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I'm starting to get serious about my senior thesis, so I've decided to upload my concepts for my piece, here is the main female for it :D aint she perrdy?
Lookie lookie :D my junior animation completed :D
Dude why do I gotta be educated… like bro how did I fuck around and end up taking a thesis. Fuck me bro.
03/25/2025
Tired school days pass by the quickest... Finally sitting in front of my laptop at 10pm to do more schoolwork (according to my planner), and once again, I wonder how my brain wandered off to a different space and time since 6pm.
Current mood 🙃:
Completed
✅ Doctor's appointment
✅ Classes
✅ Part-time job
✅ Food
✅ 30-min nap with my dog
✅ Randomly listened to an audiobook ad on YouTube for 1 hour...
✅ Clinic note
✅ New semester survey
✅ Check school email and reply
✅ Group project highlight
✅ Group paper section outline
To-Dos (still...)
⏹️ At least 1 hour of thesis writing
Venting: It's hard to not feel disappointed in myself for not working on any actual thesis writing in the past 2 days, especially when I keep telling myself that today is the day. I seriously just want my brain to not run away from my thesis because I feel like time is running out. I'm so exhausted both physically and mentally at this point that I just want to sleep for a whole day before doing anything. But I'm not sure if this is actually feasibly. I just feel so stuck in my brain right now that I just want to dump all my anxiety and fears out so my mind can shut up and do the actual work. Why is it so hard??? Ugh, and now I feel like I am not being kind to myself... But I really need to complain a bit. Life has been rough recently with school and it's not something that someone can solve for me.
03/24/2025
I updated my semester planner over the weekend and am ready to refocus my time and energy to finish my 4th semester in this program.
I was caught up with time-sensitive tasks and reworking my planner again for most of today, but I promised my accountability buddy that I would work on my thesis at least a little. I need to remind myself that:
It is never too late to start a task; it is never a failure to revise a plan.
I can't say for sure that I come back stronger each time. But I know I come back wiser and more rested with every setback.
Completed
✅ Scheduled medical appointment (finally!)
✅ Read all school emails and replied
✅ Updated semester planner for the next 1.5 weeks (for 2 group projects)
✅ Updated calendar to work on group projects and thesis
✅ Wrote a personal article
✅ Therapy session
✅ Did laundry
✅ Find PPT slide for group project
Thesis Tasks
✅ Updated thesis writing schedule for this week
✅ Review advisor's feedback on thesis draft
✅ Made 1 correction (I skimmed through an article for this so I'm calling it a win)
Today's study concluded at 1:24am.
Study Music 🎧:
"The House of Wind | Magical Night Under the Starts with ACOTAR Spring Court Ambience" - Prythian on YouTube
Day 2 End
Wow... what a day.
I'm finally calling it and getting ready for bed (maybe quietly read a couple chapters of my new fated lovers book on my phone).
I feel like I did quite a bit but also not writing enough to meet my schedule. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Am I overestimating how much I can do each day or week to meet my goal at the end of the semester? I really hope not. I really need to finish this thesis proposal so I am not behind (also not having to pay for another semester of thesis credits...) Money is definitely on the line.
My hope is that I can start tracking my wins and knowing that it will be ok in the end.
Day 1 End
I'm so proud of myself!
I actually did some thesis writing tonight. It took me a little bit to start, but I think I have a clearer direction now that I know it is just small blocks that build up my entire paragraph, and then making up a section.
Tracking my progress is nice. Thanks for this space!