03/25/2025

04/02/2025

Today is one of those days when I woke up feeling weird, sat with that discomfort, and things turned out quite ok. Not feeling my best, but got some good news, and the day got better =)

Hope you are somewhere in the world having a great day 🩵

Completed

✅ School ✅ Part-time job ✅ See clients ✅ Research meeting ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner ✅ Group project 2 paper ✅ Check and reply to school emails ✅ Partial clinic notes (I'll finish the rest tmr 😴)

[Ended at 12:35am] Wrapping up earlier today and I know I deserve it. Been working hard all week and I can finally chill a little (before I have full weekend of training lol) Did my best today and I think maybe doing the bare minimum wouldn't hurt me once in a while. Good night 🩵

Nothing better than having my dog next to me while I am working hard on my thesis 🩵

P.S. Technically I asked for a cat but got chosen by a dog. I call it fate.

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

A big thank you to Morgan S, who created this collage!!

I saved this for a while and just noticed Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs in the bottom left corner. I have been so focused on channeling my masculine energy this whole week that I didn't realize I was crushing myself from outside in. My anxiety has been at an all-time high (kind of a symptom toward the end of each semester). Not fun! I'm still working on doing better each semester, but it's hard when the ADHD and anxiety get mixed together, and I become terrified and frozen in place.

Had a long conversation with my best friend last night about how it's time to relax into ourselves and live in peace, regardless of how chaotic life might seem at times. I allowed myself to sleep and wake up later today, and I felt the difference immediately. My anxious thoughts quieted down, and I was able to live a little more carefree.

I mean, life is not the best right now, but I am making each day a little better, a little gentler to myself.

Feels like it is time to slow down a bit in order to walk further down this journey. It sounds counter intuitive, but I know it works because it has before. I just need to trust the journey and trust the Universe to provide me the support and safety I need right now.

Sending healing vibes to everybody reading this 🩵

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

You got this!!! (which exactly 20 minutes before the day ends for me)

Another day, another progress post 🩵

04/05/2025

I just want a freaking free day!!! 😤 Do you ever get so tired of studying and school that you don't know how you're going to last another 30 days?? That's why I am right now. I can't. I just can't right now.

I so want to just say f it and go take a break for a day, but I also feel like I can't. I also don't work like most people, and nighttime is my friend. But then, I can't even enjoy a relaxing night because I need to do work... Make it make sense. Why do I feel punished in society simply by being a night owl? That's not fair.

Grievances aside, only 1 more day of this workshop, and I seriously still don't know how much I'm learning. I'm not sure if this will feel worth it in the end. Maybe I need to reevaluate tomorrow morning before I decide to go.

Me feeling angry (also exhausted and frustrated) at the whole world rn:

Completed

✅ Full-day workshop ✅ Check and respond to emails ✅ Clinic note revision ✅ Grocery shopping ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner and snacks ✅ Watch Me Before You (I cried my eyes out for this 😭) ✅ Phone call with parents ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Add article summaries to class notes ✅ Read research articles for thesis (30 minutes - that's all the energy I have for today) ✅ Shower (finally!!!)

To-Dos

I cut out some original plans cause I overestimated how much energy I had lol. Full-day workshop is a energy-drainer... Time for bed 😴

03/18/2025

I've never been a person who studies or works on her couch, but I finally understand why people love it. It feels so wonderful and heartwarming to be cozied up next to my dog who is having his little dreams while I try to finish my assignments close to midnight. I feel so much like a doting mom enjoying the simple presence of her kids. After everything that has happened in the past week, I cannot be more grateful to be relaxing on the couch with my dog by my side =)

Completed

✅ First day back to school (the anxiety and anticipation almost killed me the night before lol)

✅ Completed work tasks at my part-time job

✅ Organized my work desk

✅ Cleaned up the mess my dog made at home while I was at school

✅ Randomly called my parents to say hi =)

✅ Revised 2 client notes based on feedback

✅ Finished writing 2 client notes

I am finally wrapping up my schoolwork at 1:17am! Now I just need to pack my lunch for tomorrow and then wake up at 6:30am for school at 8am =") Wish me luck 🍀

Have a restful night, lovely humans 🩵

03/31/2025

So... apparently, I got a couple of nondisplaced rib fractures from the accident. I told people, and they didn't believe me. But my body knows. She knows what's up.

Completed

✅ Breakfast

✅ Listen to Jay Shetty's podcast with Benny Blanco

✅ Check and reply to school emails

✅ Follow up with medical stuff

✅ Call insurance

✅ Meet with group member for project 1

✅ Therapy

✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama!

✅ Group project 1 paper (5 hours? too long to count...)

✅ Group project 1 presentation slides

✅ Group project 1 handout

✅ Group project 1 exam questions

To-Dos

DONE!

Song I ended on 🎧: Out of My Mind - NOEL (I literally heard the song saying "I think I'm losing it" as I closed out my last assignment 💀)

[Ended at 2:35am] My group project has so many parts that I cannot believe I just finished all of these tasks 😭 My teammate was goat. She stayed awake working with me the whole night. Now I just need to take a shower and let my body relax cause I'm in pain...

Took me a while to get back in my groove, but I am grateful for this journey with supportive people so far 🩵

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

I don't know what it is. But I'm getting sick and tired of complaining. If you do that, that's fine; just don't tell me unless I am mentally relaxed or I ask you how you're doing. No offense to people who use venting to express their emotions in a healthy and productive way (I mean, I do that occasionally too). I just can't take it when I'm also getting stressed out and overwhelmed. It's more from childhood socialization so I am actively keeping myself in check for not judging over talking down on people who do that.

I think these two quotes just summarize why I need my peace. I find myself more tolerable to stress and the load of work I need to do in my life when I acknowledge that it sucks and move on. It is what it is!! And all I can do is do my part, try my best, and live another day 🩵

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Some study motivation before I start my day 🩵

Something that made me happy today =)