Born To Be...
Born to be...
I have so much to say, But I'm afraid words wouldn't be enough. Actually, I'm afraid of a lot of things. Possibly everything. Everything but one.
I'm afraid of love. I've only learned how to hate myself, So how could I possibly learn to love If I hate myself too much? No matter how good I feel, Whether I'm told I'm beautiful or gorgeous, In the end, I only know how to criticise myself.
I'm afraid of laughter. Do you laugh at me? Or do you laugh at someone else? Is it true or fake? It's much too easy to fake, And reassess choices once made. I can switch moods in the matter of seconds. You probably wouldn't recognise who I was when I shift.
I'm afraid of life. You can make so many mistakes, Fall so many times. Once of them might change your life for better or for worse. That's why I criticise myself. That's why I can't choose choices, But to choose perfection that I despise so dearly.
But I'm not afraid of Death. It's so small, yet so crucial. I don't understand why people are afraid of it. It's coming, so why not face it head on? Is such a fear why most turn to religion and faith? To reconcile themselves that they will be safe? If so, then so be it. As long as it doesn't hurt one's reason to live, Then I'll respect that opinion.
All I want is to breathe in a world, A world that can take it's time and move forward. Not backwards. So, though I'm afraid of a lot of things, I'll continue to see the stories beyond my own. Because that's what I was born to be.
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Since we're all sad, angry, screaming, crying and throwing up, here's a list of the things we'll never get a chance to see bc Netflix decided to be a cunt and cancelled the show on the biggest cliffhanger known to human kind:
"I would've come for you"
"This is Wylan Van Eck. Jan Van Eck's son"
Jesper getting Inej back
All the crows together for an entire season
Not Crow related, but Zoyalai
"Is my tie straight?"
THE. ICE. COURT. HEIST-
"My darling Inej, treasure of my heart"
Kaz finding Inej's parents and literally having to hold her up when her knees weaken at the sight of them
Jesper going frantic bc Wylan (his now bf) has changed his entire appearence
Matthias calling Kaz a Demjin every two seconds
Helnik ACTUALLY kissing
Why is this adorable? Cause it is and I love it
This is what happens when you give me a white board during class.
I'm not even that big on Dream's content. This is just funny.
"You go do it!"
"Nooo! You!"
"Guys please, can we just- ow! Gary wtf!!"
*cat squabble ensues*
turned on the light in my pitch black bathroom and all 3 of my cats were on their hind legs, in a circle, beating the shit out of each like some secret feline fight club
Have you ever felt so much that you wanted to be empty? To become a doll?
It be they
Some 100hrs doodles I’ve done recently, coloured because it’s fun. (Also working on my face shapes, and not having same face syndrome…)
bonus:
meme on the man for dying. it'll be funny
the only dude ever
This hurts.... But i also love this. So much. I try and reach for ghostbur whenever I have the chance to. Too bad a lot of it is full of blue.
Counting
“Tommy please!”
“No, you’re not gonna d- you’re not gonna die, Ghostbur. Count to ten, count to ten, Ghostbur.”
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in my defense... actually no I have no defense. I'm so close to the library and can't stop getting books each time
