I Wanna Talk To You So Badly But Then Why Does Every Conversation With You Taste Bitter And Make Me Feel

missing his voice.

i dont think i am meant to have love in my life

"Memory of sun seeps from the heart", Anna Akhmatova (translated by D. M. Thomas)

Tw bpd vent

If you don’t want to deal with someone with mental issues don’t. I always warn new friends that I have bpd and I am going to show symptoms. Then they get surprised when I do.

Unless ur my parent you don’t have to deal with me. If you can’t handle it just be fucking honest. I don’t have the energy to be disappointed.

And no I’m not talking about “oh you can’t handle being abused, fuck you” I’m talking about when ppl get pissed that you have mental breakdowns a fuck ton of the time.

Or ignore them because you’re too depressed to talk. That type of shit.

i think the solution to my problems is to just kms

I want to pull out all my teeth randomly one night and then scare the shit out of people the next day. Or pull out every alternate tooth so none of them are touching and then put silver caps on the rest of them haha

Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them

Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were

The shame makes me want to rip my skin off

😩

Without my mental illness I wouldn't know who I am but, because of my mental illness I have no sense of self. Like the logic is super crazy.