of friends in the span of less than a half year… And it's brutal. I've lost almost all of my motivation (for everything), I turned myself into an insomniac to the point it's nearly inevitable for me not to stay up late (I could swallow 5 melatonin pills and it wouldn't have an effect ;-;), and I'm just desperate at this point. But yeah, life happens. Shit happens. Can't exactly get out of it. I'm actually glad you don't think any less of me. I honestly thought that people (who weren't involved) would react exactly the same way the people who discarded me like that. I really despise the feeling of people leaving me. And I really want to thank @blue-bird251 for still accepting me after the incident. I'm truly grateful for the both of you (you also, @weirddreamer)! I'll try my best to mold myself into someone you're comfortable with, even if that means I'll have to be a little less silly. I can manage that, I'm sure. :J And do you want to talk about your experience? I'm all ears if you want me to.

welcome back, eldritch being :)

Hello person from the Christian community. How has life been faring?

Oh.. This is me currently.

welcome back, eldritch being :)

Hello person from the Christian community. How has life been faring?

welcome back, eldritch being :)

Hello person from the Christian community. How has life been faring?

Hang in there. :)

Major comeback. Missed me? :)

welcome back blueberry anon

OMG I wanna make Raspberry genderfluid though… I feel like Raspberry is the chaotic, genderfluid (she/he) that torments Blackberry with her chaotic-ness.

@weirddreamer I drew banana

Creating a fruit basket! (wip, adding more) I might actually write a story for them.

Banana has his fiancé now. 🥰 She's my cutie…

@weirddreamer I drew banana

I need a fruit to make emo… I'm considering Blackberry, but if you have suggestions for another fruit, I'll take it.

@weirddreamer I drew banana

@weirddreamer I drew banana

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Blueberry Anon

I tried to but I can't really express what I mean since I'm not English. (Edit: Well, I'm fluent in English, but I remember I was really tir

I decided to just… fuck it all… and explain myself.

Fellow anon what happened?

I don't wanna elaborate, really…

Can't you just hear the microwave whirring coming from that head? You're so sweet<3 Thanks for understanding.

this is a gift for @blu3berry4non, (for some reason it wouldn’t let me send it in their inbox??????) but yea…

Sorry this took so long :(

I'm slowly getting back online… Staying away from here is a lot harder than you can imagine, really. I've missed you all even though you may or may not like me anymore. I care way too much, though, so be easy on me…

I tried to but I can't really express what I mean since I'm not English. (Edit: Well, I'm fluent in English, but I remember I was really tired at that moment so my brain was already in jumbles.) I think I also offended someone because of that. I wanted to be smooth, trying to use the words that might make them relate though it wasn't worded the way I meant it. And I didn't even have the time to fully explain myself without getting a cold shoulder. THIS WAS REALLY HARD ON ME, PEOPLE. I'm just really bad with interacting with people and since this incident I've been scared to interact with people online, too. Imagine getting so insecure to the point of trying to make friends online triggers your social anxiety, haha! I'm just socially awkward and I was trying to make people like me by acting tough and cool… I guess bloody tampons are a sensitive topic? Like women menstruate? Is that so bad? Is nature, how it has been going since, what, 10000b.c too much for you? You know what? Whatever. I could ramble about how shitty things have been and how this all came to be the way it is now. I'm done pretending like I'm the one being at fault whilst I STILL DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG. (Edit: Was angry.)

I'm a voluntary swimming teacher for children between 5-12 and we had a mandatory schooling on how to do it when you find yourself in this or that situation. I had my period. My period came very inconveniently in contrast to that mandatory schooling, and so it was my first time using a tampon. When I was done, me and my childhood friend from when I was 2 (24y/o, female) were in the dressing stalls (she had recommended me to work for her and her crew, which I accepted after the trials), and I couldn't place my tampon anywhere without leaving smudges. I saw this hook on the wall where you could hang your clothes on, and hung my tampon with the string there. It's not normal to do that so I was laughing so dryly at it for like a half hour straight. My childhood friend was enjoying my reaction from her stall, too. I took a picture because the way it just hung there on a hook that was made for hanging clothes NOT tampons was so silly and so funny to me. It was new and funny to me. And I like to share my silly and funny experiences solely to talk about it and how much of a weird goober I am. In this case, I wasn't expressive enough, apparently, because people started dropping out of the servers and blocking me all of a sudden. (Edit: GUYS I think FR I'm schizophrenic, my mind filled in the gaps I forgot. I CLEARLY remember writing a thorough explanation, but I DIDN'T. It happened yesterday, too. I was packing my bag for school and I thought I had packed my German book since I had looked at it and read the words 'Neue Kontakte' (name of the method we use), I turned my room upside down to find my Dutch book, couldn't find it. (Which I later on the day found out was the German book I initially thought was in my bag) and the German book was the book I left at home (apparently, I CLEARLY REMEMBER PACKING IT.) I might have schizophrenia or I'm suffering from early dementia… This is the third time this happened to me. (EDIT TO THE EDIT: I JUST FOUND OUT THOSE ARE CALLED PSEUDO-MEMORIES AND I'M READING AN ARTICLE ABOUT IT SO I CAN FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET RID OF THESE WEIRDASS MEMORIES. (Edit to another edit's edit: I have hallucinations and pseudo-memories. Diagnosed myself; daughter of a psychologist. (can't exactly say for sure but I am trippin over here, that's certain.))

I mean, how bad at expressing could I be mess this up? I was stressing waaaay too much because I knew I had made someone uncomfortable. And this person below wasn't even one of the people I sent that image to, so I freaked out when I read that. Those were the only words I could come up with after experiencing TWICE an anxiety attack on the same day. (Edit: Feeling the lingering anxiety rn, but I'm a blunt, quite impulsive bitch so I couldn't left this feeling unnoticed without making things clear for people.) :

"I'm a little autistic about it." I meant that I'm quite oblivious to boundaries, I just cannot see them for unknown reasons. My mom is a psychologist, she had told me that people with ASD often can't read the situation. It isn't the best explanation, that I'm aware, but… I was trying to find common grounds to make explaining things easier… I couldn't even think clear, let alone come up with a decent response, because I was panicking, panicking, panicking, and once again, PANICKING. I was about to say I was sorry when… Blocked. Yeah, I could kiss my chances goodbye. At that point I just felt hollow, numb even. (Edit: this is what I meant with 'offending someone'.)

I was panicking. Like really, severely panicking. This person was the only person to talk to me normally and not block me… So I tried closing everything off to calm down and come back later to explain myself… Or so I thought.

Yeah, that was when it didn't sit right with me anymore and called it quits. The last straw, you could say.

I'm sorry for ranting and venting but I've just about had it. I really enjoy being interactive with people as Blueberry Anon, but it's been such a mental drain that I'm fucking up my school career. I'm so tired of being excluded solely because I'm bad at expressing whatever I am, and fitting into… Whatever 'society' means. Big 'go cry about it' moment rn, guys.

And now I announce, with a big sigh, the conclusion: I'm just silly, guys. Silly, inexpressive, and someone who just wants to be a fun person. Not someone who has to run away for something as trivial as this. Seriously. (I can't exactly say run, though. If my reaction follows the flee, fight, freeze and fawn psychology… I would be ostrich.)

Then again, sorry for the long text! Sorry for venting. Sorry for being angry, pathetic, being silly even. Sorry for the inconvenience. And I'm especially sorry for being me!

(My laptop crashed and I was so scared this wasn't saved because I SPENT MORE THAN AN HOUR ON THIS WHILE I SHOULD BE STUDYING. The stress of it all, guys, the stress of it all. T⋏T)

this is a gift for @blu3berry4non, (for some reason it wouldn’t let me send it in their inbox??????) but yea…

Sorry this took so long :(

They didn't force me! I just send them a picture of something that disturbed them, whilst I thought it was pretty funny. I'm too ashamed of myself to face this website with these people on here as Blueberry and I certainly don't wanna disturb them any further. :(

this is a gift for @blu3berry4non, (for some reason it wouldn’t let me send it in their inbox??????) but yea…

Sorry this took so long :(

Fellow anon what happened?

I don't wanna elaborate, really…

HI! I know some people don't want me on here, but I can't help myself to sometimes check up on people here (because I miss being a part of the community every day). I'm near vomiting the food I just ate when I'm writing this because I'm so nervous… ^^" Some people don't want me on here anymore. But this one I just couldn't pass. Thanks so much for making this! I'm really happy! Bye again1

this is a gift for @blu3berry4non, (for some reason it wouldn’t let me send it in their inbox??????) but yea…

Sorry this took so long :(

Guess what exists people?

YES YOU WILL

draw yaoi

-soggy anon

Only if I regain status of bestie

If you look at it now it's just very obvious

But wouldn't SF, the scaredy cat, be too scared to commit anything? He's already scared of everything. Just a shaking bunch of hopelessness. :( (Unless there's hope we don't know of? Maybe visiting a PTSD clinic?)

I saw your stream, and I have a theory, does Bloodmoss think SF is gonna kill himself or something and that’s why she holds on to him so much? Or is she like really attached to him to the point of feeling hope less without him? Idk im just theorizing.

you’re not safe

WHY DO THESE EYES LOOK SO LUSTFUL. THEY LOOK LIKE THEY WANT HUMAN FLESH- Whoever has these eyes, hmu.

BLUEBERRY

CAN I GIVE YOU A BANANA BESTIE

YES