Boozedcowboy - Hopeless

feel this anger, darling? preserve it. keep it. never let it go. give it a room inside your heart. make it part of your soul. bury it deep inside of yourself and never show it to anyone. it's your secret. It's what keeps you going. it's your dearest friend and your worst enemy. keep being angry. keep standing up for yourself. steal everyone's anger. it is yours now.

What if after Neil died, Todd went and visited Neil's grave every day and one day, a few years after graduation, he went to Neil's grave and set a ring on the head stone asking if Neil would marry him. Neil would have obviously said yes if he were still alive so Todd buries the ring a little under the ground near the headstone and wears his around just to remind him of his first and last love. The ring is engraved with Neil's name and the day he killed himself.

(Thank you for this very sad headcanon @/the.poet.and.the.actor on Instagram.)

Study Masterpost

I spent a whole lot of time on this… tumblr post length limits KILL me when I make masterposts  ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა! I will update this with more resources, subjects etc until i run out of room. Make sure you check the tag “makabees masterposts” to find the updates. Feel free to send requests to my inbox for subjects  ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)! Most of these are free resources..

MATHEMATICS

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brilliant’s algebra practice

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Khan academy  precalculus course

Brilliant’s calculus course

Professor leonard calculus lectures

Caclulus MITOCW textbook (workbook?)

Calculus full course vid

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stanford: understanding einstein special theory of relativity course

SCIENCE 

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YALE intro to psychology lectures

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MIT ENTIRE NEUROSCIENCE OCW COLLECTION

neurology: divisions of the nervous system

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plagues witches and war: the worlds of historical fiction

✧*̥˚arts*̥˚✧

MIT open courseware Intro to art history

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✧*̥˚mythology*̥˚✧

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Dark academia is more classic and mysterious, it's not just about the studying part :))

tell me im wrong

if my mutual gets a hyperfixation, WE get a hyperfixation

- Sylvia Plath, from the 'Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath' (Pg. 522)

aizawa: and you know what the worst part is?

toshinori: that you have to process your emotional pain without vodka?

aizawa: no

aizawa: yeah

So, let me guess– you just started a new book, right? And you’re stumped. You have no idea how much an AK47 goes for nowadays. I get ya, cousin. Tough world we live in. A writer’s gotta know, but them NSA hounds are after ya 24/7. I know, cousin, I know. If there was only a way to find out all of this rather edgy information without getting yourself in trouble…

You’re in luck, cousin. I have just the thing for ya.

It’s called Havocscope. It’s got information and prices for all sorts of edgy information. Ever wondered how much cocaine costs by the gram, or how much a kidney sells for, or (worst of all) how much it costs to hire an assassin?

I got your back, cousin. Just head over to Havocscope.

((PS: In case you’re wondering, Havocscope is a database full of information regarding the criminal underworld. The information you will find there has been taken from newspapers and police reports. It’s perfectly legal, no need to worry about the NSA hounds, cousin ;p))

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Perhaps this is a Hot Take™, but as a queer person old enough to have very little formative concept of Representation In Mass Media, especially beyond queer-coded villains and the occasional Butt of The Joke (looking at you, the 90s & early 2000s), I cannot begin to see how people who are part of the LGBT+ community don’t see how deeply in love Crowley & Aziraphale are.

This is only compounded, I think, by my being an adult well past the Terrible Uncertainty of Puberty and Adolescent Feelings. That’s not to diminish the impact and potential depth of falling for someone as a kid/teen/young adult of the near-18, pre-drinking-in-America-legally persuasion; rather, that is merely to say that all this talk of “but they didn’t kiss or outright say I Love You, therefore It’s Not Canon” feels like it completely oversimplifies and wraps in far too tiny a box the matter of love, especially between queer folk. It simply overlooks how much of love is so much more than that easily wrapped box.

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