Please Love The Artist They Are The BEST And I LOVE THEM

Did I just read this entire book in literally one sitting? You fucking bet I did. What I have not done is sleep... It's 4 am.........

Rewatched Firebringer and damn, Zazz and J-mills are married , fuck off with your "facts"

I'm lying.

To you,

To myself,

Maybe everybody...

What if I'm lying to myself?

What if everything I am isn't true?

What if I'm just acting?

What if I don't really love you?

What if it doesn't matter-

How badly I want to?

What if I'm a liar?

And don't even belong here?

What if I'm wrong?

And have been tricking everyone?

What if I've been manipulative?

And stringing everyone along?

What if all that I am-

Isn't even real?

What if I'm just fooling you?

And that isn't how I feel?

What if I've been grasping-

At something that isn't there?

What if I've been faking?

And I don't really care?

Cause zoning out

And talking loud

Are all that seems to fit.

What if that's why being gay

And being scared

And being nice

And being aware

And trying to be kind

Never really made sense

When I'm just going to die.

And I thought writing this would

Make me feel a little better

But inside it feels like peeling off

Almost every layer

And finding nothing inside

Of me

But a skeleton, blood, and guts

What if I'm just a liar?

And that's all I ever was?

Because I can't do this by my own renown

And saying I'm not gay

Feels like I'm letting myself down.

Feels like greeting a stranger.

Feels like the opposite

Of letting everyone I care about

D

O

W

N.

And what if that's who I should be?

What's if unlike me-

That's who they should see!

Perfect

Perfect

Perfect

Don't let anybody down-

You have to hate yourself to be happy!

While just wearing a frown

I feel myself getting down

From this pedestal I built

Maybe this-

A liar

A fake

A disappointment

A mistake

What if...

What if that's all that I can hope to me?

I just hope I won't get worse.

LOVE THEM, THEY DESERVE ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD, PLEASE AND THANK

O btw I’m posting these weird bc I’m posting according to page in my sketchbook-

I uh... I drew a chubby human Mae...

She doesn't look great but that has nothing to do with her and everything to do with me drawing this at 4 am, so it's fine.

Oh, I might color this.

The absolute best thing I've ever found at Claire's(including the Stranger Things popsockets I saw a few moments after this!)

A noice drawing that took me twenty fucking minetes(which was mostly just shading).

Although, I must say: fucking worth it.

What was I doing again?

Well, I made more lesbians. Because, clearly I didn't have enough. Anyway, meet Calyssa and Quinn, an awesome mermaid and a fucking idiot- I mean princess... Calyssa is awesome, and smart, and cool, and hot, and super gay for the human princess. Quinn is a fucking idiot, and really friendly, and d idnt know she was gay(or that she was in love with her best friend: Calyssa) until our girl Cali kisses her. Also, side-note: I fucking suck at drawing muscles.

*slams through David's bedroom door* WANNA GO ON A F-CKIN ADVENTURE??? WERE GONNA GET T R A U M A T I Z E D!!