How Do I Ascend To Deity Status? I Yearn To Be A Spirit Intertwined With The Forest.

I headcanon Steven Universe himself as autistic and I don’t see a lot of people talking about it. Because I relate to him, since I am social at times but also very overly emotional, and also Steven is probably just high masking (my hc), so it would be harder to notice and diagnose him. I’ve been comparing him to the ways in which female autism gets unnoticed and I’ve been making a little note with DSM-5 criteria that he may fit into.

Trying to figure out my gender is confusing. Womanhood is like wearing socks (I hate wearing socks but the world isn't set up for someone to not be wearing socks) and I'm definitely not anywhere like being a man. I'm pretty okay with my body but sometimes my boobs weird me out. I like that my face is a little more androgynous and makeup no longer feels like me. I think femininity and masculinity are completely made up and I'm outside of whatever they're supposed to be. I'm some type of nonbinary then, but I feel like I need to understand it beyond being not a man or woman.

I'm a Person first. I feel like a solar system, cosmic and vast. Not fully understood. Not able to be held. Everything orbiting around. My body is made of stardust as well as my soul.

I'm not sure why I'm not a woman, and I'll probably always be seen as one. But I think it would eat away at me to put myself in that box

Waiting for the day the people closest to me pick an animal they feel best represents me, Only way to know myself truly.

do not joke about the advertisements, do not engage with the advertisements in witty fashions, do not, fucking, mention the contents of the advertisements. as soon as an advertisement enters your mind, you kill it, dont care how cute it is, take it out back and shoot it. install adblock, ublock, mute the volume, look away, turn off the monitor, cover your ears, paint over it. evolve your mind, your modality, your instincts, to disregard the stimuli of advertisements before you can even process it. whatever it takes, you do not let them win. and thats an order.

Today I watched Kiki's delivery service for the first time. I cried a lot and I'm not quite sure why. I started reading 1984 because I'm scared for the future. Plus I want to get back into reading, it's been a long time. I cut my hair and took my cat on an adventure. He hated it but got some chicken at the end so I don't think he minds. My friend made soup for us. It's days like these I'm grateful for my humanity.

For years I didn't feel like a person and many people tried to take my personhood away from me. Simply because they saw me as different. Who gets to define my personhood but me?

A drawing I made a month ago that I'm still struggling with, and maybe a lot of people would relate to as well.

For me it's about my gender in conflict with my body, about the struggles of being someone with a menstrual cycle, the expectations people have of me because I'm perceived as a woman, mental health, and my asexuality. And it's about anything you see in it too.

Please don't repost my art to other platforms!

Too many of you believe that the evils of capitalism begin and end with whether or not workers get paid enough. But capitalism is inherently wasteful by design. It is resource intensive and exploitative by design. Even if we killed every billionaire and redistributed all their wealth tomorrow (a good thing) we would still have to restructure how we manage society from the ground up, globally.

And no, you as an individual are not responsible for figuring out all of the answers, sad white person. There are people all over the world already working on the solutions their communities need. We just have to empower them to make those solutions happen.

demisexuality can be so hard to explain because it’s misconstrued as you just wanting to trust the other person before you have sex with them. and I get why the misconception happens. But demisexuality differs in that there isn’t sexual attraction at all before that bond forms.

I think what people have difficulty with is the idea that there are people out there who aren’t experiencing sexual attraction at all until a certain point, if ever, because we’re taught that sex, libido, and sexual attraction are all the same, both in and out of queer spaces.

And when you’re learning about asexuality and demisexuality, you may learn that people have romantic and aesthetic attraction separately from sexual attraction, and that sexual and romantic attraction aren’t necessarily intertwined, and that may challenge your worldview on sex.

But “I trust you enough to have sex with you” isn’t the same as “I’m not sexually attracted to anyone but you, and the reason I’m sexually attracted to you now after we’ve established this close bond is literally because of the bond of trust we’ve been able to form”.

It’s easy to see how those can get conflated. On the surface, if you’re unfamiliar with asexuality, they may sound the same. But it’s important to acknowledge the difference between “no sex until I trust you” and “no sexual attraction unless I trust you and maybe not even then”.

Demisexuality is housed under the asexuality spectrum. It’s part of the gray area between being allosexual and asexual. It’s part of why the definition for asexuality includes “little to no sexual attraction”. It’s a mostly asexual experience with an asterisk.

While being demisexual may have impacts on a persons sexual activity, even demisexuals have a varied relationship to the act of participating in sex. Libido and sexual attraction are not always intertwined either, which can make telling the difference tricky.

I think of sexual attraction as libido that has a compass. Since I rarely ever experience sexual attraction, but do have libido, it’s noticeable for me when that libido actually has a direction to go, rather than being a floating, nebulous, independent thing.

Remember, not everyone is demisexual. There’s a difference between waiting to have sex and not having sexual attraction at all until a certain point. This also inherently ties demisexuality to romantic attraction and relationships, and not all demisexuals are alloromantic.

But if you read what demisexuality is and think “everyone is like that” or “that’s just being a woman”, you either 1) are demisexual 2) don’t understand what it is or 3) both. And it’s okay to not know. Just as long as you’re willing to try to learn.