The Absolute Best Thing I've Ever Found At Claire's(including The Stranger Things Popsockets I Saw A

I /was/ gonna make a post about how sad and lonely I am and how badly I want someone/anyone to want Me- but then my cat started playing with a ball of painter's tape that I'd left on the floor and I remembered that I fucking love cats and life is good, actually!

Meet Atlas, he's very vocal when awake but rn he's hugging my thigh and sleepin'.

I'm not ignoring you, please know that.

I'm not leaving to spite you.

I Leaving for the benefit of MY mental health.

Why does everything I do count as ignoring you when you hate Me?

You agreed with him, but neither of you want to hear me out.

Stop thinking this is about you, it's distracting you from people you like.

What am I supposed to do...

I'm terrified of getting better.

The idea of focusing on myself scares me.

I'm trying so hard to get better but I'm making myself worse.

But fuck it, I'll comfort you.

Even though you're forcing yourself to pretend you like me as though you owe me something for crying while my mom called the cops that night.

Even if I'll never be able to forgive myself for being so fucking selfish.

How dare my mother take me out of school because it's been negatively affecting me and the only reason I even went was to see my friends.

Friends.

The people that hate me.

The people that couldn't care less.

The people that wish I were dead.

Fuck it.

I'll comfort you.

When no else bothers to think about how fucking guilty I feel for even fucking breathing, fuck it.

Fine.

It's not your fault.

You're not alone.

You're not selfish.

I don't hate you.

I thought...

Nevermind.

You deserve to live.

You deserve to be happy.

You deserve good friends.

You don't deserve to have me hanging around and overstating my brief welcome.

I'm sorry for manipulating you into being my friend. God, I'm so sorry.

I want you to forget about me.

I want you to stay with people who help you.

I want you to stop wasting time on me.

I'm a hopeless bitch.

I'm a waste of time.

So stop it.

Please

I'm so sorry.

I should never have been so fucking selfish.

Because I'm not special.

And things won't get better for me.

I deserve the shit they throw.

I deserve to be isolated.

I deserve for them to hate me.

To wish I were dead.

Can't say I blame them.

You can get better.

And I hope you do.

I'm sorry.

One of our girl bunnies gave birth to at least 10 babies saturday before last, 2 were already dead when we found them.

4 were gray and tan and the other 4 were completely black.

Only 4 survived until tuesday of the following week. The 4 black ones. One died one sunday, and three on monday.

Tuesday -the day I got punished for drawing a picture- there were still alive.

Two more died -one a day- before I took the remaining two away from their mother.

She had been letting them die and them eating them.

I took care of those last two since then.

One of them was sick and died this monday.

The last one died this morning.

I had been keeping it (I kept both of them in it) in a small box -made nest with a giant sweater and a heated sock full of rice.

Last night/this morning it somehow got out and got into the dog cage.

We have three, small, very old, blind, and mostly deaf dogs.

One of which fucking loves puppies/anything reassembling puppies.

The last baby was loved to death. And with the description my mom, who found it, gave me... It's a horrible way to die.

I don't know why I'm not upset.

I don't know why I'm posting this.

Atlas(my cat): *does something; (ex:headbutting, licking my ear, rubbing his his cheek on my face and hands)*

Me: *goolges what that behavior means*

Google: katt luv u!!!

Me, cuddling, scratching, petting and overall showing affection: omg!!!!! He like me!!!!!!!

The snakey boi is now named Allistar and I love him.

Thanks to @brozkiie for the A++ name! Ily!

Hello, yes, hi, good morning, yes, greetings, um it's 3:30 in the goddamn morning, why the fuckity-fuck-fucker-truck am I awake???

Heyo, I uhhh I made an Instagram👌 same name as my Tumblr if anyone's interested😁

Some more draws and doods of Dani -the Reaper-, Lucy- the Rabbit-, and Luthier- Her Conscience. Luther's design is something I both love and hate in equal measure, so I tend to change it to be more feeble or creepy depending on the draw😅. Despite how it may look, Dani is a lot harder to draw then Lucy, and slightly less fun sometimes, I still love my dead daughter though!

I don't think I've posted a drawing of these two yet! Lemme just- fix that real quick! This is Selina Kingsley and Franklin Amdras-Simel! As you can see: my babies are growing up and I love them very much(despite the fact they don't actually exist)!